I'm Not Ok, I Just Have Hope That It Will Be

Just got back from the birthday meal that I was supposed to go to last night. It was quite nice, didn't eat that much, because dad had made an enormous lunch.

What I had was basically just a piece of grilled chicken which I bathed in chilli sauce and then stuffed down my throat.

I have to babysit again tomorrow, but first I have an interview so I'm going to be running around like an idiot and I am really not in the mood.

Today has just been quite hellish. Which is ironic considering it's Halloween.

Manchester this morning was just straining, I dislike going there so much and there are only a few reasons which makes going there worth it.

Though, after tonight, I wish I'd have stayed there.

It was funny though, I was sat with my friend and just said,

'I can't be bothered pretending to be nice today. I'm in an ignorant mood.'

She was like,

'Yeah I know what you mean. Being nice is hard work.'

I thought,

'Yes it is when you are expected to be nice ALL THE TIME.'

Don't get me wrong, generally, I am a fairly nice person...I do have a heart and it does feel for other human beings.

But, some days even nice people need to have a little kindness from other people.

Today was one of those days for me....but right now I just feel all twisted up inside...again.

You know what? I'm so upset I don't even know what to say. It's like someone has got a big stick and beat my head around multiple times and all my thoughts have mixed up into each other.

Today makes me wonder about human beings and why they act the way they do.

Why some people have to be in control all the time?
Why some people like to make others feel small?

Why some people would shoot someone who they know cares about them down just because they feel bad even though they know it would hurt the other person a lot?

I wonder if those people feel better about themselves now? Now that I feel guilty, small and pathetic?

And I wonder, why did all those people have to be ones I respect/admire/like/look up to/care for?

As far as I can see, I've not done anything to deserve this...but maybe if those people felt better because of it...well, at least something good came from a bad day.

but maybe I did deserve it.

I guess I can take this day as a lesson about people. And I have learned from them how NOT to behave from them.

So thank you, for helping me become a better person...and I feel sorry towards you because you obviously are hurt too and I'm sorry if I was insensitive in those situations (because I know I am selfish at times and don't see past my own nose).

So I think my best option is to forgive and forget...because in the grand scheme of things it's petty...so I will forgive. and I am sorry.

but that doesn't mean it didn't hurt. It's the worst I've felt in a long time.

ANYWAY!!!

I will put today behind me. I have a destiny and a future and everything that happens now is just shaping me up for then.

Kind of like the pain when you work out.

Tomorrow is another challenge and I feel so tired, so I am just going to pray, close my eyes and push every single thought out of my head.

Then I have to get up early and get a lush bath and it will be wonderful..

So good night everyone,

Goodbye October, Hello Happy 1st of November :)....Big Bang come back this month :D

Love From Minnie

Lost in the Moment

Not been online most of today O: O:

!!!SHOCKING!!!

^____^

The fact is, mum went out and took the modem with her...I was so irritated at first, but you know me, I just can't be bothered being irritated for long periods of time.

It totally kills my braincells.

Anyway, me and Sarah watched She's on Duty, which is a kind of secret undercover agent action Korean flick....I dig that film so much because it has Gong Yoo in it and he is the Coffee Prince for me...he is a complete darling.

And of course Kin Sun Ah is in it too and she is like AWESOME!

So anyway, I went on the exercise bike while we were watching that and I managed 20 minutes...I'm glad my stamina has built up since last time. I feel good today. I like getting exercise...although it makes me eat like a horse afterwards...or a cow.

There was this bowl of cooked pasta in the fridge with no sauce and I ate the entire thing...I also ate a full yellow bell pepper, and I was planning on chopping that pumpkin in the kitchen up and making a pie out of it, but then I realised we had no eggs left...and you cannot make pumpkin pie without eggs...THATS JUST STUPID!!!

Then me and Sarah cleaned....yeah I know right...weird.

but it felt nice when it was done.

It makes it easier when you have an ipod and speakers in the kitchen...we just jam out while we work.

Kind of like that scene in Snow White and the Seven Dwarves, but with Korean pop music and without little animal helpers....unless of course I consider Sarah a little animal helper, but she is bigger than me so I just can't imagine it quite right.

Me and YJ eonnie are talking about One Piece on twitter, she said Sanji is her fave character in it and find it amusing.

YJ eonnie is a great appreciator of food so its the perfect match if she likes Sanji as he is a cook.

I like Luffy the best, but I'm not sure what that makes me...an appreciator of stretchy outlaws? an appreciator of the wonderfully lighthearted unashamedly immature pirate ship captains??

It's a mystery.

Speaking of One Piece, I was watching the T.O.P. Turn it Up MV and there is one part where he totally does a Luffy pose and it turns into a wanted sign.

TOP must be a One Piece fan. I took a screenshot anyway, it's on the PC so I'll post it later.

I was watching it with Sarah and then I suddenly went

'

DASFOIUSGLHK OMG ASDUKASBJDASGF LUFFFY!!! XKDFVBDSNGALSDGBJASDGASNDLGKNASDGLKNASD...'

Sarah was like,

'Ohhhh yeahhhhh.'

Wow, its almost dark at 5:43 now....huhuhuhuhu

I MISS SUMMER AND THE LONG DAYS!!!!!

Actually, there are some parts of summer I don't miss and would rather forget about, but overall it was a fairly decent summer...memorable things happened too :)

Its the last day of October tomorrow, November sooon!!! It's hard to believe.

Halloween tomorrow though...this makes me glad I'm not at home. I always ignore the door hahahaha.

I hate halloween, its the most pointless meaningless 'celebration' ever. And the only reason people are so shallow about it is because if they celebrated it like it was originally intended they would have to sacrifice children and rape each other...erm no thankyou.

And as for the little kids dressed up as plastic witches that knock on people's doors and demand treats or else they will do something bad to you...well they are all going to grow up to be bank robbers or something.

Though sometimes I do have fun on Halloween...one year I carefully wrapped pieces of soap in sweet wrappers LOOOOOOOOL....I wonder if they liked their treat.

Another time one of my friends was staying over and when the trick or treaters knocked on the door I said I would just go get my dad. Then my friend got onto his brothers shoulders and wore this long coat and then he went to the door and started yelling at them. That was hilarious.

Just so you know that was a while ago...we were all kids then too...so it was ok to yell at other kids ROFL.

Nowadays I just feel bad cos loads of kids get attacked and stuff on Halloween...there are a lot of perverts out there and their parents don't seem to mind sending them out on their own...I don't get it.

So yeah, I really dislike Halloween and I think it's pointless. ROFL.

So I'm going to get a bit dressed up tonight cos I'm going out for my friends 29th. We are going to Nando's which is like this spicy chicken restaurant that's really popular over here atm. I'm looking forward to it actually. I haven't been out to eat since dad's birthday.

I've had a lush bath and feel so fresh and I used a face mask this afternoon, so my face doesn't feel dry anymore.

Dad came in from work and I turned around to say hello to him and he said,

'What's that on your face, it's not Halloween until tomorrow you know.'

hahaha

My only problem is my favourite jeans need washing. They are the only ones that fit me now...kind of.

I'm wearing Sarah's atm, but they fall down when I walk. It was a good job I was wearing a long coat when I took Sam out today LOLOL, I kept having to pull the jeans up....but I hate wearing a belt because -

1. I dislike the feel of when there is that extra material scrunched up at the side of my waist looking all lumpy and terrible.

and

2. Its SO annoying when you need the loo.

ITS COMPLETELY DARK NOW T____T

I can barely see my keys I should SO turn the light on.....but I'm lazehhhh.

No wait, I better get up, I need to feed Sam and find some clothes to wear anyway...I may have to wear a belt whether I like it or not...HUHUHUHU!

So I just spent some time getting ready and it turns out plans were cancelled D:

I was looking forward to that too *sigh*

Now I'm hungry too...but dad is making dinner...I'm still disappointed about Nando's...I WANNA GO OUT!!!

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Ok nevermind...Daddy made a lush dinner and now I have a cuppa tea....life iz good! XD

Just before Sarah and I were washing up I related to her a dream I had the night before....the thing is I remember it really clearly which is strange for me.

I usually only remember who was in it...at the most.

SO!! I will relate it here, because you may find it funny :D

------- THE DREAM --------

Well what happened was, an acquaintance of my sisters who was possessed by the devil and he was like looking into peoples eyes and kind of 'spreading the possession' to them and like flames were in his eyes and like blood was coming out of his mouth.
(its quite hilarious actually since this person is a complete snivelling little toad in reality...you know, think's he's God's gift to women, but the only girls who like him are those desperate ones who look orange?)

It may sound scary, but it wasn't at all...it was kind of like being in a game...you know in games when you just bump into horrendous demon creatures and it's like a normal everyday thing an you just beat its brains out??? Well it was that kind of thing....

Actually it was kind of like Transverse Town in Kingdom Hearts...there were even Disney characters in my dream.

Anyway, I looked on the sbox, and instead of our usernames we had little avatars of our baby pictures instead, but I got really upset because the baby on my avatar wasn't me, but it was this other ugly baby.

When I got over that, someone on the sbox (can't remember who) was like,

'Minnie, you missed out on all the fun YJ and Jae were having a spam race on Livejournal Via Twitter.'

and I got annoyed because I'd missed it and also because they called him Jae and for some reason in my dream I didn't want anyone else calling him that *cough*

Then the dream sort of swung around to the possessed guy and we were all hiding behind walls and houses in this little town...and there were random battles going on everywhere with all those other possesses people and like everyone was there...all my friends from when I was at school, my VIP family, people from church...and a bunch of Disney characters...and also there were loads of animals, like snakes and I had my dog with me too.

and I was running around looking for a tiny mirror or something and there was this big wide road and I felt really open and vulnerable because there was no shelter and it was really quiet.

