Beautiful Motions

Hello mi lovelies!

Just sat relaxing listening to 'I'm the best' by 2NE1. I love this song.

It's pretty much saying - You are the best and you should think that because you are.
No one else is you, therefore, when you say. 'I am the best.' Its true innit!?

There is nothing more tiring than trying to live up to expectations, because you have given a false impression of who you are to the outer world.

That's why I try and be myself always. It's darn hard at times too, especially if you want to make a good impression and you are having a low self esteem moment and you don't think there is anything good within yourself to offer.

My advice is, even if it's a bad day for you, still be yourself, because sooner or later people find out who you are and the last thing you want is for them to realise you are a liar.

The other reason I like the 'I'm the Best' by 2NE1 is because I have a crush on Park Bom - she's God's definition of lushness, in human form.

When I went on holiday I got a new hardback sketchpad. I'm very excited about it, mainly because I've never actually had a proper sketchbook. I usually just draw on printer paper or get those pads you can rip paper out of.

I'm looking forward to when I've actually filled the whole book with drawings and experiments and it will be such a satisfying thing for me. The best part of it though is that its a permanent thing. All the drawings in there will stay in there, all my work for me.

There is something icky about putting your time and energy into a drawing and then selling it or giving it away. It's like you've given someone a piece of yourself. I don't mind if someone has asked me to do a picture for them specifically and I know from the start it isn't mine.

It's those times when I draw a picture just for the pleasure of art and then someone says, 'So how much is that worth?' or 'How much will you sell that for?' OR 'Can't you give me that?'

SDFHALSKFJLASK AWFUL!

Personally for me - drawing is something that I enjoy and get pleasure from. It's kind of like a husband hahahaha. No, but really...it's not only joy, but it's like a beautiful frustration. It's an element of madness in my existence. To be honest, I can't describe the feeling - but if you have something that you use to express yourself, something within you that you are so sure of - then imagine a person asking for it for a price?

It's seriously vomit inducing.

LOL at me getting all dramatic.

Everyone has a random variety of obsessions throughout life, but there's always that one thing that is with you from the day you were born till the day you die - something that is a part of your whole definition.

I guess it must be a type of love.

My poor bladder is telling me I have been drinking far too much tea. I think I shall go empty it and then proceed to fill it again. My bladder is so good to me, I can't even.

I should go now.

Disclaimer - The reason my blog is filled with emotional vomit is probably fuelled by the fact that Roger Federer, my athletic hero, was beaten yesterday in an incredible match and I have not yet recovered.

It was my summer dream to watch another Wimbledon final between Roger and Nadal - who are in my personal opinion - ASFOUALSHIJFKA SFOHAUKSLJNFA SYFPIHOALSKF UASY*OPQIHFLJKASF YPOASIHLFKNAS FOYUHJSLKFA YFIOHLKASF UAIHSKLFJ LASUFPAJSLF UAPSI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And so much more.

I feel grateful to God that He allowed me to watch the French open final between Federer and Nadal, but there are great sobbings in my heart.

Roger is such a gentleman and my future child will probably be named after him in some way. He is the best athlete of my lifetime and I am in mourning because the Wimbledon final is going to be lacking with the loss of his swashbuckling, truly beautiful and skilled style of playing tennis.

Perfection in streamlined motion.

*BIG SIGH*

*goes to drown in tea*

Love Min

P.S. I also want to verbally abuse and then slowly and painfully murder anyone who finds any joy in the defeat of Roger - Lord help me. Like I feel this strongly!

BIG BANG IS BACK!!!!!! HECK YEAH!!! LET US REJOICE!

WARNING: This post contains unhealthy amounts of spazzing and confessions of an elitist nature, enter at own risk - VIP's ARE VERY WELCOME

Waaaa it's SO good to be home sat on my usual spot with a cup of tea and my good old Kevin. SO GOOD!

So as you all know (for all those who read this shizz) I've been away for a few days to visit some friends so we could celebrate a birthday together.

The coach trip there went smooth and successful, but the trip home was like a NIGHTMARE and lasted a full hour longer than it was supposed to.

I am glad I am still alive after such a trip.

Firstly, when we were getting our ticket checked before we got on I asked the driver,

'This coach is going to Leeds right?'

He nodded and then I said,

'Only the sign says it's going to Newcastle.'

He was like,

'Yeah, thats where the last stop for this coach is.'

I said,

'I thought so, only the sign over there says this coach only stops at Sheffield, Leeds, York and Durham ao I was a bit confused so I though I'd just check with you.'

