Tuesday 30 November 2010

Everything You Ever Wanted

I'm having a strange moody day.

You know the kind that takes you to highs and lows?

I really feel like...broken???

Then I find little things that make me UBER positive and hyperactive and everything is going to be ok-ish

and then I feel like an idiot for making myself get exited over nothing.

It seems my self confidence has depleted along with any desire I have to do...well, anything.

I was going to be able to make a few hundred pounds over this holiday period with art commissions.

I had 6 lined up to do for various people.

It feels like my hands have been stapled to the ground.

I tried drawing today, but my heart was not in it at all...I forced myself for 2 hours and scrapped like 3 tries because I just wasn't getting anywhere.

I know I must seem silly getting all emotional over a ruined picture, but it was something I put my heart into and it was something I was proud of

and seeing it like this -



kind of breaks my heart a bit, and I wonder why some people just think I'm going to be ok with it after a,

'Sorry I tore your picture and smashed your art supplies to pieces.'


It wasn't just a picture...it was something I poured hours and hours and hours of work into, took 4 months to (almost) complete...and it was also a gift for someone.

but no...I have to forget about it and smile and say I'm fine...otherwise I would be just SO SO selfish.

Now I just feel how I look -



Completely blank...and hoping that tomorrow I will find some energy somewhere that will inspire me.

My dreams seem so redundant right now.

The thought of them is painful because they seem miles and miles away.

So yeah, I'm in a 'slightly' bad mood so don't take it personal if I go all female dog on you. I'm trying not to, but I tend to keep taking out my annoyance on people.

I don't mean it.

I suppose it's insensitive of me...knowing what being the blacksheep/scapegoat of the family is like. I shouldn't treat others like how I hate being treated.

but, it happens, and I am human...but I'm trying to be a better person.

Its just everyone else doesn't seem to see when I do try and that kind of pulls me down.

and yeah, I'm sorry...I'm writing another 'woe is me' post...but I'm feeling hella sorry for myself, so grant me it just this once.

Tomorrow will be better (hopefully)

Anyway...away from the emo stuff, Sarah and I were watching 'Miranda' which is a British sitcom which we find to be HILARIOUS.

So there is one episode where she stays at a hotel and there is this room service guy who is the cutest darn fudger on TV!

We googled him and his name is Luke Pasqualino.

He really does have the OMO factor, even if he is only 20 years old....I know, nuna complex.

but, anyway, he is British but of Italian descent...which is just SO UMPH!

So Im just gonna picture spam him here, because looking at him just makes me feel tons better.







He's just completely HNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG-worthy.

How is such a creature even in my country?

Yeah, I had to close tumblr to stop myself from saving anymore of his pictures. I have to save space for Big Bang's comeback.

OH btw - ITS DECEMBER 1st!!!

I'm going to take that on board...new fresh start in the morning.

I will try and lay all bitterness behind me. Give my problems to God and let Him deal with it.

Wow, that sounds so epically lazy of me.

Maybe I should let Him deal with me rather than my problems *sigh*

And I want to go to town and buy myself some brand new art supplies...then there is just the annoying task of breaking them in...pastels are kind of like jeans - you have to wear down them a bit until they get how you like them.

Tomorrow morning I'm going to get a lush bath, go for an invigorating walk in the snow with my puppydog and release some energy into my braincells.

Also.

to the silent person who blew up all over the place. I know I was being an ass yesterday, I'm sorry that I hurt your feelings...it wasn't intentional, I just wasn't thinking. And if it's any consolation, your verbal demonstration hurt me to the core...but I guess you knew that it would.

Not that I'm saying you were right to do that...because you weren't at all....but what I am saying is, I'm sorry for what I did.

And I should really go to sleep. Its 1am and my arm is spazzing up.

GoodNight people,

Love Minnie



HOHOHO SWEET DREAMS :D :D

(all pics taken from tumblrrrrrr)

Monday 29 November 2010

That Smile, That Beautiful Lie

You know what?

If I'd decided to write this blog post like 3 hours ago, it would have been terrible because almost everything about today has been terrible...you know...it was just one of those days, where you get attacked from all sides...even your allies are being jerks and all you can do is take all the shizz like a boss.

or you can cry the snot out...which I did by the way.

I think my eyes are all out of tears.

Lets just put it this way, you work our ass off on something for over 4 months and then someone destroys it along with £50 worth of your other stuff.

I guess you have the right to be upset and irritable.

And then I get my head bitten off by someone else who should know better...even if I was being, slightly...mocking....I've received worse from the other party and never even flinched.

Really, not impressive.

but, oh well, at least it was real flesh and blood feelings and not some flat fakery.

but congratulations, my feelings were hurt once again...and I just wish I could be mad, but all I get is this empty feeling in the pit of my stomach and I think its just sheer disappointment.

I guess it was all a lie about not expecting things from other people....you must have expected something from me for to react like that.

Don't worry though...I expect more from you too.... so I guess we are square.

AND

I'm really craving chicken.

So putting today's horribleness aside, I'm trying to find some way that I can somehow learn a lesson from the crappyness....and the lesson is -

You can't let people know how you feel, because they will destroy you

and also

Everyone else but you is allowed to be angry at life.

Erm....positives?

I'm incapable of being angry for more than an hour.

Seriously, when this all happened I was swearing that I would never do anything for anyone ever again.

but I just can't live like that.

It kills you from the inside.

I think getting disappointed once in a while by the people you love and care about is much better than never even caring at all.

What's the point in living if you never feel anything?

You know,

You just want to kiss away all the BS that makes life a drag.



....I really wanted to use that GIF kekeke

Regina George is awesome....

So is Rachel Mcadams, but I like her best in The Notebook.

Which I may watch tomorrow...although it may induce tears...if I have any left.

And its late so I will crash into my pillow.

Sorry for my hugely negative post,

Goodnight!!

Love Minnie

P.S. I want to eat cookies and I think baby goats are extremely cute.

Saturday 27 November 2010

Speed Blogging

Soooooo I decided to write a 'quickie' (lmao) before I sleep.

I was just going to sleep straight away, but then I washed my face and it woke me up a bit so here I am.

Well last night I was home alone, because my family had gone to Manchester, I thought I would wake up really late the next morning, but I didn't - I woke at 8am.

I was going to go back to bed, but then I decided to go for a walk in the snow with ma doggeh, because I am such a child.

Yes, I do just leap out of bed on snow days.

I hope it gets deep enough so we can go sledging again, it was so fun last January.

I spent a lot of the day trying to motivate myself to do my art work and I finally got myself to spend a couple of hours on my spaniel drawing - I want it finished by Saturday so I can give it to the people whose dog it actually is.

I would have done more only my hands were so cold so they weren't very steady and I kept smudging all the time.

Warm hands are kind of a must when it comes to drawing.

It was 0 degrees today, tonight it is -3 degrees....joyful.

Earlier we watched Toy Story 3, it made me cry again. It's so bittersweet. I guess it's like that because I've grown up watching all the three movies...and endings are not my strong points.

I always feel empty after an ending.

I've had an idea on my mind about what I can give people for Christmas presents. I don't want to voice what it is though, because I might not be able to manage it and then people might be disappointed.

HOWEVER!

If I do manage it people will get a lovely surprise so its all goooood

I saw a cute quote on tumblr just before,

'Each friend represents a world in us,
A world possibly not born until they arrive.
and it is only by this new meeting that a new world is born.'
Anais Nin

That's how I feel about each of my friends - that's why they are so special to me.

This week has just gone by so fast (I say that every week right?)

Next week is gonna be SOOOO traumatising...mum's concert is next Saturday and I have to bake THOUSANDS (hundreds) of cupcakes for it - Its probably gonna take me like two days *sigh*

Lets hope I am in the baking mood.

I just hope everything goes smoothly. Mum has been planning this concert for like - 3 months. Its the only thing she talks about.

I will be SOOO happy when it is over and we can relax.

