Dreams, why do they tend to not come true?

I got up at 4:30 again today - stupid farm work, getting me out of bed at the crack of dawn!!!
The great thing was, It rained so I got off waaay earlier than expected, woooo!!!...even though by now, the rain has stopped so the workers who live on the farm will be back in the fields again...poor them XD

I had an amazing dream last night - Big Bang had spare time on their 'UK tour' (just by that alone you can tell it is a dream) so they decided to do a mini concert in the church building we use in Manchester....OMG it was so real!! I felt so excited. And then after the concert they were standing on the steps giving autographs and stuff and all my non-VIP friends were there trying to suck up, even though they probably don't even know what Haru Haru means...grrrr...
Anyway I was just asking Jiyong (yes him) for his autograph, when I realized I didn't have my book with me so I asked him to wait until I got it and as I was walking to get it from my bag I realized he'd followed me....KWON JI YONG had followed me!!! then he waited while I got my drawing book and asked if he could take a look at my work...then he got so close to me...and I mean close. My heart was beating sososososososoooo fast, it was SO real.....but then I woke up. But it was the best dream I've had in a flipping long time....I just can't get over how close he felt hahaha....I'm such a fanatic, but I don't care...big bang is my medicine!!....it's funny how the only member I spoke to in my dream was Jiyong though...well...maybe not too suprising, the amount of time I spend spazzing over him.

Now I have to go to uni and drop off this freaking portfolio...then I'm getting a nice bath and washing every single bit of strawberry smell off my body....I don't see strawberries the same way anymore...lol...they disgust me...

Anyhoo see you soon :D

From Minnie

Swinging Moods, must be something in the Water

I feel weird today.

It's like, I'm hyper, but only because I'm trying to block out this depressed feeling thats trying to grab at me. Maybe it's the warm muggy cloudy weather. I'm not sure about myself today. What is this feeling? Unfulfillment? Aigoo, it's making me moody.

In other news, my bed collapsed yesterday. The story goes -

I had a major spazz fest and then Sarah joined in...and then so did Sam.
Now Sammy's way of spazzing was to grab a bag that was hanging on my bedpost and pull it for all he was worth...which made the bedpost come apart from the bed and cause it all to collapse.
So I have to sleep on the floor until my dad fixes it....Heaven knows when that will be.

Stinking uni just asked me why I hadn't handed in my portfolio for last year. The thing is, they never told anyone to do this so how were we supposed to know? It's freaking annoying because I can't find one of my assignments. Stupid stupid!!!!! Why can't they just let me enjoy summer? I thought I'd got away from in all for a few lush free months!!!

Meanwhile Big Bang are being gorgeous as usual, making this dull day a whole lot brighter for me. They are like the friends I've never met...one day maybe I can haha, I wish!!! I sound like a crazy fan, but I love how they don't call their supporters 'fans'. We are their VIP's....which is kind of like concubines....OMG hahahahahahah, I cracked myself up, what can I say, I'm totally mood swinging today....its like how the mood ring song goes

"Cos when its black means watch your back, because your probably
The last person in the world right now she wants to see...
And when its blue it means that you should call her up immediatly
and ask her out because she'll most likely agree.
And when it's green it simple means that she is really stressed
and when it's clear it means she's completely emotionless
and thats allright I must confesss......."

Haha I love that song is's completely classic. Ahhh!!!! SO fresh, SO cool!!!!!

LIKE BIG BANG - sfkjshdfkjhsdjkhfbczmnbcvyasgdlfga.iweshf/ashdlkfh.hasdlkfhbjdbfgkjvhdsb

I need to spazz, it is my energy source... MY ENERGYYY!!!!! ahahahah big bang are everywhere........I LOVE IT!!!!

I'm loving you all canstantly...be good my crazies!!! Muuuaahhhh

From Minnie

Rain, Sun and more sun....and More Sun

Wow, today has been...wow.

Well first of all I woke up at 5:30 so I could get to work for 6:00, but then I heard really heavy rain on my windows (no not the the guy, I mean actual rain). When I heard it I thought, "What the heck I aint going if it's raining...' and then went back to sleep.

I mean, who does that? You just don't decide not to go to your work if it's raining!!! I must have like been delusional because of tiredness or something.