You know in a game when there is a big fight going on, but you run out of that area to build up your stamina and you are waiting for the baddy to follow you, but he doesn't and you are just standing in this lonely area while the battle is going on somewhere else and it's kind of scary???

Well it was like that.

So I decided to go back and join together with all my friends and when I got there, suddenly my dad appeared and he had this ball of light in his hands, and he was like

'Use this mermaid power to defeat the enemy.'

and I took it and put it in the tiny mirror (the one I was looking for earlier) and it shone, you know like the magic mirror does in Beauty and the Beast??

And then one of my High School classmates came along and he had the light in his hands too and he was like,

'LETS BLAST HIM!!!'

and then we shone the light at the possessed guy and everything went light and then I woke up.

----THE END----

YEP, weird wasn't it??? XDDDD

So my sister asked me if she could check her tumblr on my lappy and she ended up looking at pictures for over and hour lololol

It happens, I almost fell asleep on her shoulder.

Found another one of these on tumblr, the questions look a bit more interesting than usual so here goes ----

Pick a word that starts with the first letter of your first name;

Mischievous

Does sex ruin relationship?

Sometimes, I suppose, at the right time it's a good thing...but I honestly don't know.

If you needed help at 3am, who would you call?

Parents...or I don't know...it depends on the problem.

What was the last thing you said to your mother?

WHATTTT????...she called upstairs and I couldn't hear her hahaha...I think she wanted Sarah in the end.

Do you resemble your siblings at all?

I have no idea...some people say we are alike...others say they wouldn't even know we were related...

How is everything in your life going?

No work yet, which is pooo (but honestly I've been too sick the past few weeks to even try and look properly)

My friends - All far away whether in this country or not...but it's all ok, the love still goes on :D

My Family - at the moment we are all getting along and there have been no arguments today which is WONDERFUL!

My doggy - I LOVE HIM :D :D

Overall - Everything is pretty goood

Is there someone you just can’t imagine your life without?

My God, Who is there when everyone else is not and stays even when I don't deserve anything.

Do you currently have a hickey?

Noooo XD

What time did you wake up today?

Abouuttt 8:40am and I was STILL SO tired when I got out of bed...but I managed to stop myself going back to sleep!! I FEEL SO ACCOMPLISHED!

Do you have someone that you can tell anything to?

I would say Jesus and my sister, but then they probably know/guess even before I have to tell them...which is kind of useful in some respects, but then I should kind of expect it since One of them is my God and the other shares my DNA.

I guess I do tell a lot to my Zaty eonnie though and my triplets are great listeners too and I suppose Jae has been there when I've needed to spill the beans.

but other than those I NEVER tell anyone anything...not even my oldest friends...I know it seems strange, but that's me.

I use this blog to spam out too...I find it helps.

Do you think high school relationships can last?

I want to say no, but I've seen it happen so yes it can last haha...

Would you date a 20 year old at your age?

If he looked like Key from SHINee I would...LOOOOL...but I dunno...I can't be bothered even thinking about dating at the moment. I'd rather just be friends than date...then after a while of being friends you can figure out whether you like each other or not...calling it dating makes it sound shallow, especially if it is serious and if it isn't serious it just means the two people can violate each other and then say...'ohhhh it didn't work nevermind'...and move on to the next shallow 'relationship.'

If he's 20 and serious about me...I will say no kindly, not because of his age, but because I'm all for someone else...sorry 20 year old, even if you do look like Key.

Are you missing anyone right now?

YEP, LIKESOMUCH!....

The person you have the most feelings for calls you right now, what do you do?

Say 'hello' and act all cool and 'oh, you called?' ish. but actually I'd be spazzing out and would probably say overly weird things because I'm sleepy...and then we would have a weird conversation and he would say 'oh really?' like a million times and then I would go to sleep in a VERY content mood...and I'd probably smile for like a week.

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?

Hell yeah!! I look good right now. I'm all ready to go out to a cancelled dinner haha.

Are you easy to get along with?

I think so, I have to force myself though because I'm naturally shy...but I think people who know me well feel comfortable in my company. cus I'm chill bro! XD

How did you get your last bruise?

Sarah elbowed me in the right arm because apparently I made fun of her...I shoed it her yesterday and she pressed it. Isn't she a darling?

Do you have a best friend?


Yes, more than one.

Do you judge people?

Yeah I do. But I try not to until I know the well enough to make an accurate judgement...there is always a reason why people are the way they are. And even after I have figured them out...I still try and be nice to them...whatever they are like.

Why did you last cry?

Watching Lord of the Rings today LOOOOOOOOL

Who is your last text from?

Someone from church.

Do people often judge you?

YEP! Often they are wrong...its very rare they are right....and if they are right, I probably tell the they are wrong hahahaha

Have you ever had a sleepover with the last person you kissed?

Heck no

Who was the last person you laid next to?

Sister?

Could you go the rest of your life without a cigarette?

Yep, I will never smoke. I can say that with confidence.

Is there a specific reason you’re not dating the last person you texted?

Yeah! She's a woman!

Who was the last person you hugged?

My dog LOL...and yes, I view him as a person.

Do you believe everything you hear?

Yes and No....I'm a kind of innocent until proven guilty kind of person...but I'm not an idiot...I don't give out opinions on something till I'm sure it's true or whatever...

When is the next time you are going to drink alcohol?

Never...why would I drink a chemical that is used to kill bacteria and light fires? I'll stick with tea.

Do you hate people?

No

Is there a girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you?

My sister.

Have you ever shared a blanket with someone?

Yeah I have.

Are you in a good mood?

Sleepy, but yes, the mood is good.

Did you speak to your father today?

Yeah...he prodded me in the side and said I needed to put on weight and said,

'All you have to do is go on the same diet your mum is on and you'll gain weight.'

I'm glad mum didn't hear that.

Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

Yes, but that doesn't mean the reason is always a good one...and I think the things that happen depend on the choices we make.

Would you change your name?

Maybe my last name :)

You’re single, why?

Because this is not the time to be un-single...and I'm single, but that doesn't mean I'm available :D geddit?

In the last 6 months can you say you cared about someone?

Without a doubt I can,

Your phone is ringing. It’s your ex. What would you say?

'Hey, you don't exist.'

Do you like to cuddle?

YEZZZZZ SO MUCH.

Last night, you felt?

Most probably...sleepy

Will you regret your next kiss?

I hope not...no I wont.

Ever had a guy best friend?

No...most of my friends are girls. I have very few guy friends. The one's I do have however, I love very much :) They are exceptional.

How is your last ex doing?

I don't have one :) and I'm glad

Who was the last person to call you a bitch?

I dunno...I don't think that word describes me very well haha.

Would you kiss the last person of the opposite sex you texted?

I'm presuming you mean the person other than my dad?.... :D secret.

Have you ever eaten a bug?

Yes...not on purpose though.

Are you on any type of drugs?

LOVE and CAFFEINE INNIT!

Do you even believe in love?

I sure do :)

Have you finished school yet?

YES!! A LOOOONG TIME AGO.

What’s your father’s middle name?

Vaughan .... yes, I know :/

Are you American?

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPE! :) IM BRITISH

Are you going to bed after this?

Absolutely 100% YES! and its daylight savings tonight, so I get an hour extra in bed :D

Where do you live?

On a little island surrounded by the North Sea and the Atlantic Ocean

Congratulations , you’re pregnant! What do you say?

I will call him Squishy and he shall be my Squishy.

or

It's true...you can get pregnant just by looking at G Dragon.

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That's all folks ~

Love From Minnie

You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope.

This post will be short, but I dunno if it will be sweet cos I'm not really the sweet type...I have no idea what type I am actually, I think people see me how they want to...but nevah mindu!!!

Babysitting again today, my arms KILL from trying to get him to sleep...he kept dozing off and as I went to lay him in his bed...he woke up and grabbed onto me.

It happened three times and then I gave up and let him play LOL.

Screw sleeping schedules!!!

He was supposed to sleep at 10:30am, but I didn't manage to get him to sleep until 3pm, bless him.

When I got home I cuddled Sam for like an HOUR!!

I missed him. He got all hyper and brought his ball to me so I threw it down the staircase for him.

Its great exercise and he likes it. It's what I do on rainy days too.

I take him in the garden so he can do his business, and then I bring him inside and throw the ball down the stairs for him.

Running up and down there several times is great for his cardiac. Heck! Even I run up and down the stairs when I have a fat day.

Girls always have fat days. It doesn't necessarily mean you are fat, it just means you feel fat or ugly or something.

but its ok in the end, because then a good day will come around where you are super self confident and the world is at your feet....or something.

Generally I just live.

So when I got home Sarah and I watched Persuasion and The Devil Wears Prada...so much for our VIOLENT movie we wanted to watch.

I guess we will have to wait until we get uber annoyed at something or whatever.

Violent movies are the best when you are annoyed....either that or killing things in a game.

But Persuasion is SUCH a good story...it just shows you how much heartbreak can occur over lack of communication....or bad communication.

If the main guy character had not been proud and had admitted earlier on that he still loved the main girl character...they would both have been happier.

but I guess then, there wouldn't have been that much of a story...

The cutest line in the movie,

'I am in receipt of your proposal and am happy to accept it...thankyou.'