I'm going crazy just thinking about it.

You know what else is making me crazy?...ah nevermind XD

I'm off.

Goodnight :)

Love Minnie

P.S. Man United won 7 - 1 today. Berbatov scored 5 goals!!! Park and Nani got the other two. How lush and epic is that? Poor Blackburn kekekekekeke.

*sigh* I love football.

It's nice to be at the TOP where we belong.

Wishes

Since its nearing the Christmas season, I've decided to make a Christmas list.

Yes, I know its futile - I never get what I ask for (this is why I usually never ask).

But lets just say I enjoy making wish lists.

So here goes -




--- I mean, I have all these in mp3 format, but I want the hard copies because I have all their other albums so it would be wrong not to keep up the collection.



Braun Silk-épil Xpressive Pro Wet & Dry 7681 Rechargeable Epilator (cos I have an obsession with experimenting with hair removal *shrugs* yeh Im weird)


71-Into the Fire (DVD) (Single Disc) (Korea Version)





Nineteen (DVD) (First Press Limited Edition) (Korea Version)


Full House (Ep.1-16) (End) (Hong Kong Version) (why is it so expensive though)



Jennifer Leather Jacket from Monsoon



Ok, I'm getting a bit past myself now...but the fact is - I like surprises.

And I just wrote this wish list cos I like looking at stuff I want.

You know what I really want though??

A new dress. And it has to cost over £50 and it MUST be sparkly.

This is such a materialistic blog, I'm so ashamed *insert Capt JJANG kekeke icon*

OHHH and I want a Monkey D. Luffy soft toy - or T shirt!!

Which reminds me -



Right, Im going to make a sandwich and get a cup of coffee and continue with my doggy pastel portrait!!



I've almost finished it now!!!...Its been ages since I finished something *exciting*

Love Minnie

Friday 26 November 2010

We'll Sleep Well, Sleep Well

As it is nearing the end of the year I decided to dedicate this post to everything that is growing in relevance now and over the passing of 2010.

This is my post of relevant things.

1. The growing savings me and Sarah have been storing, at this rate, I will definitely reach my goal of travelling out of this country within the next 6-ish months. I'm just hoping my parents will trust me with Sarah - I feel like such a fool saying that at 22 years of age.

2. My lack of job is SO relevant - I wish it would change before new year, but I'm so crap at searching...and SOOOOOO picky.

3.

Yep, not many people know this, but even before Kwon Ji Yong - this person was.

His relevance is unsurpassable, and yes, I do want his babies.

Come on guys, who do you even think my blog url is named after?

Yeah I fall hard for cute boyish charm.

4. AVATAR THE LAST AIRBENDER & ONE PIECE

5. My art - I've actually made an effort with it this year. I've improved, but I know I can do better, I've decided that 2011 will be dedicated to improving more. I don't want to be one of those people who doesn't make the most of the only thing they are confident that they are good at.

6. My triplets - Mico and YJ

If home is where the heart is
Then my home is where you are
But it's getting oh so hard
To spend these days
Without my heart

How can even begin to describe how much you've come to mean to me?

7. My interest in the world - I used to think I was pretty knowledgeable about the different countries and cultures and religions, but in fact, I know so little and have kind of this crazy addiction to know more...but I realise I would have to travel to do that...the internet and books only do so much.

8. Snow - Right now this very minute, snow is very relevant, considering its just started coming down with a vengeance....I love it...Its so early...usually it doesn't start till new year...maybe we will have a White Christmas :D




Just so you know, I just took that picture like minutes ago from the study window - Im gonna freeze tonight.

9. Blogging - This year I've been such a mad blogger. Do you realise how many blogs I had before? They died gruesome and horrible deaths at my hands. I actually love this place. When I log in, its like I'm coming into the house and drinking a cup of tea. Long Live this blog and may I have more exciting tales to rant about in the future!!!

10. The conversation I'm having with my sister on msn is just so relevant.

MinnieDragon says:
is dad watching tennis by any chance?

- Bean says:
Nooooo
Ashes fow shizz

MinnieDragon says:
ohhh yeahh

- Bean says:
Queen and country comes first

MinnieDragon says:
of course
how are our men doing?

- Bean says:
They are doing pretty good tbh

MinnieDragon says:
Cool!
I hope we win

- Bean says:
Well duh roflll

MinnieDragon says:
show those immigrants who is boss

- Bean says:
Nuff said bro

MinnieDragon says:
http://28.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lc1n8dmVlH1qzya49o1_500.jpg

- Bean says:
Nuff said
IT'S HAMMY

MinnieDragon says:
LOL
we actually calle him that

- Bean says:
I was just thinkingvthe same thing
Rofl!
And then I think
Daddy
I miss that animal

MinnieDragon says:
He was cute
like epic cute

- Bean says:
He was

MinnieDragon says:
he travelled

- Bean says:
A right character

MinnieDragon says:
our pets like to travel

- Bean says:
All our animals are like that

MinnieDragon says:
yeah

- Bean says:
Ne ne

We went from tennis to cricket to hamsters - thats how we roll.

11. I am a VIP, always,

This is a beautiful fanvid that gives the essence of what it is to be VIP...if you are a VIP you should watch it, it will get you all emotional.


We've been waiting for Big Bang's comeback for over two years and soon our waiting will be over.

빅뱅 FIGHTING!!! VIPS FIGHTING!!

12. Something that is relevant right now - I'm finding that I have a growing attraction for Junho of 2pm - I'm not sure why...ok it might be because of his butt.


but I've never been attracted to someone because of their butt before...I wonder how this will progress?...is this serious...that is the question

kekeke, its past 1am, the importance of things is changeable at this time.

13. Ring Ding Dong Ding Ding Dong Ding and fantastic elastic.

14. That person who invades my mind all the time, you know the one - every object I see reminds me of them, every song I hear is about them but I really don't mind, considering they invaded my heart long before my head....though in the beginning I didn't realise it was my heart and thought it was my head...pride.

Credit where credit is due, my heart had been closed for business almost two and a half years before this invasion.

I love you.


Its better slow ~

15. Its 1:30 am, now, the only relevant thing I ought to be thinking about is my bed.

Good Night Dear Readers,

Love from Minnie



Thursday 25 November 2010

Be Assured - Its Always You, Only You

Its been a reaally weird day today.

Firstly I woke up at 11am - which is EXTREMELY late for me!!

ITS ALMOST MIDDAY!!

After I had recovered from the shock of how late it was I realized that I was frozen to my bed...my legs were so cold I couldn't even move them, like from the calf down...Its been a problem all day...so tonight I stole Sarah's duvet to add to the many layers I now have on top of me.

Two duvets
one fleece
and
a throw that we usually use on the sofa

Cold weather just aint my shizz, I miss 30 degree heat in summer.

Don't worry,Sarah wont miss her duvet cos she isn't home tonight haha, hats why I can steal it.

I'm also wearing socks and I never wear socks to bed.

There is only one good part about cold weather and that is snow.

And today I saw my first snow of this winter, which softened my anger about my cold sensitive legs.

Sam and I went for our usual walk and half way around the circuit got bombarded by a miniature blizzard.

I think it is practising for the main event...it is exactly one month until Christmas...I REALLY want it to snow this Christmas...snow makes all the difference.

I want to get everyone really good gifts too...I love it when I can make someone happy...I'm really not particularly fussed about getting anything myself...it's just to me, Christmas means thinking unselfishly - which is hard for everyone. It means more than just celebrating. It's special for me.

Sarah and I watched more Samsoon drama, I finally got to watch my favourite episode. Its SO good.

My favourite part is this -

They've broken the contract (yes, contract dating is an essential part of Korean drama) and the guy (Jinhun) has gone back to his ex GF who came back after 3 years of absence.

Anyway, he starts missing Sam Soon reeallly badly, like he keeps hallucinating seeing her on billboards and hearing her voice and wanting to talk to her.

So eventually he calls her to come get her bike from his apartment really late at night.

