You and Life Remain Beautiful

I can't even remember today.

I'm feeling very introverted and secretive. I feel like I have a big secret. PI MI!

Even though I haven't. I just feel like I have. I think it's because I'm listening to deep and meaningful songs that were obviously written by people who feel something and some of that feeling has entered my soul.

I have 'Many the Horror' on repeat - I'm not sure if that is good or bad.

It's good in that its a brilliant lovely song.

It's bad in the sense that I get all emotional listening to it - just because I can.

Maybe it's just Monday syndrome. I wonder what my Tuesday syndrome will be like.

Omg you should see my personal diary, ITS OVERFLOWING with weirdness. I swear when my grandchildren read it, they will think I was stoned 99% of the time.

I was thinking about the names I want to call my children and was wondering whether it would be completely horrible if I named my children after Star Wars characters?

It would wouldn't it?

My mum said when I was born there was this other kid at church born around the same time and he was called Obi Wan. I think it's probably for the best that his parents moved away...I would never be able to resist a person with such a name. I would probably be married to him by now with lots of offspring called Yoda and Han and Anakin.

Honestly, I prefer the name R2D2, because he is my ultimate favourite, but it's illegal for humans to have numbers in their name and I have to admit, I would hate to have a number for a name.

I'M IN LOVE WITH MATTY T's VOICE!

I mean I've been in love with it for a while now - 10 years to be exact. I think it's the longest relationship I've ever had with someones voice. Unfortunately, I have to share this voice with other people, but I don't mind too much, because such things have to be shared.

One of my oldest friends would like to marry the body that goes with the voice of Matty T - but I'm just like, no man, thats just not right.

I think it's because I like my boys pretty....I really really do. It's SUCH a burden for me.

My right hand is SO cold! Why is it so cold? What did I do for it to be so cold like this?

Ok, so after I'd been out to the job centre I came home and started this angry sketch (because I was angry) of Luke Pasqualino, so I drew his head and placed his eyes and nose and lips and then started like scribbling away madly. Then Sarah came and just got a pencil and started scribbling away at it too and by the time we'd finished scribbling it actually looked pretty good. I mean it isn't the best sketch but it's actually a good likeness and considering that I started it because I needed to divert my intense rage - well, lets just say it was slightly more productive than chopping my own extremities off with a carving knife.

Actually it's not just my right hand, my whole body is freezing. I went downstairs to tell my dad I was cold.

and he said,

'Its not cold in here.'

SO??????

I'm wondering, does he think I will go and spend my entire night in the kitchen just because it's warmer in there - and it wasn't that much warmer in there anyway, he was just being facetious and that just annoys me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm contemplating going to bed early because it's the only place in which I will have complete warmth - maybe I should go to bed early tonight.

Because I wan't to wake up early just in case the postman comes with the parcel with the CD's in. I already missed a parcel he brought last Friday, I think it was something from Lily because it was addressed to Sarah and only things that come from the other side of the world are from Sarah.

Unless they are from Malaysia, then they are usually addressed to me, because Zaty sees me as THE BIG SISTER! Even though the other day Sarah and I did this thing where we leap into each other arms and I dropped her straight away, cos I just have like -2% muscle mass in my arms.

I used to be so strong you know? Like I used to go to this youth club and the boys used to call me 'She-hulk'.

but, they were rubbish boys anyway, never lifted a finger to help hardly, they might as well have been Victorean Era ladies. Seriously dudes nowadays need a punch in the face to awaken their masculinity.

There is definitely a problem when the girl is lugging about and setting up Air hockey tables and the guys are sat there watching. ITS A PROBLEM. And I'm not being all feministic here either, because that's just stupid. Naturally and scientifically, boys are built to be stronger and have more energy THEY SHOULD HELP CARRY STUFF AND ALL THAT!

I don't know why I'm talking about this, it's like I'm suddenly peeved about this stuff that happened in the past, but maybe it's just the Monday syndrome again.

It's just wouldn't it be nicer if the males of this word stopped trying to catch grenades and step in front of trains and just man up and do a bit of hard labour?

Why on earth would you want to catch a grenade anyway??? are you an idiot? Do you know that would kill you? IF YOU ARE DEAD WHAT GOOD WOULD THAT DO ME?

And if a grenade is coming my way why can't you just pull me aout of the way why do you have to catch it? WHY DON'T YOU THINK LOGICALLY BRUNO MARS?!?!?!

No hating though, I actually like that song and I find Bruno to be very attractive. BTW is that his real name? BRUNO!

Sounds MANLY *says 'BRUNO' in a deep voice*

I think I knew a dog called Bruno once.