Awwww

It's so cute when someone gets their happy ending *sniff*

It's the kind of story that makes you think that you would rather have no romance at all if you can't have a fine one.

Since when did being in love with someone become so cheap?.....oh right, it was at that moment when some fool decided it would be fun to love multiple humans at the same time.

I really get exasperated with it all.

If a girl loves a guy...then all other guys shouldn't even be guys to her...they should be like, just other people...in fact, the very thought of forming an attachment to anyone else should seem completely ridiculous...even sickening.

Well that's the way I feel anyway...if it's not that one person then it's just completely nauseating.

Why is my time line on twitter being spammed up with Jay Park fanatics =.=

How irritating.

Anyway, I got payed for babysitting so that is going to go straight into my travelling fund....lets hope no dvd releases occur between now and when I take the money to the bank haha...or else I'm in trouble.

I'm DYING for a bath, but I'm too tired now so I will get one in the morning!

EEEK it's like 12:38am!!! My face feels really dry too *sigh*

I guess I'm just saying really random stuff.

We are going to Manchester this Sunday....DNW!!!

I wish I was going to Manchester to hop on a plane at airport and go to some eastern place far from Europe....but in fact I'm just going to perhaps the foulest part of Manchester....and I have no idea why.

I guess dad just likes the place he was born...well where we were all born...apart from Sarah and my doggy.

Ok, I'm really sleepy now (that should completely be my personal slogan)

Good Night

Love from Minnie

P.S. On Bonfire night I'm going to stay at home with Sam and watch One Piece episode's with the volume up reallllllllly high so he wont be scared of the noises that the fireworks make.

*Sigh* Lovely.

I Love 'Weird, but in a Good Way.'

HEYYY!!!

I'm at my friends house again today, ready for another day of babysitting tomorrow.

I had no idea how tiring it could be, but Its nice and this bed is just sooo comfy.

I know tomorrow morning I will have to sit through mind numbing Episodes of Into the Night Garden where Iggle Piggle and Upsie Daisy will dance and kiss each other because they are best friends....Since when do girl and guy best friends freely kiss each other!!!

WHAT ARE THESE PROGRAMS TEACHING CHILDREN?!?!?!

There are even these characters in it who take off their pants, Im not lying

THEY LOVE TO TAKE OFF THEIR PANTS AND THEY HAVE A SONG ABOUT THEIR PANTS!!

It just stresses me out...

BUT ANYWAY!!!!!

Apart from the scariness of what I will have to watch tomorrow.

TODAY HAS BEEEN GOOOD!!!

Well

It had a few weird moments.

Like when I was totally hyperventilating (LOL).

You know when you like have energy in your body and you feel so spazzy inside and you don't know how to release it...but you kind of wish you could redirect the energy out of your arms like in Avatar where Unle Iroh redirects the blue lightening???

Well thats how I felt.

Then there was an shouting downstairs and I was like DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD: hoping I wouldn't be somehow brought into the sdfjhajdfhakjshdfkjas of it all.

I really hate shouting, unless its at appropriate places, like a football match or a Big Bang concert or something.

I should have really gone down and helped my sister, but I think I would have only made things worse....I have a habit of doing that nowadays.

And in the end the telephone rang and she was saved by the bell hahahha.

THEN! I went on the sbox to see if they were spazzing out so I could release some of that energy by keyboard slamming....but they were talking about friggin hard drive hard disk thingies and saying words like 'ram'....to me that is a male sheep!!!

One guy even said a dinosaur name and called it computer equipment...which is VERY strange of him.

Fanboys these days HUHUHU

Anyway I was staring at the sbox in complete and utter confusion watching people argue about their hard drive knowledge...but it turned out all right in the end because some lovely person unknowingly rescued me and then everything was ok then.

Then of course I got picked up from home and HERE I AM!!!

And you know I am very tired and tomorrow will be busy, so I apologise for the short post but I do want a good nights sleep.

Thankyou for understanding darlings :)

Love from Min

P.S. Smile Smile :D

I Like Every Way You Are...just not 'Away'

I woke up at 11am today and I didn't get out with Sam until it 1pm (Sorry baby)

Its the longest I've slept in AGES, it was just so deep - though I did have a really weird dream...I can't remember how it went, only that it was weird.

I guess the all the sleep was good for me though, because I felt really fresh and with more energy today for the first time in like 2 weeks, even now I'm not overly sleepy (FOR ONCE)!

I bought a dvd called Leap Year the other day when I went to get my Iron Man 2 DVD because it was on offer and the lead actor in it is someone Sarah likes to spazz about.

So that was what we watched today. It was pretty good, not like spectacular, but a decent chick flick if you are into that shizz. It had some cute and funny moments and I would watch it again...so I'm glad I got it.

There are some DVD's on my shelf that I would never watch again LOL - for some things even once is too much.

My favourite type of films are clever ones. You know, the kind that make you think or the kind that shows life how it is...or even beautiful ones, House of Flying Daggers is so beautiful, I especially like the fight in the bamboo because its all green, which is my favourite colour....though the kissing in that movie is wierd...I always fast forward it.

I should totally list ten of the best films I've ever seen.

IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER (because that is impossible) -

1. The Lion King
2. The Notebook
3. Star Wars Episode IV - A New Hope
4. The Great Escape
5. The Princess Bride
6. Superman
7. Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon
8. Monsters Inc.
9. Cyborg Girl
10. Lawrence of Arabia

I'm surprised how easy I found it to write that list - those are just the movie's that appeared in my head, because I know for sure they are awesome.

but honestly, I could totally fill that top ten with Disney Animated movies because I just adore them...my favourite is the Lion King though so that's why it's there.

Allright, so earlier on the sbox YJ eonnie linked me to an ebayer who is selling the ring necklace that Rinoa has in the Final Fantasy VIII game.

I ADORE THAT GAME!!!

Its so amazing!!! You know what...I' just going to stop here about FFVIII because otherwise I will go into an in depth character breakdown and cover the whole synopsis of the storyline and it would take me forever.

BUT I WANT THAT RING NECKLACE!!!! IT'S A BEAUTIFUL SYMBOL OF TRUE LOVE!!! XD

I dunno what is wrong with my doggy tonight, he's being really clingy and restless and is acting like I haven't fed him when I totally have.

I don't care if he is hungry though, I'm not feeding him anymore today. He is on a diet...the vet told me I have to cut his food down 10% so I'm sorry baby, but that's it until tomorrow.

LOL, the sbox on BBVIP is totally dead. It needs the magical touch of a first gen...but I'm afraid it won't be me, cus I wanna sleep soon. I hope it's another deep sleep - they are kind of addicting...I just hope my dream isn't weird again...I want a proper dream that will make me happy, or no dream at all!

Ok there is totally another 100 Truth's thing flying around facebook and I think it's kind of different from the last one I did...and I'm not sure what to write about right this moment so I will be lazy and just post that here instead :D

I will try and make the answers interesting DONT WORRY!!! ----

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage = Tea in the Union Flag cup...cus I'm just so proud of my country.... and it was the only clean cup left MUAHAHAHHA.

2. Last phone call = That would be Nicole, saying she got back to Germany ok :D

3. Last text message = From dad telling me that he and Sarah had gone to Old Trafford to watch a game....how kind of him -.- ....I don't get texts a lot, that one was from last night ROFL

4. Last song you listened to = Ohhh It was a Michael Buble one and I totally forgot the title, but I was getting all emotional listening to it cos ITS SO TRUE...hmmm I think it was a cover...AHHHH what's it called??!!! Wait Lemme google it ...dum dum dummmm....OH YEAH.... It was Always on My Mind Michael Buble Version... in fact I shall post it here, so you can listen to it if you wish :)



I don't like the cheesy pictures in that vid, but meh...its the best I can find...and it's the song that matters.

5. Last time you cried = I haven't cried this week yet!!! :D I cried watching a film last week, but I can't remember what film it was :/

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice = NO

7. Been cheated on = NO

8. Kissed someone and regretted it = NO

9. Lost someone special = Yes

10. Been depressed = Oh yeah I have indeed...not today though...today I was happy, irritated, confused, annoyed, content, but in love ----and not depressed :D

11. Been drunk and threw up = NEVAH EVER

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

Green, Blue .... and all the rest...can't choose between yellow and orange

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)

15. Made a new friend = Yes
16. Fallen out of love = No
17. Laughed until you cried = Yes
18. Met someone who changed you = Not this year - last year yes
19. Found out who your true friends were = I've always known Who my True Friend is :)
20. Found out someone was talking about you = Probably
21. Kissed anyone on your fb's friend's list = No, not really.

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your fb friend's list do you know in real life = About
half?...I don't get this question, this is all my real life and I know all the people on my FB (mostly) so is it trying to say that the one's I haven't met yet are not apart of my 'real life' because I beg to differ.

23. Do you have a big house = Its big enough.

24. Do you have any pets = A Doggy and a Pony

25. Do you want to change your name = No, my name is fine thanks...nicknames are ok though.

26. What did you do for your last birthday = Had curry...was happy.

27. What time did you wake up today = 11am

28. What were you doing last night = Writing Blog (harhar) and sleeping.

29. Name something you cannot wait for = Meeting certain people...waiting is the only option though at the mo...unfortunately.

30. Last time you saw your mother = Like maybe 10 mins ago, she's downstairs haha.

31. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life = The fact that I put up imaginary boundaries up in my head...they limit me and don't help me reach what I want....I don't like that about myself...I do wan't to change that.