THEN, he said in this REALLY nasty voice,

'Well you look like it doesn't take much to confuse you.'

I just looked at my sister like

'WTF is this driver talking about'

And she looked at me like,

'I know right? This swine.'

THEN as soon as we stepped onto the coach it felt like a furnace and a nursery all at the same time. Most of the seats were taken so Sarah and I had to split up and sit next to strange people. Unfortunately, I had to sit on the seat nearest the toilet and my whole trip was doused in the odour of urine.

The trip seemed to be going smoothly, but then when we got to Sheffield something else occurred.

The bus got completely full so and the driver asked if anyone was getting off at the next stop and nobody was. This meant that he would have to drive past the next stop and leave whoever was waiting there. SO instead of doing that, he checked the tickets of the entire bus again, until he found a family who didn't have pre-booked tickets and he kicked them off telling them to get the next coach to Leeds.

This took like half an hour to do and it was all very *facepalm* - ish

ANYWAY, we finally got to Leeds coach station and got off into the fresh (ish) air.

I don't think I've ever been so happy to get back to Leeds in my life!

But anyway, I had a lot of fun over at my friends. We went to see 'Tangled' yesterday morning and that was a success for me.

I've been wanting to watch it for AGES ever since YJ eonnie told me it was great, but it came out here a lot later than it did in Brunei.

IT WAS OSM! I enjoyed every second of it. There is something magical about going to see a Disney movie at the Cinema. I got all spazzy when the Intro came on and my sis and her friend were like,

'You ok min?'

BUT IT WAS BRILLL!!!! It will most definitely be a part of my DVD collection when the time comes.

The other big news and I mean BIG NEWS is the fact that BIG BANG ARE BACK!

I kind of feel so relieved - like the huge burden of waiting has been lifted hahah.

Allthough I DO have a confession to make.

I have not yet heard the mini album.

My reason is this - My sister and I were going to download it as soon as we got home, but then my sis found out that she had to go and take care of her pony first. So I'm waiting for her to get back so we can listen to it together.

Yes I could listen to it now on my own, but I refuse to. My sister is the first VIP I ever knew other than myself. It would be wrong and horrible for us not to be able to listen to it together. We have waited the full two and a bit years to for it, I can wait a few more hours.

I SO HAPPY THEY ARE BACK THOUGH!!! MY HEART IS VERY FULL AT THE THOUGHT OF IT!

I'M SO PROUD OF THEM TOO! THEY HAVE PWNED THE KOREAN MUSIC CHARTS AND NOW THEY ARE CLIMBING ON ITUNES, IM BURSTING WITH VIP AWE! IM SO HAPPY FOR THEM! VIPS WENT SO MAD WHEN IT WAS RELEASED ON ITUNES THAT ITUNES ACTUALLY CRASHED!

THE POWER OF VIPS AND BIG BANG!!!!! WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

I was singing Last Farewell at the house where we were staying and to my surprise my sisters friend started singing along!

I was all O: O: O:

OMGAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

And started doing the Last Farewell dance in the living room. It was a great moment.

Then I said to her,

'Did you know Big Bang come back today?!?!?'

And she said,

'OMYGOSH!! ON MY BIRTHDAY!!!!'

Like it was the best birthday present EVER!

THEN THEN! Here comes a REALLY big part!

I was playing on their Sony PSP and she just said,

'Oh you and Sarah can have that, I bought it for my bro and sis last Christmas, but they've only played on it twice because the screen gives them headaches.'

Me and my sis were like *O*

'ARE YOU SURE????'

We didn't mention it again because we thought that was WAY too much to just give us a barely used PSP, but when we were leaving she brought it down with the case and charger and games and everything and put it in Sarahs bag.

I am so touched by that generosity I feel so blessed this month. THEN I got a text from Zaty when I was on the coach telling me she'd sent Sarah and I a parcel. So I was there sat next to a toilet on one side and a complete stranger on the other side getting all emotional and feeling all blessed and tearful.

So I'm full of anticipation for what is coming in the post in a few weeks time. I have my Big Bang Album and GTOP album and Seungri Album all coming in one and then something from Zaty coming in another!

God is so good to me!!!

So many giving people! It makes me want to give more and more and more!

Ohhh, it's really dark outside, I hope my sis gets back home soon. I don't like it when she has to walk home in the dark.

The other day I was writing the third chapter of my fic and getting a bit annoyed because I was writing a section of dialogue that was just becoming more and more boring. So I thought!