And she is like,

'WTH dude, I will come for it in the morning.'


cos she's peeved at him because he totally disregarded her feelings before when she confessed to him.

but anyway, he convinces her to come over and collect her bike, but he has to take her home because the tires were flat.

Then his GF calls while they are driving and when he is talking he gets distracted from the road and Sam soon shouts out when he almost goes through a red light.

So the GF on the phone is like

'??????????????????'


So he says,

'Im driving now I have to go.'


and hangs up.

Then Samsoon is peeved because he made her feel like they were cheating or something, even though she was just picking her bike up.

So he gets to where she lives and she gets mad at him and is like,

'Why are acting like this? Do you like me or something??'


and he replies,

'No, why would I like you, you have ugly hands.'


and she is obviously upset - the person she loves is being a bumfaced donkey.

She says,

'Tell me, did you ever for one moment like me?'


and he replies,

'No'


She knows he is lying - we all know he is.

She composes herself and says,

'Then dont try and hide my presence when you are on the phone, don't call me out in the middle of the night - don't do stuff like that because it gives the impression that you like me.'


and then he says meanly,

'I'm sorry if I made you feel like that.'


and then goes and kicks her bike over childishly and then drives off.

...

I really described the awesomeness of my favourite part really badly. It's such a mixture of amusingness and cruelty.

It makes me want to cry everytime.

And then he kicks her bike over and you think to yourself,

'He only gets away with acting like a brat because he's so darn cute and hot and the rest of it.'


I really love this drama LOOOOL...its from 2005, but its almost completely perfect...I can watch it over and over and never be bored.

....

Anyhoo, I FINALLY gave my sister the birthday gifts that I got for her...I was 1 week and one day late, but she was so happy!!!

I kind of filled a bag full of presents for her.

They were all wrapped up, because I believe that gifts should be wrapped...it makes it much more exciting.

Anyway I can reveal what I bought her now since she knows.

2pm latest album?? or mini album..I forget, but yeh that XD

Big Show 2010 concert dvd

2NE1 self titled album

Chansung kiss me mug

Toy Story three

A box of Ferrero Roches

the latest Elle magazine

and some cosmetic stuff

-

So in the end it was worth it being a bit late, and she was so happy when she opened them all, the look on her face was sfkhjdfhsdkfjhsdk.

It made the day so much awesomer...because there were some family issues which were just annoying and ruining the evening...I don't even want to rant about it.

So pathetic.

SO yus, thats pretty much my day...so now I will sleep cos Im shattered!

much love to all

From Minnie

P.S. Still lmao over the 'blog job' I almost died when I read it at first...so cute!!! rofllllll

Tuesday 23 November 2010

I'm Just Trying to be Happy

I told myself.

'Self, tonight I will retire to bed early.'


and yet here I am at 00:38 having just got to bed.

don't blame me, I was watching this program about America in the 50's with my friend and giving out mocking comments about communism and ignorance.

It was really informative though there were these two housewives.

One of them was a winner of Mrs America - sort of beautiful and from a pretty prosperous family - the perfect example of what a woman in that society was expected to be...the other was just your average housewife who had the 'Mrs America' example to try and live up to.

The latter ended up addicted to vicodin and telling her children that she wanted to commit suicide.

It's kind of like a horror story with a plastic smiley face.

I'm not sure it was ever like that in Britain...British women just tended to get on with life in a less 'Stepford Wives' way.

In Britain a nice cuppa tea at the end of a bad day makes everything better before singing God Save the Queen before getting under the Union Flag printed sheets and drifting off.

lmao, I guess every place has a weird stereotype to live up to.

I should sleep really but my throat really itches.

I don't know what it is, but something in this house is irritating my tendency for allergies.

I've yet to find the cause of the irritation though - annoyingly.

Toy Story 3 came out on dvd here 2 days ago and I feel like I'm committing some kind of crime by not owning it yet.

The first thing I do when I get out of here is purchase it...LOL, I make it sound like I'm in some kind of prison, if it were a prison it would be a very comfy one.

You know, I discovered quite a while ago that people are weird...but I still get surprised each and everyday with how much they try and prove it.

For example...why do people want what other people have...when they could have something of their own.

Like they see someone has a good relationship with someone and they instantly want that same relationship because it looks appealing to them.

HELLO!!! Its called chemistry!!!!

Just because two people may get along doesn't mean that it will be the same way for you if you butt in...it doesn't work that way.

Its happened to me a lot over the past few years.

But I will give you a tip if you are an envier of someone elses relationship.

WORK ON YOUR OWN SHIZZ...stop trying to take what I have and recycling it for yourself...thats not commendable at all.

TBH I hate jealousy between friends...its really awkward. Growing up I was in what you might call a 'friendship triangle'...

Maybe that's why it irritates me so much...friendship is about how individuals are with each other...you have to comply to different peoples tastes and beliefs and moods...you cant just have pre manufactured friendship.

Its all about love...you have to change yourself for other people...or not change yourself...but be more appreciative of what they are and love them for it...even if you sometimes clash or are sometimes not on the same wavelength.

That's why people should work on their own relationships with someone...and not try and butt into my relationship with them.

Its like someone being jealous of how I am with my sister and then trying to act like me so that my sister will like them more.

Its STUPID!!!

You know what else bugs me...when people presume they know me....or like, when someone gets along with me, but I'm not quite exactly what they like...so they try and change me so I will fit better with what they like.

Why can't people just like me for me??? I know I'm not perfect, I'm probably made up of 99% flaws...but this is who I am...and tbh, if I'm not doing something immoral or illegal...why do people think I ought to change?

I don't expect them to change for me...sometimes I do see characteristics in people which make me annoyed or whatever, but if it's part of who they are, then I will try and love them for it...not judge them.

If you like something...you don't let anything get in the way of that...not even pre conceived ideas of what you THINK you like.

I know, I'm ranting a bit, but its something that's on my mind atm and I will sleep better if I get it out.

and I just want to say,

I LOVE LILY FOR TOPPING THE 100TH PAGE IN THE BBVIP STAFF SPAM THREAD.

The first generation BBVIP-ers still hold the 100th page crown thanks to her!

Yeah that was totally off topic, but my angry mood will always change when I think about my love for first gen.

We are a very special group of people...it's like we all clicked in a strange and wonderful way.

Aaaaand its 1:18 so I better just go to sleep...I've had too many late nights in a row...Its going to catch up with me soon enough.

Ahh nevermind, I'm young and in love and life is good.

Good Night gorgeous sweet amazing baby,

Love Min.

P.S. I was doing exercises in the living room today when the baby was napping, and I did this stretch and nearly broke the light.

I felt so tall being able to touch the light until I realized that the ceiling in the living room is abnormally low.

Monday 22 November 2010

Just Breathe

I got a shower this morning and I felt so refreshed all day, it made me glad that I decided to get the shower in the morning and not in the evening.

I got really peeved when I went to the job centre.

The guy asked me,

'Have you applied for any jobs this past week.'


and I said,

'No.'


And his head like shot up and he said,

'Are you for real?'


What a professional person.

I was like,

'Well, I've looked for jobs I just haven't applied for any.'


He said,

'Allright, but you do know you could be investigated if you say you have applied for a job, but haven't really applied for it?'


I was like,

'....didn't I just tell you that I HAVEN'T applied for any this week.'


He was actually trying to get me to lie, so that he could write that I had been actively searching for work...but the thing is, last week I hardly searched at all...why should I lie about it? Last week I was really busy with other parts of my life. I'm not going to tell some stupid little lie just to make his job easier.

In the end he said,

'I'm just going to say here that you applied.'


So in the end, it will still look like I lied because that what he wrote on his crappy little form thing.

I swear I hate that place, I wouldn't even have signed up for it if my parents hadn't asked me to...it's so degrading.

I know I am a snob...but a respectable one.

Actually, I've not really done anything all day...the babysitting was pretty calm, and he was being well behaved thankfully.