32. What are you listening to right now = Nothing....the wind blowing outside

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = Yeah. My nextdoor neighbour is called Tom.

34. What's getting on your nerves right now = The fact that dad just asked me to wash the dishes at 12:15 am .... not going to happen. They can wait till tomorrow.

35. Most visited webpage = Facebook, BBVIP, Tumblr, Twitter....I mostly always have those open haha.

36. Days online = Everyday!!!!

37. Nicknames = Minnie, Min, Cow, Chicken (LOOOL), Nubcak, Lime.

38. Relationship staus = Single, but not available...my hearts been stolen innit.

39. Zodiac sign = Gemini

40. Male or female = I am Female....but I like Male's haha

41. Elementary = Dudley Hill First School and Summerville Primary

42. High school = New Harvest Learning Centre + Homeschool Days

43. College = Askham Bryan College

44. Hair color = Reddy...Auburn???

45. Long or short = My hair? It reaches down to my lower back...need's major cuttage.

46. Height = 5'2 *looks up at you*

47. Do you have a crush on someone = Nooo, I just love them really.

48. What do you like about yourself = I'm pretty easy to get along with I think...maybe???...and I like that I can draw.

49. Piercings = Me Ears.

50. Tatoos = Ew no

51. Righty or lefty = Right

FIRSTS:

52. First crush = Mickey Mouse.

53. First piercings = Ears for my 7th birthday. Didn't feel a thing :P

54. First best friends = Philippa

55. First sport you joined = Gymastics

56. First vacation = The Lake District

58. First car = Still not happened yet I'm afraid :(

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating = No

60. Drinking = Nope, Im in bed.

61. I'm about to = SLEEP :D YAAAAY

62. Listening to = Haven't we had this question??!!! WTH!!! Can't you be more inventive with your questions?!!!!!

63. Waiting for = This to be finished so I can sleep.

YOUR FUTURE:

64. Want kids = After this week I don't want kids any time soon, but one day maybe, when someone will make me change my mind haha.

65. Get married = Yep

66. Career = Something with animals...but right now, I would just like to live happily.

WHICH IS BETTER:

67. Lips or eyes = Both are equally important.

68. Hugs or kisses = Hugs are good for everyone...kisses are for special people....I guess, you would use hugs more.

69. Shorter or taller = Taller

70. Older or younger = I don't mind...as long as its not too old or too young.

71. Romantic or spontaneous = Doesn't matter, if you love them you will get all spazzy about everything they do.

'OMG HE BREATHED!!!'

LOLOLOL

72. Nice stomach or nice arms = NICE EVERYTHING

73. Sensitive or loud = Sensitive, loud people make me want to block my ears.

74. Hook-up or realtionship = Relationshippp

75. Trouble maker or hesitant = A bit of both at the right moments.

HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger = -.-

77. Drank hard liquor = Ew

78. Lost glasses/contacts = YEAH LOTS OF TIMES.

79. Sex on first date = NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! :)

80. Broke someone's heart = Nope

81. Had your own heart broken = Bruised maybe...but it's still ticking.

82. Hurt someone = Physically? Yes. Emotionally? Yes too.

83. Turned someone down = Always :)

84. Cried when someone died = Yes I have.

85. Fallen for a friend = Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself = *pinches self* Well it does seem that I am real.

87. Miracles = Yeah I do indeed.

88. Love at first sight = YES

89. Heaven = Yes.

90. Santa claus = LOL, it's a nice Idea.

91. Kiss on the first date = Depends on how close you are with the person.

92. Angels = Yes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

93. Had more than one bf/gf = I've not had one.

94. Did you dance today = I flailed in the car.

95. Did you sing today = Yus I did.

96. Ever cheated on somebody = No.

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go , and why = No, the past is the past.

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = Nooo, I think living a day once is enough...and we should look forward to the other days we have yet to live.

99. Are you afraid of falling in love with somebody else? = No, I know I wont...I'm not programmed like that. Being in love with one person is enough. Everyone else can just get lost.

100. Are you in love with someone? = Word. Fallen Hook, Line and Sinker, Bro. I'm a lost cause...'I can't help it...Itss soo beautifulll'

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ANNND its 10 to 1

So I will cuddle down in my bed now sdkhjdkjhskdjhsk SO WARM!!!

Love From Minnie

P.S. noob *points*

Lets Make Something Meaningful Out of what We Have

Allright, you my readers will all have seen me ranting about my love of certain people that I met on a certain forum. I decided that I would explain this a little better, so when you read my posts you will know what the hell I am talking about, why I love them the way I do and how amazing they are.

And I hope to express how lucky I am...no not lucky...how BLESSED I am, to have come into contact with such tremendous characters.

I started writing a little something, and then realised that...it's way too long some I'm just gonna put a lil something in my usual post for today...I hope you like it. :)

Should I start from the beginning???

OK :) This is the story of the most amazing people in the world.

One day in the year 2009...to be precise - it was May the 2nd 2009 - I was on a blog that was dedicated to Big Bang when I saw it was promoting the opening of a new International Big Bang Forum (bigbangvip.net go check it out if you are a VIP :).

I thought,

'I'm not doing anything, I might as well join.'

I must tell you now that before then I had joined a few forums and never actually been active on them at all...I didn't really think I would be active on this one either.

Anyway I read the rules (because I'm one of those people who reads rules and instructions and stuff) and decided to make a 411 so that other members of the forum could get to know me a little better.

Soon I started getting comments on my 411 from other lovely members of the forum who wanted to be friends and I was getting quite into the whole forum community spirit thingy.

Little did I realize how important some of them would become to me.

This was my introduction -

Hi fellow VIPs!!!!

'Let me introduce myself '

My name is Minnie, I come from England and I will be 21 years old later on this month (arrghh where is my youth going?!!!)
Just like everyone else here I am a huge fan of Big Bang, I think thier music is awesome and inspiring and am very proud to be part of this family.

I love each of the BB boys for their unique talents and personalities, I love how they manage to be the perfect team and and yet are still able to retain their individuality.....but, I DO have a favorite and he is called Kwon Ji Yong..he makes me very happy...ALL THE TIME. When I speak of him I referr to him as My Pet, my sister finds this disturbing, but I couldnt care less

I'm currently studying Animal Managment and Science at university and I'm in my second year...which will be over in a weeks time and it will be time for SUMMER!!!! I like animals very much and would like to work in the conservation field. I have a pet dog called Sam and I treat him like he was my child...most people find this strange, but soon come to terms with it.

This is my doggy ----



He's so cute right?

My favorite thing to do (apart from spazz over Big Bang stuff) in my spare time is drawing. I wish I had more time to do some art, but uni work has priority at the mo'. I LOVE drawing BIg Bang members though, thier beautiful faces are great inspiration.

Other stuffs about me:

*I like the colour GREEN the best
*I adore asian dramas
*I'm a Final Fantasy Geek and have spent many hours of my like playing on a playstation.
*I like writing short stories and poetry (usually happy stuff, I only write serious stuff if I actually really feel deeply about the subject)
*Im a BIG Manchester United fan and totally love that we have a top class Korean footy player on our team - Park Ji Sung (he scored an amazing goal on Saturday BTW)
*I would like to visit Korea and Japan in the future
*One of my dreams is to see Big Bang perform live (the concert dvd's turn me into a screaming fangirl, goodness knows what I'd be like at the real thing, hehe).

Anyway, I'll be glad to know you, peace

This is me -----



It was New Years Eve about two years ago, but its all I can find for the moment....I'm the one closest to the camera

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Here are the replies - some of the first words these glorious people ever gave to me

:)

Zaty Eonnie -

hey minnie..welcome to the forum...

im zaty from malaysia and im older than the boys..23 this year..(wat is this ahjumma doing spazzing these boys rite?)

well i like green too but sadly im not nature freak..haha

hope to c u again at the cbox..

toodle-loo~~~

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YJ Eonnie -

Hi Minnie...
I'm YJ from Brunei ^^
Hehe, I'm 21 years also, but my brain is like 8 years old kid, haha no just kidding but sometimes I can be acted like that
So agreed!! Their songs is just so inspired, it inspired me lots ^^
I love GD and TOP and the favorites are....all of them ^^ So hard to choose for a fav to me...

Wow, animal management? Science? You are so smart....
Aww, you treat your dog sam like a family? Aww and no, it is not strange, I dont found it strange ^^

I would love to see your drawing one day, I love drawings and art as well but more to digital one but anything for me that is art and drawing, I can be so addicted. And drawing, I love to sketch character like anime type ^^
Oh gosh, I want to see your drawing about Big Bang.
Well I have draw TOP in anime version but I dont know, still need details I gues ^^

Yes!! I found another green loves, I love green so much.
Final Fantasy - Square Enix is my inspiration, I love Final Fantasy and my favorites is gotta be FFXII and the fav characters is Larsa and Penelo. You play FFXII, as well, right?
Ohoho, you are just like my little brother MANU fans. Aww, but me, I'm Chelsea fans ^^
We both share the same dream; to see BB live performance but I guess its VIP dreams, right?

Minnie, it is great to meet you...
So I see you around yea?
Welcome to the forum and I hope to see you around in my 411 yea?
Take care minnie ^^


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These replies were only just formalities though.

The adventure REALLY began when I picked up the courage to talk on the forum shoutbox.

It actually took me a few days to be brave enough to say 'hello', I'd seen people talking on it, but had never jumped into the conversation.

My username at that time was Sam-is-VIP.

The first time I spoke on the sbox EVERYONE said, 'Hello Sam!'