'SCREW THIS SHIZZ! I SHALL LEAVE IT FOR WHEN I GET HOME!'

Anyway, I was walking past the Vivienne Westwood shop in Nottingham with my friends when the idea of how I could 'unbore' my piece of rejected dialogue popped into my head and I was so happy about it!

So soon I will be spamming the third chapter here so you can read it if you really want XD

This week I discovered that I randomly burst out in song a lot more than I thought I did. I swear I must have sang at least seven or eight different songs while walking around town yesterday. I wasn't in the mood for talking much, I never am when it comes to looking around shops, but heck, I sing friggen loads!

After going out yesterday I was SO tired and had a splitting headache. I was sat watching anime with my friends lil brother and I just fell asleep on the sofa for a couple of hours (AND I NEVER SLEEP IN THE DAYTIME), but when I woke up the headache was still there. I was so confused cos usually headaches go after a sleep.

I realised later that the problem was that I'd not had a cup of tea the entire day. I spoke to my friends mum about it and she told me something very interesting. The main withdrawal symptoms for a caffeine addiction are headaches and tiredness. This explains A LOT. Though I refuse to stop drinking tea, I must always remember to drink some in the morning. It also explains why I get headaches when I sleep in late, because my body is asking for tea LMAO.

I don't know, it is the price I pay for being British I guess.

I'm just on Amazon looking at all the games I want to get for the PSP haha. Well, I want all the Final Fantasy ones and 'Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep' and some racing ones, allthough we do already have a 'Need for Speed' and I would like to try Fifa '11 though I am usually HORRENDOUSLY bad at football games...I guess I'm just a watcher and not a player hahahaha.

I have no plans for the rest of the week, my body is screaming at me to chill, but I must force myself to do things...other than sleep and laze around....I might straighten my hair LMAO - SUCH A HUGE TASK!

YAAAAY! My sis is home now so 'Operation Download and listen to THE MINI ALBUM OF THE YEAR' is now in ACTION!

*SO EXCITED*

Being a VIP makes me feel like SUCH A BOSS!

I COULD ACTUALLY CRY!

Right, Imma take my boy for a lil walkie cos I've missed him so much and I want to spend some owner/doggy quality time together....and I have to cool down before I begin my jumping about and screaming and crying because of the SFHISADLKNFASF ASIHFlka-ness that is BIGBANG!

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BIG BANG ARE SINGING IN KOREAN ALL TOGETHER. I FEEL EXTREME EMOTIONS!!!!

DAES BEAUTIFUL VOICE I HAVE MISSED IT SO MUCH!

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Yes, u_u words cannot describe my current emotions. My ulimate biases are singing a song that I can't understand with English words here and there TTTTT_____TTTTT

I FEEL SO COMPLETE! MY DAY HAS BEEN MADE AND I AM OVER THE MOON AND MY HEART IS BURSTING AND I AM SHOWING ALL THOSE USUAL SIGNS OF BEING IN LOVE (but it's with five men and not one) OH DEAR GOODNESS ME!!!!

*FANGIRLS BIG TIME*

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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO YEAH!

*gets all elitist VIP*

BIG BANG PWN THE SOCKS OF THE SHIZZLE!!!

THEY JUST DO!!! PWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWN!

I DON'T CARE EH EH EH EH EH WHO YOU ARE!!! THEY PWN YOU TOO!!

THEY PWN THE ROYAL WEDDING OF HIS ROYAL HIGHNESS PRINCE WILLIAM TO KATE MIDDLETON

AND THEY EVEN PWN THE FRIGGEN LEGS OFF A MILLIPEDE!

I love them *sigh* T____T

Thank you Jesus for Big Bang and for my obsessive compulsive personality haha.

I freaking LOVE being a VIPgirl!

Ok Ok Ok Ok Ok - there is no point in telling myself to calm down, I won't be calming down for at LEAST a month and I've also drunk copious amounts of tea in just a few hours....IF BIG BANG WERE A DRINK THEY WOULD BE TEA!

And now I'm going to spend the rest of the evening listening to Big Bang singing beautifully in their OWN language while writing a fic about them - how completely blissful!

Good Day ladies and gentlemen - EXCELLENT DAY! BANGIN' DAY! AWSOMELY SPLENDIFEROUS DAY!

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOOOOVEEEEE FROM MINNNNNNIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

P.S.

G DRAGON

SEUNGRI

TAEYANG

DAESUNG

T.O.P

^^^^^ I LOVE THEM :D :D

WELCOME BACK BIG BANG!!!