When I was little there was this horse called 'Spot' that lived in a field behind my house and I used to love him so much. Anyway we moved away to Manchester and then years and years later we went back to visit our old house and HE WAS STILL THERE!!!

Mum thought he would have been dead already, because he was old and stuff, but I never recall him being old. To me he was like a GLORIOUS STALLION or something. I remember sitting on his back when I was little thinking I was the Queen of all I surveyed.

OH OH OH I'm just so tired, I need to wash my face and brush my teeth and then snuggle up in my bed and dream about nice things like spring and baby animals and please please please no boys because they are always people like Luke Pasqualino and it just gets me thinking that REAL LIFE MUST BE LIKE THIS!

but Luke Pasqualino is not in my real life...unfortunately.

So yes, SLEEP TIME!

Goodnight!

I love you!

From Minnie

THE PICTURE



The scan actually doesn't do it justice, it looks better in your hands...trust me :)

Night

I Don't Want to Lose (You)

You know, I really should start being more attentive about tagging my blog posts.

Sometimes I want to know whether I have spoken about anything and I don't know if I have because I never tag anything...I don't on tumblr either...it's not that I'm lazy, I just forget and press 'publish post' and then it's just too late and the end of the world!!!

I really don't know why the entrance subject of my post today is 'tagging'

How boring.

Um so yeah, dad had a migraine today so I wasn't on my own like I usually am every Tuesday.

Everyone seems to be putting up their Christmas decorations up already, but we always put ours up 12 days before the 25th and then take it down 12 days after...its like a tradition. I REFUSE to have decorations up before then.

Wow watching Michelle Phan makeup tutorials is just so relaxing...its like you can be all wound up and feel like beating the snot out of someone and then all you have to do is watch one of her tutorials and the stress just leaves your body.

All the awesome people are called Michelle you know....kekekekeke ~

and I just made one humdinger of a typo, it was like the mother of all typo's - I'm so glad I discovered that in time...that would have been just so embarrassing.

My dog is dreaming and making these weird snory noises...he runs in his sleep too, it so adorable!!!

So today I was sat at the computer and generally bored out of my mind, my head was telling me to draw, but my heart and hands were just not in the mood.

Then I went on ebay to see if I could find Christmas presents for people, but all I did was stare at one thing that I've already decided to get someone and wondering whether they would really like it or if I just want to get it them because I think that it is AWESOME!!

Then I got this HUGE craving to go to the German Christmas market in town because they sell these GORGEOUS marshmallow thingies, Its like eating a cloud...I mean, how you WANT a cloud to taste...not actually how they really taste.

Ohhh you get me!!

but anyway, I wanted to go this evening, but then Sarah and dad were faffing about buying getting new phone contracts and shizzle so we will go tomorrow instead I guess.

Sarah mentioned Tampopo, which is a restaurant which sells various Asian foodz and I wanted to go so I could try Malay food, so depending on how much money I have, we could go there for lunch or dinner or whatever.

There is this member on the forum who's username is 'Me!!!' and I really want then to say hi on the shoutbox so I can say,

'HEY ME!!!'

Yeah cos that's the kind of shizz that makes me laugh...yup!

*sigh*

OHHHH episode 7 of Secret Garden was FINALLY subbed and we watched that tonight!

OMGGGSDLFHSDLFHSDLFKHSLKDHFSLDHFKSLDHFLKSDHFKLSH ITS SO GOOD!!!

I started watching Mary Stayed Out all Night too, but like the awesomeness of Secret Garden has already got me totally biased and even though Mary Stayed Out All Night is cute and good I cant bring myself to watch another episode yet.

I was looking for a dvd to watch last night and I couldn't even find one considering this -



in fact, that's like the tip of the iceburg..so WHY, Couldn't I find anything to watch?

Well the truth is I have this tendency to lend out my dvds and I must have like 30 or 40 unnaccounted for movies scattered at the places of various friends and aquaintences.

and THEY must have all the ones that I feel like watching.

After much thinking about my problem I have found a simple solution.

Tomorrow I must go to HMV and buy more dvds U_U

OMG ITS ALMOST 12AM AND IM NOT EVEN TIRED YET!!!

Just before me and my sis were in the kitchen dancing to music rabidly - I should be tired out of my mind - I was whipping my hair back and forth and everything.

That's the most satisfying thing about having abnormally long hair, you can shake it all about like a male lion

....but in a good way.

AND HERE! the latest thingy tumblr has to offer that I am transferring to here because I RARELY blog personal things on tumblr...well if I do, its more indirect personal rather than RAW Minnie heart vomit-

This is majorly personal, you ready?