I don't know how many times I had to tell everyone that I was actually called Minnie and that Sam was my dog.

And all I remember is how sweet they all were...it was a while back, but I remember YJ and Zaty and also Rina there and how delicious they were.

Our story really begins on the sbox...

And I will finish here for today, but that doesn't mean I've introduced all the members of that first generation VIP family. There are still some VERY important pieces of the puzzle left to fill in.

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Ok well, I hope you liked that, I probably could write it better, but don't expect the next part tomorrow or something....it's for special days haha.

Ok so I'm always going on about how tired I am and you are probably completely sick of it, so I'm just going to get it out of the way now.

IM SO TIRED!!!!

Ok

I slept SO well, that bed was so comfy I can't even!!

I thought I would wake up by myself, but actually Dora had to come and wake me.

The day wasn't much to talk about. I just watched mind numbing kids programs and played with Judah most of the morning. Then I got my laptop out and chatted a bit while he slept.

It wasn't a very intellectually stimulating day, and then Judah's daddy came home and
totally nicked my laptop off me and then let the power run out of it so it turned off.

Hmmmmm

So if you were talking to me on msn SORRREEEE!!!! My lappy was kidnapped.

Then Dora came home from work and made a stir fry thingy and my arms were finally free.

I had no idea how painful it is to carry around a child the while day...my wrist is just sdfdsjkfksdjfskdfj.

I am babysitting again on Friday too, but dora says she's going to pay me for this week cos it's not just a one off like last time.

I wouldn't mind really...she did feed me, but it will be nice to be payed for doing something.

When I got home I discovered my dad had taken Sarah to watch Manchester United AT Old Trafford and I was well jealous for like 10 minutes, but it's nice that she got to go and I've been to football matches there before so it was her turn tonight.

They won too 3-2 and Hernandez scored (who she loves, because she thinks he looks like Sokka with a shaved head) and also PARK scored who we are totally biased towards because he is Korean and Big Bang totally support him when he plays internationally. So it was kind of cute that she got to see it.

AND now I'm DYING for a cup of tea, but I have a rant.

....oh nevermind....I'll let this be a positive post. My rant can wait until the perfect day I can rant about it and this gives me a chance to make my cup of tea :D

brb

LOL me and my mum just had this massive argument about how rubbish I am and then we went silent for like five minutes and then started talking as if nothing had happened.

Just another episode of weirdness in my life.

I was walking down to the shops with my sister the yesterday, so I could buy Iron Man 2 (btw the trees look SO GORGEOUS right now!!! All red and gold...You see them and wonder how people cannot believe in God).

Anyway, recently some of my VIP family have managed to meet up with each other and Sarah was saying what she would do if when she would meet them for the first time.

She was like,

'I WOULD RUN UP TO THEM AND HUG THEM.'

And she actually ran down the street with her arms outstretched to show me how she would do it ROFL.

Then I was like,

'I'd like to think I'd do the same but we all know what would happen. I would just stand there all shy and quiet and awkward turning red and then purple (ok maybe not purple)'

She was like,

'Yeah that's so you...but after like 10 minutes you'd get brave and show your true colours.'

Then I said,

'Do you think I'm boring Sarah?'

and she was like,

'NO!!! WTH Minnie!!'

and I said,

'Well I was thinking the other day about how I spazz out, but then I really like to rest and sleep and chill and sometimes I can't even be bothered speaking...so what if people meet me thinking I'll be spazzy all the time and then get disappointed because I'm all mellow and shizz.'

But this conversation got me thinking.

There are always sides of people that jump out and surprise you, sides that you might never think would be there.

So I guess I'd like people to know that I do have a quiet side to me...and it is actually quite a dominant part of who I am. If you ask anyone who has known me for most of my life to describe me they will say I'm quiet.

It's kind of weird actually...outside the net I'm known for my quietness and inside the net I'm known for my spazzyness.

And I'm not being two faced...because I am a complete spazzer don't get me wrong...I will spazz till the cows come home...I just tend not to express myself like that publicly.

There are about 3 people in the world who I will allow to see me spazz out, one of them is my sister.

In fact, if you want to get a REAL account of how I am, ask her.

I guess it all depends on my moods and on the situation and who I'm with.

I just wanted to write this because recently someone told me they saw a side of someone and it shocked and upset them...because someone who was supposedly nice had been horrible to them.

It's always good to remember every human is like a million personalities in one body...I think that's the beauty of people...they are so complicated and wonderful and unique...you really shouldn't be surprised if you learn something new about someone every time you see them. And then you can learn to love every single piece of them.

(btw, I would totally hug my VIP's when I see them...being starved of someones presence for almost two years tends to override my shy mode :D...that is, if they want a hug LOL *sends brain hug*)

Anyway, it is now ten minutes to twelve so I will finish here for tonight.

Thankyou for reading, you are like AMAZING (JUST THE WAY YOUUU AREEEEE) ...oooh cheesy.

Uhhh I had the greatest title for todays blog and I can't even remember what it was T____T....I'm so bad at being imaginative for titles, I just make up random shizz usually.

Love Min

P.S. 95% of a persons beauty is not what they look like, but it's how they are...and also, if someone is truly beautiful on the inside, it really does show in their physical appearance...they are really attractive and you like them and want to be with them.

And visa versa, someone who is physically attractive can be ugly because they are horrible people and they will probably die alone or something.

So if anyone tells someone I love that they are ugly when I know fo sho they are not, It will be a good thing for them that they live oceans away otherwise I would shove a mirror in front of their pathetic faces and show them what ugly really is!

I can handle it when people call me ugly or whatever, but if it happens to my friends or dongsaengs I tend to fly off the handle....I need to calm down.

P.S.S. I wanna read One Piece manga, but I forget the name of the website where the scans are T____T help someone!!!

P.S.S.S. I am always constantly aware that there is at least one person that I love on every continent. It makes me happy.

Thinking of you :)

Night

Counting Sheep

Im at Dora's atm staying for the night so I don't have to travel early in the morning to come and babysit Judah.

Im SO glad I connected my laptop to the wireless here last time I came XD

Dora has gone to bed and her sis did too, and I just am not tired enough to sleep yet.

You know when you stay at someone's house and you can't get to sleep easily because it's a strange place?

Well I'm tired, but I just wanna make sure that I get a good night's sleep...so I'll stay awake till 12am and then I'll probably just drift to sleep as soon as my head hits the pillow.

It's not so bad at Dora's house though because I'm comfortable here, but I do tend to overthink when I'm trying to get to sleep.

Last time I was here I sent someone a text about how I missed their nose...don't blame me though, when I'm lonely I miss weird things...and it is a lovely nose...

That can be my 9th Like -

That nose.

:D

Its 11:11!

I don't wish though, I pray.

I pray that I sleep and that it lasts ever so long. My head is already drooping haha.

This bed is really comfy though, but I miss Sammy...even though you don't always see him in the house, you always know he is somewhere about and of course, I don't get that feeling here.

My little baby dsjdkajsdka

On BBVIP they were talking about arranging a trip to go to Big Show 2012 and it's all very exciting talking about it, but it's kind of so far in the future you have no idea what will happen between now and then...there might not even be a Big Show 2012...Big Bang don't tend to stay with the same routine for too long.

All I know is, I wanna see my friends in my own time and in the place that is best for us...and I'd rather see them before 2012 LOL...not that I mind the idea of having a VIP trip, it's a nice idea and it would be lovely if it worked out....it just seems very stressful to me ahahah, maybe it's because I'm feeling sleepy right now.

Cus you know, if I were any more laid back I would totally fall over (kekekeke).

OH OH!

I got my Iron Man 2 dvd today *smiles*

It's just well awesome and impressive.

*sigh* I do love a good superhero flick.

Anyway, Im almost completedly KO'd so I need to sleep.

G'night darlings :D

Love From Min

Some Things Just Can't be Helped :)

Its past twelve so I will be brief in this post. I didn't sleep well last night after all my screeching about drifting off to sleep.

I woke up around 11pm and then got up and watched funny big bang clips until almost 1am with Sarah, THEN! I was tired enough to sleep...I hate my overthinking brain sometimes...why can't it sleep like the rest of my body wants to? XD

Today was preety ok, nothing to shout about...allthough there was shouting in the car on the way to church XD

Our family is so weird, but I suppose a weird alive family is better than a normal dead one.

After church some people came over to our house for dinner, it was nothing special, they just chilled out and borrowed my dvd's rofl. But it was nice and comfortable.

Man U won their match today...*happy* It makes me smile when they win you know, cos I kinda think it's the best club in the world....hands down.

'HANDS DOWN THIS IS THE BEST CLUB I COULD EVER REMEMBER...'

Erm...sorry, it just popped into my head, favourite songs tend to do that you know...even if I do change the words to suit a topic in my blog.

I had a wonderful time on the BBVIP sbox today, boasting about my first gen family...so much so one of the newer sboxers decided she wanted to know all of them haha....but I think I just found her cute because she called me 'nubcak unnie'.

I wouldn't usually allow anyone else to call me nubcak, but it was endearing so I let it pass haha.

Oh yeah!!!!

Like Number 8 can be - My Nicknames...I like my nicknames that people give me....so far they have all been good...ok 'cow' is a little outlandish and is an insult in 95% of the world, but meh I kind of like it really. Did you know 'Minnie' is a nickname too? My mum started calling me 'Minnie' when I was a newborn and it stuck. Now that I think about it...who on earth is called Minnie??? Apart from the obvious one...I mean I don't mind it, I like it...I guess it's one of those things I have for myself.