I just watched a bit of TV...Smallville made me spazz because Clark and Lois kissed...I don't even follow Smallville anymore, I just get hyper when destiny starts to unfurl LOL

and I'm also a pretty big superman fangirl.

I mean come on, the dude can fly!!! I love guys who fly.

I didn't really access my laptop a lot today, its sort of awkward to have a laptop on when the baby is around...he likes to scratch out the keys and eat them...and I really don't appreciate that.

I found my first Bible yesterday and decided to bring it here with me...there is so much of my history with that Bible.

Sarah's destructive legacy is apparent, as soon as you open the cover you see a huge scribble over the inside...then you discover that the intro and first 3 chapters of Genesis have been ripped out and if you turn it over there is a huge tear in the back cover.

She was so lovely as a child.

Yes, this Bible brings back memories...me and my best friend wrote our names inside the front cover when we were about 10 years old - my handwriting has improved so much since then XDD

Its weird how certain objects bring back certain memories.

Its like, I have this diary with only one entry - it was the kind which has a lock...and I lost the key.

I remember what I wrote about and why I wrote it...and I'm kind of glad in a way that it cannot be opened...I was 14 or 15 at the time and what I wrote was EXTREMELY violent because I was furious.

The funny thing is that I was completely right about the person who I wrote it about...I still know them now and they are just not even worth a mention.

Ohhh yeah, when I came out of the job centre I felt so free and alive because I was finally able to get out of that stinking place.

I was walking up to my friends car like an epic boss who has just taken over the world and when I opened the door she said,

'Min, your coat is buttoned up all wrong.'


I felt so deflated after that...it seems I can't even dress myself properly.

I'm seriously considering getting my hair cut in the very near future...and I mean drastically too.

Like not just a trim.

I'm getting so tired of it being so long...and if I hate it shorter, it wont matter because it grows really fast.

Emmm its almost 1:30am

So I should just shuddup now LOLOL

GDnight

Love Minnie

Sunday 21 November 2010

The Special One

Ok it just took me like 20 mins to get my laptop working.

Its 12:11am.

How did it get so LATE (early) so fast???

Today has just been busy, I went to Manchester this morning for church (again) I think this is the last time...hopefully...allthough I wont lie, I loved seeing my friends.

My best friend asked me to draw her a picture of Rain to twin with the one I did of Lee Min Ho.

I just love it when I get commissioned and payed to draw hot men...it makes my life so much better.

Anyway, at this moment I'm not at home (again)...Its another babysitting week...FIGHTING!!!

I'm so glad this bed is comfy...I'm getting so used to living here now...I actually locked the house up tonight LMAO...I'm not used to all this going to bed early shizz.

I was going to log into msn, but I figured everyone would be asleep now so I just left it...I can catch up later.

I just lose grip over the weekend...busy busy busy.

I'm quite happy now though...earlier I was like on a knife edge...you know, those moments where you can either fall deep into a depression or just be happy.

It didn't help the my sister was playing depressing music on the piano...even when she tried to play happy songs they sounded depressing...she keeps her foot on the pedal far too much...it gives off such a mournful sound.

I tried playing Michael Buble over her depressing music...but its sounds tinny out of the ipod speakers and kind of irritates your ears so I gave up.

Then we decided it would be best for everyone if we made a cup of tea...so we did just that and plugged the ipod into the kitchen speakers and had like a Minnie and Sarah kitchen rave, which is kind of like the party that TOP and GD had, but the complete opposite and with less zany hair.

And of course, I ended up laughing on the floor.

We have this game where we dance in the most peculiar and awkward way and its just so funny...if it ever got filmed and put on the internet it would be one of those infamous hits where people laugh at you until the end of the world.

but it made me laugh, thus propelling me on the contented side of that knife edge I was balancing on.

The fix of caffeine may have also had something to do with it.

Anyway the people Im babysitting for were supposed to pick me up at like 8pm and by the time it got to 9pm I was like wth man!!! I'd been waiting around with my coat on for like an hour...so I called them and they were all

'Ohhh are you ready now.'


and I was like

'yus'


so they said,

'ok we will call when we are gonna come getchu.'


So I was all PFFFT and took my coat and shoes off and watched an episode of My Name is Kim Sam soon with my lil sis.

I was a bit sad though cos the time I had to leave we were just up to my favourite episode...so I guess I will have to watch that when I go back home (whenever that will be)

and now I will complete this quiz, which apperently, I have to answer truthfully...Ive not even read the questions haha.

A N S W E R - T R U T H F U L L Y

0. Do you like anyone?: Yes

1. Do they know it? Yes

2. Simple or complicated? Special

3. Best guy outfit: Whatever looks good, Im not anal about how other people dress to be honest.

IN - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U

4. Had sex: nope

5. Bought something: Of course!!!

6. Gotten sick?: Yes, that nightmare of a headache last Thursday

7. Been hugged?: Yeppp!!! :D

8. Felt stupid?: Ohh every single day...Stupid becomes me, it goes with my eyes and hair.

9. Talked to an ex: Nope

10. Missed someone: All the time, Always and even now

11. Failed a test: No *phew*

13. Danced: If dancing is what you call it...it looks more like a malfunction of bodily movement.

14. Gotten your hair cut?: I wish...but no

15. Lied?: yup =\

U N I Q U E

16. Nervous habits?: I bite my nails and I blush and I generally act very awkward.

17. Are you double jointed?: There's not such thing.

18. Can you roll your tongue?: YEP!!!

19. Can you raise one eyebrow?: Yep!! I just did it now and I bet whoever read this does it too hahahaHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

20. Can you cross your eyes?: No, I fail at that actually.

21. Do you make your bed daily?: Nope

22. Do you think you are unique?: I'm unique just like everyone else :P

H A V E - Y O U - E V E R’S

23. Said “I Love you”: I've said it yes.

24. Given money to a homeless person: Yes

25. Smoked?: EW hell no!

26. Waited all night for a phone call?: No

27. Snuck out?: Yes

28. Sat and looked at the stars? Most certainly...stars are so friendly...they prove that things can affect you even when they are far away.

M A N N E R S

29. Do you swear/curse?: Not if I can help it.

30. Do you ever spit?: Yeah...when I've been out running or jogging I always have to spit...I don't know why, but I've seen footballers do it too, so maybe its like a habit when you run about a lot....its really gross though. When I was little I used to like seeing how far I could spit...I was so ladylike as a child...some things don't change haha

31. You cook your own food?: Yeah, if I'm not being too lazy...which is the case usually.

32. You do your own chores?: I try.

33. You like beef jerky?: Yep

35. You’re happy with your life?: No...but I am occasionally, because certain things in my life make me happy.

36. You own a dog?: YES!!! MY BABY!!

37. You spend your money wisely?: Other than my DVD cravings...I think I do.

38. Do you like to swim?: Ohhh yeSS!!!!! I LOVE TO SWIM!

39. When you get bored do you call a friend: Sometimes...though most of the time when I'm bored I actually do the stuff I'm supposed to do

D O - Y O U - P R E F E R’S

41. Flowers or angels?: Flowers

42. Gray or black?: Both

43. Color or black and white photos?: Either...depends on the content.

44. Lust or love?: Love

45. Sunrise or sunset?: Both...but I guess sunsets are more romantic...SUNSET GLOW!!

46. M&Ms or Skittles?: M&M's

48. Staying up late or waking up early?: BOTH! hahaha...of course it depends on the company too.

49. Being hot or cold?: Hot

50. Winter or Fall?: Autumn

51. Left or right?: Right

52. Having 10 acquaintances or 2 best friends?: Best friends...but why 2??? I want 10 best friends and 2 aquaintances haha

53. Sunshine or rain?: I don't mind either....but I only rain when its warm...not cold rain :(

more have you evers;;

Sleep in a bed of the opposite sex?: Yes

Hooked up in the woods?: Nooo

Drank a bottle of alcohol by yourself?: I don't drink

Hooked up in the shower?: Hahahaha no

Been Dumped?: Nope

Stolen money from a friend?: NO!