Anyway, it ended up being ok because, they didn't start until the rain had finished anyway and I ended up only being 1/2 hour late, which is ok, because I totally pwned those strawberries!!!

The thing is, today was the hottest day of the year so far and I was outside unser the blazing sun from 8:00 am to 5:30pm, which means I'm pretty much red raw...my skin feels like it's on FIRE...but it's ok because when it's settles I'll have a nice tan :D

In the middle of the day my dongsaeng Leslie called me and told me Gara Gara Go had come out, and I totally started having a spazz fest in the middle of the field. My dongsaeng was so great though, she played it for me through the phone twice!!! But then she started teasing me, that the video was hella sexy and I couldn't watch it yet, grrrr. Big Bang once again made my day. They are lushies, I adore them.

WhenI got home the whole family decided to take Sam for a walkie in the park and then afterwards we got a McD, which is never bad..

Anyway sorry If I've been blabbing and being boring, but I'm REALLY tired and should be sleeping....I love that I have two days off though, I've got tons of catching up to do. It's suprising what you miss in three days!!!!

Bye for now my gorgeouses

Min

The Events of Today, Some Thoughts and a Bit of 'Slight' Spazzing

I worked for twelve hours straight today. My aching back seems like it will never be young again. Now I know how those old people who have hunched backs feel.

The thing is though, I thought I'd hate it today, but I actualy feel really good...sort of fulfilled... Sorry if this sounds weird, but I think I actually like being a farm labourer...because it's like the most sought after job everrr *sarcasm*. It is hard work, but because it is more physically challenging than mentally, it gives me time to think.

So the following are some of the things I thought today in no particular order:

Strawberries - LOL

How I wished I could speak Korean -which is kind of weird, because knowing Korean would not help me communicate with my Romanian colleagues at all

Big Bang - well of course, they were singing in my ears almost all day

Poetry - I tried to make some up in my mind, but all I could think of was strawberries and I'm not ready to publicise my feeling about them yet. I'm still a little confused XD

Tea - because there was none

My dog Sam - The dogs on the farm are cute, but not a patch on him

Travelling -hate the thought that I'm going to live on this earth for 70+ years and I will never get to see it all... I want to wander (lonely as a cloud ^ ^)

Friendship - How it is important to me, it's the closest thing to being in love that isn't actually being in love.

Time - Why on earth do I take so long at everything? I linger so I can choose, but will lingering in one place cause me to miss something thats just a little further ahead?

Jiyongs Solo album - I can die happy when I've heard this. I have no doubt in my mind whatsoever that it will be AWESOME!!

My back!!! - because it was killing...it still is ^ ^

So thats been pretty much my entire day. Then I came home and had the most looked-forwarded-to bath in the entire world.

Now I'm totally chilled and Leslie just gave me a preview of the next chapter of our fic!!! It was a cute Jiyong and Joo Min moment...you just gotta a love those two!!!

If your wondering who Jiyong is...heres a pic for you (LOL, any excuse to plaster him all over the place, ey?) :P

Yes...this is the very same man I dedicated a whole blog to, what can I say? He's just a babe...

Apparently it's going to be HOT tomorrow. Britain is currently having a heat wave and I'm serious, it's hot. There are BBQ'ed Brits walking all over the place. That said, this heat is just the normal temperature in India, we are such big softies!! Anyway, because of this heat work has to start an hour earlier, which means my wake up time is 4:30, eeek!! >_<>

Ahhh sometimes life is so good!!!

Love to you all, you gorgeous people you!!!

From Min

Loving life? or Living Life?

I've not written a post in a ridiculous amount of time and as it is 00:47 in the morning (GMT) I decided to write one.

I have an announcement to make...Today I ********** Victoria Davies worked for money!!! Yes I did. The annoying this is, I have yet to get my hard earned money and belive me it WAS hard earned. I picked strawberries from 8:00am to 4:45pm, it was back breaking and my arms are now sunburned...not that I'm complaining, because they'll go brown when the red has faded :D I'm back working again on Monday, this time from 6:00am...I think I will probably die. but anyway, enough of this work talk!!! It boring!!!

Other news!!! I'm falling in love!!!....nope, not like that...there is still no-one around who is worthy of my efforts. The thing I am falling in love with is writing...well, it's more like a re-falling in love, since I was in a relationship with it before...but I'm sorry to say I neglected it and it felt lost and confused and slipped away from me, but then it realized that I was lonely without it and regretted pushing it aside and it came back to me.................