I guess nicknames are just that though...something that people know is you...when they hear that name, they think of you...or something.

It's funny that hardly anyone calls me by my real name though...I guess that's reserved for the special ones.

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All right!!...I had something to say and I have nooo idea where it flew to!

Today I was talking and nobody seemed to understand what I was trying to say and I felt so stupid and then Sarah was like,

'Minnie, I think you should just better stop talking.'

and I was like D: on the inside.

and then everyone was like,

'Minnie, why do you not draw anymore? You only draw pictures of these asian guys who no one wants to buy.'

I was thinking in my head...actually freaking loads of people would want to buy them, just because you are not interested in Korean celebrities doesn't mean there aren't people who are.

So I was like,

'Actually, I have been drawing and it's not just hot guys who I fancy.'

I didn't say those words exactly...but I know you get my drift haha.

Anyway I showed them my recent work and suddenly I was talking like an intelligent person who has knowledge about something and it totally boosted my ego.

You know those people who could excel more, but get scared of failure and look stupid.

Well I'm like that.

Like really simple things to be explained to me, not because I can't do it...I just want to know that I'm doing it right (because I like to be right and HATE being wrong).

but then I get scared that people will think I'm stupid so I don't get anything done in the end.

I guess this is just my pride getting in the way....but I've not discovered yet if I am someone who likes to be in control...or someone who likes to be directed.

I should be more humble though.

I think love humbles you...it teaches you a lot of things...but it's so confusing...because it humbles you and yet...it gives you pride.

Allright, I better stop before I get lovesick....I need a good night's sleep ROFL

Night everyone, I wish sweet dreams and epic times upon you all.

Love Minnie

P.S. Iron Man 2 day tomorrow :D

Days Like These :)

Ahh sorry I didn't post anything yesterday, but I was up like until 1am talking to my Zaty eonnie before she got on the plane to Singapore and then I just fell asleep.

OHK I shall continue with my 10 likes now!!!

Where was I???

HURMMMM

7. DVD's - If you are a friend of mine, or a regular reader of my blog you will have realised by now that I purchase DVD's very regularly. The fact is - I am an addict.

If I don't buy at least one dvd a week, my whole system crashes and I lose sight of reality.

but, seriously, one of my favourite things to do is to sit down on the sofa with a nice cup of tea and chill in front of the TV watching a lovely dvd that I chose all for myself.

We don't even watch the TV in our house...we don't even have TV licence (yes we have those in England...cos then we don't have to have annoying commercials :D).

The fact is though...I just like the way DVD's look on my shelf...so colourful haha.

Iron Man 2 will be the next addition to my collection on Monday muaahahahaha!

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Actually, I think I am going to do one '10 things I like' every post rather than all at once, cos I end up writing huge essays about them.

Its 07:48pm now and I'm completely shattered. I think I will probably go to sleep early, I dunno why, I'm just so epically tired.

Actually I have been quite active today....more than usual...a lot more haha.

This morning I was like feeling the need to use my exercise bike so I rode on that for about ten minutes and discovered I was terribly unfit, cos my legs felt dead just after 10 MINUTES!!! I used to be able to ride it and watch a whole Big Bang concert dvd...I need to build up my stamina maynnn! If I was in the desert I would totally die...I don;t know why I chose the desert...

LOOOOL my sister just said,

'I despise people like you.'

because I told her I feel weak and then we both burst out laughing.

I was like,

'Why are you like that Sarah? You are going to be one of those people who is mean all the time.'

And Sarah was like,

'I'm not really like that, it's just i want to throw a hardback book at your head.'

Then we both started laughing, then she straightened her face and said,

'I'm not laughing MINNEH!!!'

and I was like,

'but your eyebrows are...'

And she was like,

'NO THEY AREN'T!!!'

*starts laughing*

I think she is really weird :D

So yeah what else today???

OHHHHH I was completely spazzing out over the tweet updates of the kpop festival in Singapore....those tweeters were making me so hyper talking about G Dragon wearing glasses and Big Bang in all white with black bandanna's (they talked about the other groups there too, but meh....Big Bang were the best LOL).

It seemed as if Big Bang got the best response, but I'm not sure if the person updating the twitter was a VIP or not.

I will have to ask Jae later cos he was there!!! :D AND he got fancams bless him, I'm confident that Zaty eonnie and Nath will spoil him to death for his bravery in the midst of the standing pit rofl.

After my spazzing had calmed down dad was like,

'YOU WANNA GO OUT TO THE SHOPS DON'T YOU??'

And I remembered I wanted to get some pastel pencils. So we went to the outdoor mall place thingy and I went into the art shop but they were way overpriced...so after that Sarah and I just followed dad around into random electronic shops.

But then when we entered Comet, something magical happened...I swear, I actually thought I was dreaming for like a whole minute.

We were walking around coveting the HD TV's and looking for Beats by Dre because Sarah wanted to show dad something, when I spotted something in the corner of my eye.

I had to look twice, but after staring for a few minutes I realised I wasn't mistaken.

Without hesitation, I grabbed Sarah's arm and dragged her toward this HD LG £1999 TV and we stood there staring in amazement.

2NE1 I Don't Care mv was playing on the screen...in an electronic store...in Leeds...In England.

This is something I had never even dreamed of. I don't know how many times I've said to YJ eonnie how my country will never be into KPOP for another 10 years At LEAST...and here my predictions were being proved utterly wrong....apparently YG got here a little earlier than planned.

It's just a good job it was a 2NE1 MV and not a Big Bang one...or else I would have probably screamed.

If only they would play kpop music in the store *sigh*

But I should be grateful that I got this treat haha.

After that we went to the shop and bought loads of ingredients for food and pumpkin pie and shizz (cus I make a lush pumpkin pie...Im like pumpkin pie maker in the house u_u).

I looked in the dvd section, but refrained from buying anything because I'm getting Iron Man 2 on Monday (aren't I good?).

Hey Hey Hey!!! BBVIP just got 21,000 members...how awesome is that??? *feels proud*

Dinner was curry tonight. MY FAVE!!! :D

But my appetite just left me (which is really weird) and I just felt so overwhelmingly tired....mum was like,

'GO TO THE DOCTORS FOR A BLOOD TEST!!! YOU COULD BE ANAEMIC YOU KEEP FALLING ASLEEP! '

But I just think I'm tired because of all the walking and getting exercise and lack of stamina and stuffs + not being well all week can't be helping.

I have about as much energy as a pancake.

Well its 9pm now, so maybe it would be best if I slept now and get a good night shuteye...cos I think next week will be pretty busy.

I'm babysitting on Tuesday and Wednesday for my friend, but I think she is paying me so that's good...cos I'm so going to put that money in my savings account.

Aaand I think Monday I'm working at the school...unlesss its half term....hmmmm.

Woow seriously my eyes are closing, my whole body seems to be on complete shutdown...I wish it would freaking slow down I have to get a wash and put my PJ's on yet!

Good Night Everyone :)

Love from Minnie

P.S. My heart is fulllll!!!!! :D

Those Three Words are Said Too Much, They're Not Enough ~

My mum has turned the internet connection off for some reason so I'm writing my blog on notepad so I can post it later.

WELL! Earlier Sarah and I were like

WE NEED TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE!!!

Because mum kept banning Sarah from the internet because she keeps getting distracted from her homework.

Sarah has been banned from the net like 5 times this week already.

Personally, I think this form of discipline isn't having an affect...but I'm not the parent (which is a good job...I'd be a rubbish parent atm).

Anyway, we decided to go and get some food at the cafe in Rothwell, cos I needed to go to the shop and get some dog food (which I didn't end up buying because I didn't have enough money).

We really wanted burgers, but apparently they don't sell them after a certain time, which is quite upsetting, so we had baked potatoes with a tuna and cucumber filling and they were actually really nice.

Its taken about 5 minutes for me to get annoyed that there is no internet connection.

I'm looking at the icon at the bottom of the screen and it has that big red X through it and it looks dead and unloved.

It annoys me when mum unpluggs the modem because it just messes up the connection and I know one day I am going to have to buy a new one with my own money.

At least then I can tell the people of the house not to lay one finger on MY MODEM...

That wont work though...my parents have the mentality that EVERYTHING in the house belongs to them, even the stuff I bought.

I'd like to see them try and wear my jeans though...

It must be a parent thing, I'm really not sure how their minds work...though apparently they know everything that goes on in my mind.

....I like to let them believe that...my mind is best left unlocked...Even I have trouble with it and its tempestuous thoughts from time to time.

This week has gone so fast...I don't feel like I've moved.

Actually...I probably haven't moved LOL

Being ill sucks like that.

I'm almost back to normal now...my full recovery awaits me just around the corner.

OH OH!!!

I watched episode 15 of Playful Kiss Today [BEWaRE SPOILERS]

I WAS RIGHT!!!!! THEY DO GET MARRIED IN THIS ONE!!! OMGD ITS SO CUTE!!!!

AND THEY DONt SWAP CLOTHES EITHER!!! Ha Ni wears the dress and Seung Jo wears the suit and its just so beautiful.

AND JOON GU LOOKS SOOOO HOT ITS RIDICULOUS...He's making a point as he watches the love of his life walk down the isle towards his rival.

He is a sweetheart and I would be sad, but I know he has the most adorable romance waiting for him, so its gonna be ok.

I knew they would go to JeJu for their honeymoon. Kdrama's ALWAYS do that. In the Taiwan one they went to Guam.