Slept naked?: Nooooo

Been in a fist fight?: Yes

Snuck out of your house?: Haven't we had this one???

Had a crush on a teacher?: D: no way man!

Been on an airplane? NOOOOOOO :(

Slept all day?: Nope (I say 'no' a lot)

Missed someone so much it hurt?: Yep, it aches like heck.

Fallen asleep during school? Yes...on the floor once LMAO...I can sleep anywhere.

Been lonely?: Yes

Cheated in a game?: YUP!

Been to the ER?: Once, but I was too small to remember

Been in a car accident?: No, thank goodness.

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So thats that shizz anyway...its just the usual bumfaced donkeyness really...but it fills my blog up nicely LOOOOL

Its nearly 1am now...I have to get up early I bet...UGHHHHHHHH, not looking forward to this.

I'm more prepared this time though...I brought DVD's MUAHAHAHHA

I have no idea why I put evil laughter after that....it was so uncalled for.

I think I should sleep now...I could actually go on and I did have a few things on my mind, but I think I there is a time for everything and that time is not now.

Now is the time to sleep and get refreshed.

Good Night Everyone,

Love From Minnie

Saturday 20 November 2010

Tomorrow

Well

I've not updated my blog for an UNHOLY amount of days...which may give the false perception that I've actually been having a life, but that would be a lie.

The real deal is that from Wednesday night to Friday night I was off babysitting again, but this time my sis came with, so it wasn't as bad.

Thursday night I was supposed to go out with Sarah and Dora to celebrate Sarah's birthday, but I ended up getting a splitting headache and just went to bed really early while they went out and enjoyed themselves *sigh*

I think I got ill because I was watching TV and concentrating on the laptop at the same time so the next day I decided to give the internet a break, cos I didn't want to induce another terrible headache like that especially while I was supposed to be taking care of the baby.

And just in case you were wondering, he sleeps a lot, which gives me ample time to chat and so my usual no-life shizz...when he is awake he has my full attention ^__^

It was better babysitting with Sarah there, you get less of those lonely pangs. I have to go back next week too, but alone probably. Its not that I don't like it...but you know, there's no place like home....I must confess...actually never mind, kekeke.

Allthough when I actually did get home, I had my first reaaaally awful nights sleep in ages LOL...I just saw a note on tumblr that says what the top ten causes of brain damage are.

I managed to get 7/10 which is VERY bad really.

But anyway, one of them is 'sleeping with the blankets over your head.'

I was like,

'I DO THAT!'


at the screen.

Maybe this is why it feels I'm becoming more brainless as each day goes by.

I fell asleep at 2am last night and then woke up around 6:30..so naturally I am so VEREH tired at the moment.

Another one of the top 10 causes of brain damage was 'lack of sleep.'

Go figure babes.

So today, I managed to put some rubbish in a bag...which is my version of cleaning. I did make some cupcakes too...only to discover later that I didn't have enough eggs to make the icing...which is kind of a fail on my part, but I'm hoping they will be delicious on their own...I haven't tried yet because my appetite is rubbish this week.

Hopefully going to grandmas will induce the FEASTING MONSTER within me...it usually does, cos grandma makes much lush food!

She also has loads of snacks in this cupboard and it just calls to you sometimes.

This is making me feel hungry, but I know that when I go to find something to eat, nothing will appear.

I don't know why I even expect things from those cupboards.

Ohhh Im just vereh vereh tired...and kind of irritated...for some reason people like to be irrational very late in the evening when I just cant be bothered arguing.

LOOL I find it hilarious when people write 'some people' when its obvious they only mean one person...and I just did it like a pro!

Sometimes dongsaengs are so blunt -

Leslie says (00:03): *huh

MinnieDragon says (00:04): *sorry Im writing crap cos Im shattered XDD

Leslie says (00:04): *hahaha
*i know you are lol
*but hey, you always write crap lmao

She knows me well XD

Im not going to even begin to try and dissect the conversation me and my sister are having on msn...its way too crypic for the minds who will be reading this...even Im not sure what it means...if it actually means anything.

But somehow it reassures me...one thing in my life that I can always count on...is that my sister will always be there when the need for utterly strange conversation arises.

And now I need to brush my teeth and sleep!!!

Hopefully I will sleep more tonight.

Gooood Nighhhht

Love Minnie

Tuesday 16 November 2010

We're After That Same Rainbows End

OHHH Im typing late again, but honsetly, my feet are so cold you could preserve meat on them.

Maybe Im just too weak when it comes to adapting to cold weather haha.

Well first things first.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 16TH TO MY LITTLE SISTER SARAH!!! SHE IS MY MOST BELOVED THING THAT I HAVE SO I WISH HER A VERY HAPPY DAY AND I REEEEAAAALLLLY HOPE THE THING THAT I GOT FOR HER ARRIVES TOMORROW BUT IF IT DOESNT ITS OK BECAUSE LAST YEAR I GAVE HER HER BIRTHDAY GIFT LIKE A WEEK EARLY.

BUT YES!!!! I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST IN YOUR 16TH YEAR AND THAT WE WILL BE ABLE TO GO AND FLY AWAY SOMEWHERE!!!

AND I DONT KNOW IF YOU WILL SEE THIS BECAUSE I KNOW SOMETHING YOU AVOID MY BLOG BECAUSE ITS SO NOT YOU STYLE AND I RUIN YOUR IMAGE BUT MEH!!!!!! WHY AM I WRITING IN CAPS??!!!!

ANYWAY I LOVE YOU AND HAVE LOVED THESE 16 YEARS EVEN IF YOU DID CHASE ME WITH A KNIFE ONCE.

FROM MINNIE WHO SLAMMED A DOOR ON YOUR HAND ONCE SO THAT THE TIP OF YOUR FINGER CAME OFF AND YOU COULD SEE THE BONE AND YOU CRIED AND YOUR LIPS WENT BLUE.

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So, today has been nice to me and I'm glad of it, cos really complaining about life bugs me and even I get annoyed at myself for it.

FOR ONCE!!! I'm almost completely happy at the end of the day...if I was the perfect temperature it would be LOVE.

So this morning we had another DJ try out to judge....there were two auditions, they were both really good...however, I was continually getting distracted by Mico and Max on the webcam. Max was playing with his Hamster called Bolt and Mico was busy falling in love with one of the DJ's who was auditioning....seriously, you could see the love gradually take over his face. Max and I just had so much fun teasing the hell out of him.

Its so funny we've skyped every day so far this week and it really feels like they are crazy younger brothers...I always wanted a brother and now I have two *feels blessed*

I really thought Sarah would be a brother...everybody else thought so too...they all thought that we would be a sister and a bro, but things don't turn out like that in life....I mean, everyone thought I would be the tall one :/

Anyway later Moonie and Ruru did a radio together and they are SOOO funnny, I really would like them to be DJ's. They can entertain for hours and the way they interact with the listeners is great. I was LOLLING so much.

OOO also today I did my first banning of a member...it was so powerful XD

This evening we all went over to a family friends house. This lady lived in Japan for 10 years as a teacher so she made Sarah a Japanese feast with sushi galore. It was so yummy. We really know some great people. We know some rubbish people too XD but there is always someone who comes along who is great enough to cancel out the rubbishness of the other person.

My dog was so freaking cuddly today as well...he has weird behaviour days...sometimes he's really barky and then other days he just sleeps and is low key, but today he was clingy and cuddly and playful...and SOOOO cute.

GOSHHH IM SO TIRED NOW!!!

I'm having too many late nights! I need a freaking job so that I will be forced to sleep early.

I'm such a baby, but at least my feet are warm now... ish

I was shivering like crazy before Jae could probably hear my bones rattling when he called just now or maybe not since I was typing angrily because he called me an ugly version of little red riding hood LMAO, this boy and his oodles of charm.