WTH? What is wrong with me? Anyway the point is, I've started writing again and it's all because my lush dongsaeng Leslie asked me to co-write a fic with her. I'm totally enjoying it. It's a good chance for me to sharpen my writing skills a bit and all that jazz, anyway if anyone is interested I'll link you to the story---it's a fantasy one ^ ^---Though the only people who read my blog probably have already read the fic. Ne? Zaty Eonnie? hehehe

I'm in a strange mood today. Can't quite put my finger on what I feel...Is it contentment or is it hope? Is it happiness or is it excitement? I dunno, but I know one thing...I'm tired, SOSOS tired...well, it is o1:09am...HAPPY SUNDAY EVERYONE, I love you today just as much as I did yesterday and maybe a bit more.

GDnight ~

What Comes of Reminiscing

Here's a new poem I wrote only last night when I was reminiscing about old times haha :)

Feelings Lost

Why can't I write what I want to say

Useless words on a half-written page

The heart is there, but the transition is poor

Why doesn't my head know my heart anymore?

I don't want to forget that wonderful time

But, I can't seen to find words for this rhyme

When did you become a memory to me?

You used to be something I wanted to see.

And the feeling is gone, it left long ago

Do things that seem important not matter so?

I want all the fondness to stay in my heart

But, the emotions all leave now that we are apart.

Now to me you are just a person I knew

Back then I thought I'd always stay true

The wishes of a younger version of myself

Are neatly swept away and left on a shelf

Will the things that I feel right here and now

Also lose meaning and fade somehow?

Stuff thats going ONNNNN and This n That

I havn't posted up here in a while, my apologies, if anyone actually reads this haha. Otherwise, sorry to myself......ok so, I've been really busy with uni work lately, because it's close to the end of school year and the beginning of summer!!! I have so much I want to do this summer, but I wont talk about this Just yet.
First, I joined a new forum dedicated to Big Bang and for all the iVIPs, it's awesome so if you are a VIP and wan't to spazz away with other VIPs please join because you'll have a good time I assure you :)
To check out BBVIP click http://bigbangvip.net/index.php?act=idx you won't regret it ^^ Lets support our boys international-style hahahah.See they are happy for you to join ^^...except TOP maybe...but he's just playing cool, he's happy really....the pic is Big Bang in Japan, they are bringing out the My Heaven Single very soon so they are working hard...BIG BANG in Japan HWAITING!!! I wish I could go with you guys too (lol).

SORRY if you're not a BB fan, but I must warn you that the spazzing is not going to stop for a few minutes, I have to tell you about the new BB stuff I've bought!!

1. The Global Warning DVD's - AIIGOOOO I cannot tell you how awesome these are I keep forcing myself to watch them bit by bit so I can savour every minute. On top of that you get Taeyang HOT concert DVD included and my oh my is it hot!!! Hahah, yesterday we watched Young Bae for breakfast, it was the SHIZZZZZ.
2. Big Bang BIG SHOW concert Album - This is simply amazing, I am listening to it as I type, if the boys are great on the albums they are just as much awesome live...I made my dad listen to the whole album in the car haha...
3. Big Bang First Single - I thought I should start collecting all the stuff from the beginning and the best start is their first single right? Well, of course all the songs are amazing, I love We Belong Together, it's so sweet...so is the mv, you should check it out, my Jiyong iso cute there. With this Single you also get the dvd with the BB Documentary, which is so cool and it's really long too, so you get to watch the boys for ages, it's like heaven ^^

SO thats a nice three things added to my growing collection of BB stuff...I really want it ALL haha.

So now I'm going to post a poem that I wrote this morning, it hasn't got a name, but I felt fiercly about something so I wrote my feelings haha.

When you say your angry words

I am sickened and disturbed

I refuse to be moved by words -NEVER

I'll act like they're something I never heard

Your understanding is getting slower

Did you ever have dreams?

In your whole life have you ever wondered

About the things there are to see?

Yeah, I know the little things count

But, without them the world still goes round

Sorry to burst your bubble

but, I like how the bigger things sound

That my friends, was dedicated to the little people of the world...enjoy my anger hehe..

Anyway, I'll stop here for today....