And I find it hilarious that seung Jo's Mother and lil bro are actually there to make sure they have memorable pictures...like the paparazzi,

trying to hide from Ha Ni and Seung Jo....but he spots his omma right at the start, she makes it so obvious haha.

Anyway when they were on thier honeymoon, there is this other married couple and the other woman like COMES ON to Seung Jo!!!

She was so irritating and wanted to bash her head in!!!

Its really annoying, everytime they were alone together she would come and ruin the moment!!! I felt sorry for her poor husband.

In the end Ha Ni just kicked off, I loved that, she was like

'

HEY YOU WOMAN!!! HE IS OFFICIALLY MINE NOW SO I CAN CLAIM HIM ALL I WANT'

Well she didn't say that exactly, but she made her point and Seung Jo was like WOAH! And got mad at her because he thought she was overreacting.

But then he was alone in the room with this other woman and she was all like,

'You dont like Ha Ni do you?? Don't you wish you'd have met me earlier.'

AND HES LIKE

'

EW NO GROSS, I WOULDN'T HAVE EVEN LOOKED AT YOU!!!'

Then he goes running after his wifey and they have a cute moment which involves tickling (and the viewer thinks, 'Ha Ni, you Lucky lucky girl.')

And then they finally make love, but you dont see anything much its just 'indicated' and its not vicious like the Taiwan one its just cute and lovely...

and Seung Jo totally makes your legs go numb and in your head you are thinking 'HA NI YOU LUCKY LUCKY GIRL!!!!!!!'

Then when they get home the storyline gets more into their uni studies and Seung Jo tells Ha Ni that he wont register the marriage

until she has passed her nursing exams,,,so its like an insentive to do well.

But he's so mean the way he says it...and she like overthinks that maybe he will get it annulled or something...and then the episode finishes!!!

DDD: NOW THERE IS ONLY ONE EPI LEFT!!!!! BUT IT LOOKS EPIC IN THE PREVIEW AND SFLIHNKDS.LFJA GPDGOJKERGHQRNLKGHRSGULDKFGSHIDLGSIEYRIHP!!!!!

*sigh* I love Kdrama's...

You know I'm so bored, I'm thinking about sleeping..and its not even 10pm yet...my eyes are watering like crazy and I don't know why...maybe they are tired?

I can't even post this blog without any net connection so its not like you can read it while I sleep. *sigh*

My bed is so comfy, I can't even.

OOOO OOO, I saw this thing on tumblr and its like a Ten Things Thingy, so you write ten things you like and ten things you dislike.

I shall do that now, but try and say some different ones that I say usually...I mean you all know that I like my dog and kpop and shizz...but,
I do like other stuff too :D

Ten things I like -

1. Water related things -

I love water, I love how it looks and how it feels and all its colours.

I love the ocean and lakes. I love the creatures that live in water.

I find the underwater world fascinating. I love swimming. I love waves. I love how scary water can be...I love the rush you get.

I love surfing (or trying to), I love diving, cos its hella scary, but sososososo exhilerating...and also, you'd kind of die without water..so I owe my life to it haha

Water is just an amazing element...if I were a bender, I would be a water bender, whether I wanted to or not haha.

I read this thing on tumblr (surprise surprise) its went -

Person 1 - Do you like water?

Person 2 - Yeah

Person 1 - Then you should like me already cos I'm 75% Water.

Well, it made me giggle anyway U_U.

2. Tea. I'm English - It's in my blood to like tea.

And yes, I am offended by those English people who don't like tea...It's almost treasonous behaviour!

My tea has to be made a special way. It HAS TO BE Yorkshire Tea, because it has the best flavour - it can be gold blend or or for hard water oor just regular, but as long as it is the brand Yorkshire Tea I am happy. I usually use teabags, but I can make it from leaves too.

The perfect cup of tea for me is this -

Place a teabag and one sugar into a cup (tea tastes nicer in china or porceline - just saying), pour freshly boiled water over into the cup - and when I say 'freshly' I mean BOILING HOT, because that draws the flavour from the leaves.

Leave this to brew for a minute and a half, giving little stirs with a teaspoon if you feel the need.

Then remove the teabag and dispose of it.

Then pour milk into the cup stirring until the colour is a golden brown.

Put the milk back in the fridge, take your cup of tea and enjoy the bliss of a hot sweet cup of heaven.

Ahhhhhhh :)

3. Dancing in the Kitchen with Sarah -

This is like the funnest thing ever!!! (Yes I know 'funnest' isn't a word, but I made it one...if you have a problem call my lawyer).

We have like computer speakers set up in the kitchen and we plug them into the ipod when we are washing the dishes and etc.

Then we basically rock out and sing out of tune. Today we murdered Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol, we danced around to Gee by SNSD, we leaped around to Heartbreaker by G Dragon...and other stuff.

The end result was me lying on the kitchen floor laughing with Sammy barking at me and Sarah throwing used teabags at me.

My parents have no idea about the chaos which ensues everytime they ask us to do the dishes when they are out.

But its so much fun :D


4. I like working out. Yes, I know its weird, because I am like a DORMANT person, but I actually do like doing active things. In my earlier years at school I used to be in a track team I used to play netball and hockey, I used to do gymnastics (I could somersault U_U) and go swimming frequently, but then I changed to a school that was more into academics rather that Physical Education (LOOOOL) so my love of active things was put on hold and I became and algebra geek.

I know it seems weird but I actually do enjoy exercising, I love the straining and tension of it all, and I love getting dizzy with adrenaline and sweating off my fats (haha).

My only problem is, that I don't like exercising alone (that is my excuse anyway) and most of the time I'm too lazy to get off my backside...thats my biggest flaw :/

5. Star Wars. Yep. I love Star Wars.

The story begins when I am 5 years old and my same age (slightly younger cousin) comes to England in the holidays from Holland and brings his set of Star Wars Videos.

I visit grandpas so I can stay with my cous while he is here and we watch A New Hope Star Wars Episode IV and the adventure begins.

So while all the other little girls begin to like boys and play with barbies, I become a rabid Star Wars fangirl who refuses to look at any male apart from Luke Skywalker and Han Solo (omg Harrison Ford in Star Wars is just hot).

If you know me VERY well, you will know that I have a box under my bed which contains pepsi cans, chocolate bar wrappers and crisp packets among other things which I kept just because they advertised Start Wars Episode 1 when it came out in 1999.

My dad doesn't like Star Wars so he asked his friend Simon to take me to see it and I ended up going to the Cinema without my parents for the very first time...with 4 males.

I remember needing a pee half way through and they got annoyed because I was 'such a girl' I still feel irritated about that...even though I was 9 at the time.

But yes, I am an advanced Star wars fan and I will teach my children the ways of the force so they can be a Jedi like their father before them

....cough.

6. MSN CALLS!!! I've recently got more into these :D I LOVE THEM!!! *warm snuggly feelings* It's so much nicer to hear someone annoy you than get it over FB or MSN...though its not always annoying and its usually pretty much always makes my day when it happens. I can't help it, the loveliness gets me everytime...and the singing :D

:)

OK its 1am now...so I will continue with this tomorrow!

Mum finally plugged the modem back in, but Sarah was on my lappy for ages reading all her past posts on BBVIP and giggling at how funny she finds herself hahaha.

She's too cute sometimes.

Sooo Im off to bed ebrebody!!!

I've actually enjoyed writing this blog haha, I mean, I usually do enjoy it, but I've enjoyed this one especially.

Good Night everyone, have a beautiful day and take care

Love From Minnie

P.S. I'm so feeling the love today...hope you are doing ok :)

New Days + Old Friends = Beautiful Moments

I've started writing my 'Story of the First Gen.' Post, but I've realised it's actually going to be longer than I thought haha, so I guess you will have to be surprised when I publish it on here :D :D

Meanwhile in my life - Still having trouble getting over this stupid cold, but I think my antibodies are slowly getting to grips with the whole thing. AJAJAJAJAJA

TOMORROW is the second to last episode of Playful Kissu!!! T_____T

(allthoughIdidhearrumoursofanextensionofsixmoreepisodes)

I'm so excited about the next episode, it's going to be momentous.

I have a feeling there is cake in this house somewhere and allthough I like the sound (taste) of cake, I'm just not hungry for it. I think its because dad made home made pizza...I also think its because I have trouble eating with my teeth issue.

Did you know from when I was 15 I started this habit of frantically brushing my teeth?

I used to brush my teeth like 6-7 times a day I don't even lie...I was like infamous for it. My dad used to tell people we were late to events because 'Minnie was brushing her teeth.'

That excuse probably sounded dumb to most people, but its was also probably the truth.

And what the heck is up with this whole Wayne Rooney thing. It's inevitable he is going to leave Man United for some lame ass reason, but what can you expect from a guy who goes off with prostitutes behind his wifes back.

I mean I know she isn't the sharpest knife in the drawer, but she's still his wife and the mother of his child.

I don't really care about the whole situation...cos I'm a Man U supporter, I was never a Wayne Rooney supporter.

The whole thing is just silly, he is just being disloyal and greedy and disrespectful to Alex Ferguson...who needs a person like that??

He needs to remove himself from up his own backside and sort his life out.

11:11!!!!!!

Ohhh I felt the need for twitter just before and then it was like over capacity and I was just so depressed about it, but then I checked again and its fine now and I can live on...and no, I'm not addicted to twitter like some people are, but I do get those sudden urges where I need to speak my mind on the twitterverse.