RIGHT I'M GOING TO SLEEP as it is freakin' 1:09am!

GOODNIGHT EVERYONE,

Love Minnie

Monday 15 November 2010

Far

I dunno where to begin.

If today could be turned into a human, that human would be me...

and that's probably the weirdest thing I've said today.

Though actually, today has a long way to go considering it is still only half an hour long...there is still plenty more time for me to say something even more ridiculous and strange than that.

Well I guess I should start at the beginning...I think thats the best place to begin.

I woke up with a FREEZING head and decided I didn't want to get out of bed...even though I had to. I was kind of tired anyway because I'd gone to sleep late.

(tonight I am going to wear a hat to bed...that is how cold my room is)

I keep banging my head on the shelf above my bed =.=

I eventually removed my carcass from the warmth of my bed. The reason being that the house was empty and I wanted to make the most of being by myself...its so relaxing having no one else there.

Its going to be the same tomorrow. I miss Sarah though.

So there were DJ trails on the forum and mico, max and I are the judges so we all skyped again, but this time we upgraded skype so we could have a conference video call.

It was so much fun being able to see each other when we talked...we gave each other little tours of the rooms we were in.

After the trial max left and mico and I chatted for a while until I had to go to the job centre.

This is where the fun stopped.

It was kind of weird. I was talking to the guy about my job search, telling him what I'd seen available and then I just mentioned something about uni and he stopped and said,

'Wait, you've been to uni?'


I said,

'Yeah.'


and then he was like,

'Then why are you looking at these types of jobs when you can get something so much better.'


It shocked me a little bit. Because recently I've been having the mindset where I should just go for what I can get.

It made me think that perhaps I do deserve more than what I am planning for myself.

It upset me too later on when a load of other shizz just built up and I was making a cup of tea and then started crying because I was just so sick and tired of getting second best and I got so disappointed when I saw something I wish I hadn't seen.

I got that painful feeling near my chest, where it feels like it will explode.

I think its the feeling of not being satisfied.

I must have looked like a right wally crying into my cup of tea. Good job only Sam could see me.

I'm just so mad at myself at the moment.

Anyway, lots of lovely people seemed to appear from no where at the right time and they really cheered me up and I love them.

And Im so tired...there is so much more to say about today, but Im getting too sleepy and its almost 1am already

Just I love you :)

Night

From Minnie

Sunday 14 November 2010

Hands Down

Ohhhh I've had a long day today!

It started out like me waking up later than I planned and then having an argument with my dad because I REEEEEAAAALLLY did NOT WANT to go to Manchester.

Anyway it got to the point where he was like,

'IF YOU AREN'T READY IN 20 MINUTES YOU ARE OUT OF THIS HOUSE FOR GOOD!!! I MEAN IT!'


Yep...so here I am at 22 years of age, still being dragged around by my parents and they blackmail me with homelessness.

Its clearly obvious that I have not yet gained the maturity (or the income) to live by myself. However, I do contribute what I do get to the house and to living and buying food and shizz...they seem to forget that though.

I know I may not be as energetic and motivated as other 22 year olds...but I am an adult and sometimes I really feel they like to keep me in my place, like I'm still a teenager or foetus or something.

I dunno, I feel like I'm writing a bratty essay, but I'm not even mad at the moment. I'm just trying to write down how I feel so I can make out what they want from me. And then maybe I can find a way how to tell them there is also stuff I want from myself and for myself.

because I feel like I'm not doing what I want and making my own life because Im too busy being a part of their lives.

Sometimes I have to spill out my thoughts so I can put them into some order or form so I'm less confused.

At the moment I feel like my parents are pushing me towards independence and at the same time chaining me to a wall.

Its very confusing man....but maybe its just me being immature and stupid I dunno.

I'm sincerely trying to make things work here...and Im just so bad at it LOOOoOOL.

continuing with todays story...

We went to Manchester, it was ok, nice seeing friends and stuff. Just irritating that we moved to Leeds to for the church there...so why are we travelling to Manchester every Sunday??? HUHHHH???!!!!

Next Sunday too I think huhuhuhhu.

So anyway, after Manchester we came back home to see Sam and then we went to the store to buy Judah a present cos it was his first birthday party tonight. We got him some really cute clothes cos my dad kind of spazzea about buying baby clothes.

He finds it cute how you can buy minature versions of grown up clothes hahaha.

We bought him a suit with a waistcoat and a tie...he will look like a little Bae haha.

Its so cute.

Well we got to the party and I got attacked by this 10 year old who has no idea about personal space.

The first thing he did as soon as I entered the door was walk behind me and tickle me
and then stand ridiculously close.

I was like running away from this child!

Anyway I found that standing in a corner with a plate of food was very effective in keeping people away from me.

But it was funnn anyway. Judah was so cute!!!

Anywayy, its 00:39 and Ive just been asked,

'MINNNEHHHH when are you going to sleep???'


and Im like,

'In a minuuuteee'


and he was like

'Reaaaalehhh Minnehhhhh?'


and I was like,

'Reaaleaahhhh.'


So I guess I should.

Sooo good night darlingggss!!!!

LOVE YOUUU

From MINNEHHHHHH!!

P.S. WADPASIDLKAS DAOSIDHL ASHDOASDOAJSOFPAUSYFIHASLFKALSFKASIfK

Saturday 13 November 2010

Being There

I am SO irritated today.

I was pushed too far and I lost my cool and said something that made me feel bad.

And you know, then that makes me the person who is in the wrong. When in fact, Im the one who is right...but because I said that mean thing now I am the one who is a horrible disgusting person.

Life and its twists and turns.

And it wasn't long ago I was ratting at someone else for being mean and horrendous to me, now I'm acting just as bad.

I apologised anyway, even though what I said was true - but it was mean. And I don't roll with that shizz.

Mean is something I don't want to be...no matter how I feel...I don't like lowering myself to that level.

Makes me feel common.

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Anyway, after a few hours of calming down I'm ok...and actually I'm really tired and its only half past seven.

I was talking to Max and Mico for ages on Skype. It was tons of fun, why don't we Skype more often?!?!?!?

Even though half the time I was just listening and not getting what the hell they were saying and they kept having to repeat themselves for me.

My brain is an epic fail recently. Its like, it's hibernating.

I really don't understand why there are fireworks going off now!

Its been over a week since Bonfire Night.

Is there some other celebration I am not aware of that occurs on the 13th of November??!!

OMG that reminds me I have to give Sam his worming and parasite medication today.

Why does time fly so fast??

Sarah is mad at me because we were supposed to watch more Kim Sam Soon drama, but we were waiting for mum to leave for work cos she was doing some stuff in the living room where our TV is, but by the time she went I was tired so I said,

'Nooo, its too late now.'


because I knew I would fall asleep halfway through an episode like I did last night. She just replied.

'Minnie you are so weak!! You RUINED tonight'
*dramatic voice*

WOW, these fireworks are so loud!!!

Sam was scared of them earlier so he came and squished next to my bed and I put a towel over his whole body.

He lay there for ages looking like a squashed cabbage leaf, but I love him anyway.

haha

I was supposed to make cupcakes for Judah's first birthday. I had everything planned, but then Dora called and said she wouldn't be able to get the ingredients to me on time.

Which is a shame, I was looking forward to doing some baking. Especially the caramel ones...they were going to be particularly delicious.

I was going to post something on my posterous today (remember the extra blog I made for my creative writing?) but then I decided to build up a few on them and save them as drafts and then just post them randomly whenever.

I already have a few waiting so NOT LONG NOW!

I'm going to Manchester again tomorrow. That's three weekends that my family have travelled to Manchester to attend the church there...its quite worrying. And I swear I must have travelled over that same strip of motorway 1000's of times...it get rather dull after the first few hundred times.

Hurm well, Im going to sleep early tonight so I can get a bath early in the morning and take Sam out before we have to leave.