Absolutely :D

Do you care about the last person you kissed?

Not at all :) I don't even know what their name is.

Does anything on your body hurt right now?

Nothing physical, no.

Do you swallow gum when you’re done with it?

No, cos it always gets stuck in your throat all day and you can feel it and its so uncomfortable...and then at night you get afraid you might choke and die.

Do you like to cuddle?

Yeah, but it doesn't really happen much...I cuddle my dog a lot though..and my teddy.

Do you still talk to the person you last kissed on the lips?

Nope, he could be dead for all I know.

Do you hate the last person who called you?

NOOOOOOOOOO I LOVE HER!!!!!

Name something you dislike about the day you’re having?

People choosing fakery over true and honest friendship just because they are scared of getting hurt...my advice - Live a little...and not trusting people is insulting their integrity you know.

What does the last message in your facebook inbox say?

I'd tell you, but then I would have to kill you - and I don't have it in me to be a murderer.

Tell me about the shirt you’re wearing?

It's white and it says 'SHINE A LIGHT - first concert' on it. and I freaking adore it.

How long have you lived in your current home?

Since June 2001

Have you ever planted a tree?

Yes I have.

Do you text into the game shows on TV to win 10,000 dollars?

Nope.

Way down in there is any part of you sad?

Yes there is. I won't elaborate though.

How have you felt today?

Normal, slightly bored - I don't feel like crying though and I have laughed frequently...so you know, pretty good really.

Will you be in bed within twenty minutes?

I hope so, but probably not.

First person to speak to you in 2010?

My best friend

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?

Yeah

What’s something you want to purchase next time you’re at the mall?

Dvd's

If you woke up in one of the Saw movies, do you think you could survive?

No, I dunno, I've never actually watched any of those movies. I think they are pointless and crude :/

Would you rather grow old with someone or be single forever?

What a silly question..do I even need to answer it?

Do you like to hold or be held?

I guess it depends on the situation doesn't it.

Do you know anyone that smokes weed?

Yeah

For people that don’t know you, what do they think your age usually is?

16

How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?

None

Do you have someone you always have late night conversations with?

A few people...I blame it on time difference.

Is there someone of the opposite sex you tell everything to?

Yeah I guess.

Do you get mad when people don’t text back?

Not mad...maybe irritable though.

What does your phone do when it receives a new text?

It burps.

Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?

No.

Do you still speak to the last person you slept with?

Not applicable.

Are you going out of town soon?

Probably on Sunday.

The person you had the strongest feelings for dies, do you care?

More than words can say.

Someone says to you, “Lets go to a party and get trashed!” you say?

You obviously have no idea who I am or else you would know that I never 'get trashed'...I'm the one who watches all the 'trashed' noobs fall over.

Do you reply to all your texts?

Yeah

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?

Nope, I slept like a person who gets payed to sleep.

Have you ever peed while on the phone?

On the toilet? yep :D

Your last ex says ‘leaving you was a mistake’ you say?

I think you have the wrong person mate.

Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?

Probably the same, to be honest...this time last year I was realising a few things though...now I'm learning to cope with them....

Is there something that has happened in your past that you really hate talking about?

YES

Are you nice to everyone?

Yes, I try my best to be, even when people don't deserve my niceness...allthough with the people I feel most comfortable with I tend to be less plastic and show my emotions more.

Do you sleep with anything?

My teddy.

Has someone ever made you a promise and broke it?

LOOOOOL

Is there someone you will never forget?

A few people actually.

Do you think you’ve ruined your chances with someone?

No LOL, I don't think anyone ever gave me a chance to ruin.

What is something you currently want right now?

A job

What are your plans for tomorrow?

Take Sarah to town.

What could you eat any day of the week and never get tired of?

Curry

Someone knocks on your window at 5am, what do you say?

I wouldn't know what to say...I would be shocked because someone was actually on the roof.

Do you find drinking unattractive?

Yep, I think it's foul...unless you mean like the ACT of drinking - like water or something...then I think thats normal and healthy and shizzle.

What piercings do you have?

Ears.

Do you like to hold hands?

I dunno, never done that before.

Is someone on your mind right now?

Yeah, like 24/7...what? Its not like I can help it...it's like I've been branded and I have this scar...like cattle.

Any tattoos?

Ew no

Dark hair or light hair in the opposite sex?

Dark yo

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I should probably go to sleep now, I had an epic curry for dinner tonight, It was so satisfying.


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Goodnight Darlings

Love from Minnie