Ah yes! Iron Man 2 comes out on DVD on the 25th of October :)

That is such a delightful thing for me because there is a space on my shelf right next to my Iron Man 1 dvd and it needs to be filled so the universe can be in order once again.

I also want to watch it again, because its freaking awesome!!! :D :D

Also I have to have something to make me joyful. I mean Zaty eonnie is going to S'pore this weekend and Jae is freaking going to watch Big Bang + others at the Kpop concert thingy there...Iron Man 2 DVD will never top that, but its better than nothing...I'm just aFDOLAHSDFASDKFsdFLAKSDF that my darlings will be like so close to Big Bang....I mean I would be spazzing out just being in the same city!!!

AHHH Im getting myself all excitable now...but I can't help myself, its how I work. haha

Today I had my first GMOD meeting experience. It was interesting, though the best part was going off topic.

We started off all serious but then the subject sort of changed course.

Its was like -

Gmod Work
Mico Mentions headphones
We talk about headphones
Oh! Yeah Gmod Work
Max Is hungry
Lily wants cake
Mico says he's eaten already
GMOD WORK EVERYONE!!! MAX NEEDS TO EAT!
Zaty disappears
Lily and YJ eonnie bash the hell out of AllKpop for being biased
Others agree that AKP fails
Max goes to eat leaving Gmods to discuss Gmod Stuff
Lily and YJ discuss the hypocrisy of the 'Hottest's'
Its decided that G Dragon just PWNS the hell out of Jay Park
Don't ask how GD got into the conversation...we are VIP's, he controls 85 percent of our brains 24/7.
Minnie Lily and YJ talk about makeup
Mico makes comments here and there
Sarah is added to the conversation
Nipples become the subject
Suddenly the conversation turns to me
Everyone says that I am selfish when it comes to sharing nipples
(this sounds SOOOO weird out of context)
I say NO! I am only into GDots...I LIKE DOTS not nipples!
Only Jenny understands me
Max comes back and then leaves
Lily goes to bed
Sarah goes to do some housework
TRIPLETS ARE TOGETHER AT LAST
I go to do some hoovering
I come back happy to see my triplets are still there :D
We talk about triplet-y things together and just generally enjoy each others company

(meanwhile I get a lovely call which consisted of 'Can you hear me?' 'Yes, can you hear me?' 'NO, WAIT ohhh yes its fine I can' somethingsomething friends hairspray, AN INFURIATING lack of interest in my wisdom teeth, and half a rendition of 'I'll be Back' R2D2 style - And much to my dismay I loved every second of it, good job there were no foreheads or I would have been slayed badly *phew*)

Then we triplets did some serious GMOD stuff...it was quite exciting, but we are totally the awesomest team ever!!! I feel happy to be in the same bracket of staff with them once more.

I love people who I just can't help but love.

Then we triplets decided that we had to either go to bed or do some chores so we all logged off at the same time.

And yeah - that was the end of the GMOD meeting HAHHAHAAHHA.

Then I went and attempted more hoovering, but failed cos Sarah and I just ended up goofing around.

Its ridiculous, how we actually start doing something constructive and end up laughing and dancing around in the kitchen like madmen.

We are the weirdest EVER. There is not even a contest. I'm LOLLING just thinking about it.

Then we went to Dora and Dominics for Bible Study and it was the last time we would see Nicole because she's going back to Germany so it was nice to spend that time together...even though at first I wasn't keen on going because I still feel crap and I didn't want to give baby Judah my germs...turns out he was asleep anyway. So I just lay on the sofa.

Thats another thing.

You know you are comfortable with some people because you can go to their house and be all ill and looking like death and they wont even notice.

Its great that.

Wow its already 12:26.

I better go to sleep.

Night Night :)

Love Min

Anything is Possible

I felt a lil better today...less like a zombie and more like a human.

I had a nice surprise too.

Max popped up on MSN and was like,

'Hey.'

and I said,

'Hey Maxxie!!!'

and he was like,

'I have something to tell you, I'm just not sure how to tell you.'

And my stomach turned cos I thought for sure he was going to demote me.

I said,

'Just go ahead and say it!'

Because I hate the thought of my dongsaengs being uncomfortable around me

He continued,

'Well it's hard for me to say this but I had a meeting with the admins and we decided that because of your age we are going to demote you from your position as monderator on the forum.'

I was kind of confused actually and didn't know what he was talking about...I read it over about three times, but all I could see was the word 'demote' because frankly, I was a terrible moderator...when it came to catching spammers and violators....the friendly talking part I'm pretty good at, but in most forums hard work is more important than chatting on the shout box.

I felt myself accept the fact that I would be demoted, but I also felt a bit upset, because I would miss my staff family and Lily had just been re-hired as project manager....and Lily is one of the most AWESOMEST people EVER IN THE WORLD.

I was about to write my reply, when Max suddenly said,

'JJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJKJKJKJKjKjKJJKJKjKJJKKKK!!!!!! I was kidding we want to promote you to global moderator.'

My jaw dropped to the floor.

GLOBAL MODERATOR!!!

My first thought was,

'FINALLY THE TRIPLETS WILL ALL BE THE SAME AGAIN.'

This is because YJ and Mico, my beloved siblings are also Global Moderators on the forum and I just adore them you know :)

Maybe I should explain a little better.

Maybe will write a brief history of my VIP family and its beginnings so my readers will understand better the bonds I made because of a decision I made one fateful day on the 2nd of May in the year 2009.

Not tonight though...I start writing these summary things and they end up being like mini novels and its nearly 12am and I want to get a good nights sleep because I think it will help me to get rid of this nasty cold.

I'm sure I got this cold because of my wisdom teeth...I know it sounds strange, but every time my wisdom teeth have a growth spurt I feel really ill.

Ugh this is another shortish post, but I think I really need to sleep.

Night peoples :)

Love Min

Some Things Don't Need A Reason

Yes it wasn't an allergy, I have a full on cold. JOY!

I want to put my hands down my throat and just scratch it cos its SO itchy (there's a nice mental image for you haha).

I think this is a test to try and prevent me from thinking positive!

Well it wont work because even though my head feels like it's not a part of my body and even though my trachea feels like it is being attacked with a thousand needles I WILL MAINTAIN MY POSITIVE ATTITUDE.

I'm lucky really because my head feels so heavy, I can't even think properly, so I'm kind of unfeeling at the moment.

For example I was talking to someone earlier, one of the only people who has the ability to shove me into the seat of my emotional rollercoaster and turn it on at full speed...and yet I was replying like a robot and kept dozing off...I just want to sleep all the time.

I know I'm always saying I'm tired, but I NEVER sleep during the day.

I went to the job centre earlier and the lady just put me through straight away because I looked like a microwaved dead person.

The next time I have to go is the 1st of November. Time just FLIES!!!

I can hear buzzing noises inside my ear...is that even normal?

Sam's ears buzz you know. His ears actually makes a sound. If you listen near his head you can hear it. I'm not even joking.

I found out it did this when he was a puppy. I was just cuddling him and I could hear this high pitched squeaking noise and realised it was coming from Sam's ears.

When I told the vet he looked at me like I was joking and didn't even check...so Sam has had noisy ears ever since, but it doesn't seem to bother him.

I suppose he just completes the circle of weirdness that is my life.

You see, Minnie can't just have a dog - she has to have a special dog who's ears make sounds.

Everything in my life is like that - special...or rather 'special' or special hahaha

Ughhh I really feel an awesome desire to rip out my throat, the discomfort is horrendous.

*SIIIIIGGHHHHHH*

I'm going to dedicate all tomorrow to getting better by getting a nice bath and then eating every immune system boosting pieces of food I can get my hands on.

The last two episodes of Playful Kiss will be aired this week T_____T I will miss it!!! It seems to have been completed REALLY fast!

The preview for ep 15 looks sfksdjhgfiusgfbjksdfskdhf!!!

I can't make out if they get married there or not though - I think the preview is hiding things from me.

BECAUSE it intimates that they 'seal the deal'..buuuut in the Taiwan version they only did THAT after they were hitched...so my guess is that they get married in episode 15 and they are HIDING that fact from us by not showing any wedding clips in the preview at ALL!!! DDDDDDDDDDDD:

*breathes*

ALSO!!! I wonder who wears the dress at the wedding because in the Taiwan version the guy wears the dress and the girl wears the suit, WHICH IS JUST RIDICULOUS!!!

(but then I am not entirely against the thought of Hyun Joong in a dress...call me weird buuut.....yeah nevermind, just call me weird).

*sigh* I need help.

So Sarah finished watching the Avatar series today and I'm happy to say that she now feels the emptiness that you get when it's all over.

I am also happy to say that I have watched it all twice within the space of a few months cus I'm a crazy fangirl chick person.

I feel empty if I have nothing to spazz over...I've been this way ever since I have been alive.

Kpop was waiting for me...its like it was hand crafted especially for me. A whole genre made for the spazzing needs of others is indeed a marvel.

My mum wanted me to edit and write my own version of this story because she wants to use it as a narrative in a Christmas Event, but I just couldn't do it tonight. I tried to think but I just am not physically up to the challenge.

I mean...its taken me a whole day just to write this shizz...and honestly, I don't really think when I write it hahaha.

I think she is a little annoyed at me for not doing it today, but I'm sure if she felt how I felt now she'd understand..

I really wish there was some kind of vacuum machine that I could attach to my ears and nose and it could just suck all the icky horribleness away.

My nose is so sore huhuhuhu

Maybe I should make an attempt to sleep while the last batch of paracetamol I took are still taking effect.

Night Everyoonnneeee,

Love from Min