Good Night Lovelies

From Minnie

P.S. :)

Thursday 11 November 2010

No More Bitter Chocolates Please

You know, I love the beach, everything about it - even those little sand mites that always manage to get into your swim suit and bite the hell out of you - you know they always seem to live on the nicest part of the beach too.

And I love it when its so hot the sand burns your feet when you walk on it so you literally have to run or else your feet would fry.

And then I love that little fresh water stream that is always there running from the mainland right down the beach and into the sea (and I don't mean the sewage dump - its England we have award winningly clean beaches).

I love the breeze that is so warm before you go swimming and then makes you shiver when you are thoroughly drenched.

I love the first time you visit the beach when you are on holiday, only meaning to have a nice walk before you go back to camp for dinner and you always end up in the water fully clothed desperately trying to save your phone and camera from the salt water.

I love how it takes ages to submerge into the cold water because there are certain levels of depth which are more than particularly dreadful to experience.

And I love when you finally get brave enough and dunk how your body seems to pump the blood around faster and you get that amazing adrenaline rush that warms every inch of you up.

I love when you are walking deeper and deeper and suddenly you sink because the water is now past your height (this happens to me much earlier than my family because the second shortest person, my sister, is 6 inches taller than me LMAO).

I love when you discover that you can actually swim underwater with your eyes open and that salt water doesn't even sting your eyes at all.

I love when a fish touches your leg and you scream insanely

I love when someone screams 'jellyfish!!!!' and immediately the whole sea is evacuated.

I love the fact that for some reason the beach is the only place you can basically strip and it is normal and appropriate.

I love the random dog who goes crazy when it sees the water and drags its master in with it.

I love when you are swimming and you find a random warm spot in the water.

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Yeah there were lots of beach pictures on tumblr and now its getting so much colder I REEEEAAALLLY miss summer.

It made me want to be on holiday again.

I miss the sun man!!!!

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Sarah and I have started to re watch My Name is Kim Sam Soon drama. It was the first Korean drama we watched, so its kind of special to us.

Its the thing that got us addicted to Korean media shizzle and its so fantastic.

If you have never seen it you should watch. It will crack you up seriously.

Kim Sun Ah is a genius and Hyun Bin is like pure hotness on a plate (first Korean guy crush muahahah, he's LUUUUUSHHHHHHHHHH. Sarah and I call him 'the celestial one who cannot be reached').

We watched the first for episodes this evening, it just fills me with glee.

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I cannot believe its 12am already. Actually, I woke up at like 10:45am. I was so annoyed. I dislike waking up late.

Then I sat in bed for hours afraid to get out because it was so cold, but then I was forced to leap out after remembering I had to post a package to some guy who wanted to buy my Biotechnology book.

I realized Amazon is a poo place to sell things on because you don't even get half of what you bought it for originally.

I should totally try selling on ebay. Im kind of intimidated by its hugeness though.

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I have a feeeling that this weekend is gonna be busy. I have to bake for baby Judah's first birthday too. His mummy likes my baking ^__^

She has to pick what kind of cake she wants though.

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This week has flown by so fast...soon it will be Christmas :D

I ADORE Christmas season. I love the feel and lights and atmosphere. It makes the cold somehow warm.

I think it would be weird to have Christmas in a country where it is warm.

It always seems irregular when you see pictures of Christmas in Australia and its the height of summer and they are having a BBQ on the beach as Christmas dinner.

Thats why I never complain about the cold during Christmas time.

I leave the complaining for January and Feb hahahahah

I thought I would be tired earlier than this but I drank like 10 cups of tea/coffee today and I think the caffeine is taking its time to wear off.

Actually no, Im going now

Tiredness just happened.

Night,

Love Minnie

Wednesday 10 November 2010

CAPTAIN GD

Allright, I'm all ready for bed.

I love my penguin PJ's...they are my favourite, so comfy.

I love penguins in general. They are epic birds. So awkward when they are out of the water, but once they dive in they are completely in control.

They remind me of myself...except I am yet to find something that I am completely confident in.

That's my excuse for being awkward anyway. hehe.

Today was not a complete waste of time, I managed to store some money I found lying about.

£100.00 to be exact.

Sarah and I realized we had quite a lot of cash floating about our bedroom so we decided to gather it together and take it to the bank and save it there. Otherwise it would filter away on bus fare and food and lots of other dreadful things like that.

I dare not think about all the money we have wasted on meaningless stuff.

However, I do not regret money I spend on DVD's. That is a different matter all together.

I've been having leg issues recently.

My left ankle is giving me grief and my right calf is also being a pain in the leg.

I really don't know what I've done to strain them...maybe I sat funny or something.

Hopefully it will be better by morning.

I'm so excited for next week. It's my sisters 16th birthday

It means at least something fun will happen, and I'm certain that there will be lovely food involved...which I am looking forward to.

So its like 1:16 am atm and the reason I am awake so late is that Im waiting for GDragons new G market MV to be released!

Yep Im in hard core fangirl mode, but man Im soooo tired.

OMG ITS BEEN RELEASED !!WBLJFNSDF SODIFHLKSNDF SHOIFLKSD FHSDFL
sFGIS:KDFLJH DFUPHOJS:DLFH SDPFOHJ:SD F IHGSLNDKF>GSDPFOJ:GKSLD

HERE HERE YOU MUST WATCH THIS



HE IS SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK

I CANT EVEN BEGIN TO DESCRIBE HIS CUTENESS!!!

HIS STAR QUALITY JUST LEAPS OUT AT ME!!!

Ok I should calm down!

Its 1:26am and my sister is trying to sleep.

HE WEARS UNDERWEAR!!!!!!!!!!!

*cough*

Anyway Good Night,

Love From Minnie (internally spazzing)

P.S. Im too tired and spazzy to think of a title.....hmmmmmmmm

P.P.S. I love that everyone says 'lush' now

P.P.P.S. Two of my favourite boys in one night *treasuring the moment*

Tuesday 9 November 2010

This Never Happened Before

Ohhhh today I did some DJ-ing for a few hours, it was so much fun, I forgot how much I liked it.

The thing is, I like DJ-ing when there is no one in the house, because I feel awkward if someone is there.

I don't know why.

Well actually, I think its because you sort of act over the top and less like yourself because you are trying to entertain the audience.

My sister hates me when I'm DJ-ing, she says I'm being fake, but I'm not, I'm just being slightly more animated so that the people listening don't get bored.

Cos I'm kind and stuff LOLOLOL

This morning I was SO COLD! I actually didn't want to get out of bed because of coldness, thats the first time I've felt like this since April or something. I'm going to have to get all hard core and used to the cold now.

Tonight it is going to be 1 degree....soon it will be in the minuses BRRRRRR.

I really miss warm weather huhuhuhuhuhhu.

Sarah told me a few days ago that Wednesdays would be 'drawing days', which means we would have to produce a piece of art ever Wednesday. I think its a good idea, it with help with practising techniques and also I will finally be able to finish some of those commissions I've been given.

Yep, people are actually willing to give me money in exchange for a portrait and I STILL haven't taken them up even with the cash incentive.

I have like 3 people waiting, and I charge £35 per picture - hmmmmmm I should really get those finished before Christmas muahahahhaah.

I'm suddenly very hungry, but I refuse to eat at this time of night...no, its not because I care about getting fat (which I do care about, but not at this moment) It is because my feet are warm and I don't want to get out from under my bed sheets.

Otherwise I would so go to the fridge and find something to stuff down my throat.

We watched The Lake House this evening, its a well cute movie, I remember liking it when I first saw it...it is a remake of the Korean movie Il Mare. The Korean version is better in my opinion, but the American remake is a good one on it's own...and I like the lead actors. Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock are LUSH acting with each other.

My tummy is making noises haha

Its 11:47 now and honestly, I haven't really done anything today or accomplished anything, but then, I never made any goals for myself today or challenged myself.

I do that a lot you know, inside my head - I disappoint myself a lot too.

Ahh I'm sleepy, I keep closing my eyes and then remembering that I'm writing something.

I know this is short, but I really have nothing else to say.

Its been a good day with very few bad moments and I got to see my favourite nose ever.

What more can a girl ask for?

Good Night/Good day - just good everything.

Love Min

P.S. I'm sorry to all those I deserted earlier today...there was an electric shortage in my house which cut off the power that feeds the modem.

Mianhee!!! T___T

Sunday 7 November 2010

How Could I Plan on Forever, When I never Planned on You

I'm really tired so this is going to be a short one.

My sister just told me that my typing,

'Isn't just any typing...your typing is disgusting and I hate it.'


which means

'Please don't blog for long because you will keep me awake.'

I didn't end up going to Manchester because of an absolutely ridiculous occurrence that put me through several emotional changes within the space of six hours.

To put it simply - my dad in an irrational attempt to teach me a lesson decided that it would be best to lock me out of the house without money food or drink while they went to Manchester.

I was basically wandering around my town for 6 hours with my dog - yes he was locked out with me.

I was so angry at first, then I was upset but the most overwhelming emotion was that of utter boredom.

and it was also very cold. England in November is not the best place to be locked out in.

and I spend a lot of time sat on the park bench venting my fury to Zaty eonnie via text.

To put it short, I have had a lot of exercise today and I wouldn't be surprised if I have a cold tomorrow.

I'm not angry at my dad anymore...I haven't spoken to him yet, but I'm not angry at him. He is my daddy after all.

I have this feeling that everyone I love likes to punish me in order to test my affection. You know, say awful things to me or do awful things to me in order to somehow mould me into what they want.

It confuses me at times.

Like for example just now I was lying on the floor cuddling Sam and my mum said to me,

'You are so lazy and selfish and you get tired even when you do nothing and you get stressed out over the smallest of tasks.'


Its like she forgot I just got home after babysitting at someone elses house for 5 days and today from 8:40am to 3:00pm I was walking around all over the place just to keep warm.

I think I have the right to be tired.

I just didn't even reply to her. I can't be bothered anymore, I just said to Sarah,

'I think mum will say I'm lazy no matter what I do.'


I know myself and I know when I am being lazy and selfish and I know I didn't deserve that statement from her.

Anyway, I'm just going to forget about the first half of today, at least I didn't have to go to Manchester and I got to spend time with my doggy...so I can take positives away from it, even if it is some crazy shizz.

I did cry though. It seems Sunday's are the 'lets be cruel to Minnie and make her cry' days.

Meh!

So I started writing a little story to post on my posterous. It kind of popped into my head in a moment of inspiration so I'm really looking forward to posting it...after its all been written of course :D

This evening was a chick flick evening. Sarah and I watched The Wedding Planner and Sweet Home Alabama.

We came to the conclusion that the best chick flicks are the ones that can make you cry, which both of the above mentioned do.

There are so many cheap rom com's nowadays. They are far too concerned with how fast the lead role's can bed each other that they miss out on the meaningful stuff...you know, like loving someone forever.

Alright, I'm going to leave it here for tonight. My pillow calls me.

Love from Minnie

P.S. I feel so numb inside recently :/

Saturday 6 November 2010

We Could Rule the World

Well I'm back home :D

Something I am completely happy about, it's ridiculous how uptight I have been all week.

You know, I thought I was so relaxed and being cool and stuff, but actually I wasn't because today I have discovered just how chilled I am when I am home...it's like another flipping level of chillage.

I feel like a princess that has returned to her castle after doing community service for a week.

Yeah I didn't post last night because I got home at 10 and I just stunk of baby, so I just got a wash, changed into some lush clean PJ's and sat down in the front room to watch 'Taken' with dad and Sarah.

We didn't get to bed till past 1am.

'Taken' is dads new favourite film. According to Sarah he has watched it three times already this week, but I think it's a very daddy-ish kind of movie.

Its about this guy who is an ex secret service agent. Anyway he has this estranged daughter and he really loves her and wants to get to know her better...because he was away a lot when she was little and then he and his wife divorced and now his daughter lives with her mum and her mum's new husband.

ANYWAY, his daughter wants to go to this trip to France with her friend and he isn't sure because he is really cautious and stuff, but in the end he relents and lets her go.

Unfortunately, his worst nightmare becomes a reality and his daughter and her friend get kidnapped by these sex traffickers.

So basically the rest of the movie is about her dad hunting them down and killing and torturing everyone who is involved with her kidnapping until he finds her.

It's kind of violent, but there is barely any swearing and no crude scenes and the storyline and acting is really strong, I would totally rewatch it.

but I guess it is more of a daddy film because dad's love to be the hero haha.

Once when I was little there was this pervert who touched my head when I was in town (this guy was know for being a strange dude anyway...he thought he was Jesus and wore a robe and sandals - since when was Jesus bald?)

Anyway I told my dad because I hated it and he just went right over to that guy and punched his face LOOOOOOL

Thats the only time I've ever seen my dad lose it, but I still think it's kind of cool that my dad would punch someone for me.

Well today I woke up pretty early, due to an overactive mind and also, I have my doggy to take care of again :D

btw, when I got home I hugged Sam for like a full ten minutes I missed my lil baby puppy so much!!!!

I felt kind of in with the money this morning because I've hardly spent any the past few weeks so I asked dad whether we could go to the shops so I could buy some art supplies that I've needed for ages.

He was like,

'Ok, but you have to get ready fast.'


and I was like,

'WHY??!!!'


and he said,

'Because I have to pick up a van from work in a bit.'


and I said,

'AWWW but I stink, I need a bath first!!!'


And he said,

'HURRY UP AND GET ONE THEN!'


but you know, the words 'hurry' and 'bath' do not line up together well in my vocabulary or dictionary or whatever.

In my view, there is no point in running a nice hot glorious bath if you are just going to leap in and out of it in two seconds.

and besides, I had to take Sam for a long walkie.

So we ended up going shopping after dad had been to fetch the van.

In the meantime Sarah and I started watching House of Flying Daggers (which we have never EVER finished watching before), but daddy came home and took us out RIGHT AT THE VERY SAME MOMENT where we ALWAYS stop it.

One day I will see the ending haha ONE DAY!

I found what I wanted while we were out shopping. ACTUALLY IMMA SHOW YOU!!



I know I know!! For some reason I got all flustered and spazzy when I was filming that and looked like a stupid idiot, but in my defence, its 11pm-ish and Im tired and shizz so MEH!!

Maybe it would have been better if I'd have just taken pictures of my new stuff. Ahh never mind. My embarrassment is out there now.

Anyway, I bought two new dvd's today - Stardust and the Lakehouse.

We watched Stardust tonight, I forgot how AMAZING it was!!! I seriously love that movie, its so sweet and romantic.

My favourite part is the very ending because it makes me tear up and also the part when Yvaine confesses to Tristan, because its so beautiful -

You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.
- Yvaine

I wish I could have said it like that It's almost exactly what I wanted to say...but it came out like - 'fpsfialjfASDLFIOHASDFLAS' - instead.

ALLRIGHT!

I made a posterous account because YJ eonnie recommended it and said it was very easy when it comes to posting fics and stories and poetry and shizzle.

So here is the link to that if you wish to check it out.

http://nubcak.posterous.com

I just wrote a little introductory post, nothing new as of yet, but I promise there will be soon, my brain just needs to tick over some stuff :D

Emmm and I think that is about it for tonight/today/now.

Tomorrow I'm in Manchester...joy of all joys =.=

I would be lying if I said I was pleased about this. I REAAALLY wanted a peaceful weekend at home, but life just refuses to give us what we want so I shouldn't be surprised that it's doing irritating things tomorrow.

It smells all smoky in England today because yesterday it was the 5th of November which is bonfire night. I kind of like that smell haha...

Well the tiredness is sweeping over me, Ive had a good day :D

Look! No complaining (hardly) ^____^

Love you loads,

From Min