My internet system bites!
Twitter is not loading again...HOW ON EARTH WILL I GO ON?!?!?!
There has been such a weird vibe in the household today - like a horrendous vibe.
It makes me feel somewhat depressed.
I think it's because it's my mums day off work, which is ok if she is in a good mood, but she was in this really edgy mood - you know, like you have to behave VERY well or she will make your day miserable and even when you do behave well she will find unnecessary things for you to do and really test your patience.
Well it's either she is being like that OR I am being very easily irritable, but I was in a pretty good mood when I woke up - I had this weird dream that I had three kids who looked sort of hispanic, but it wasn't a completely dreadful dream so I didn't rise feeling foul.
Actually it's only ten but I'm so tired, I think I'll go to sleep as soon as I finish writing this.
OHOHOHOH I just followed Luke P on twitter. That gets me at least 5 new stalker points. I almost got as excited as I got when I found out Dante Basco had a twitter earlier when I discovered he had a twitte -and yes, I do realise that sentence was structured AWFULLY, but I really don't give anything.
Wow, I'm just too incredibly sleepy, I'm barely keeping my eyes open. The only reason I'm forcing myself to stay awake is because I think it's abnormal for someone of my age to sleep before 10:30 and I also have wet hair - it smells really good though, I love my shampoo, it's a blessing.
I told myself I would clean my room today, but all I did was take some dirty washing downstairs and put it in the washing machine - well I guess it's a start.
HOWEVER! Sarah was rooting through my stuff and she found a necklace that she bought me ages ago, which I've never worn because I never had anything to wear it with. It's so pretty too, silver with green glass thingies in it VERY SHINY!
I have something I can wear it with now though so I'm very happy...it's taken like 7 years for me to wear it, but it's all worth it in the end.
TIIIIREDDD!!
I spent the past few hours watching 'That 70's Show' with my sister - Fez is HILARIOUS! That guy just cracks me up man. I love it when there is an awkward silence and then someone just says aloud what everyone is thinking. Well Fez does that all the time, though it's usually completely inappropriate.
Oh my gosh! My mother actually just searched the house in order to find something for me to do. What on earth did I do in a previous life to deserve this treatment?!
Seriously, I'm not overreacting either. It's CRAZY STUFF!
Oh wow, I'm sorry guys, but this is going to be a VERY short one. I'm too tired. If I don't allow myself to fall asleep now I could get arrested for breaching human rights laws.
Good Night sweethearts
Love Minnn
Thursday, 10 March 2011
Wednesday, 9 March 2011
Viewpoints and Contexts
There is a really strange noise coming from the radiator area - I moved to my room cos it was freaking me out.
This way, if it blows up, my face wont be damaged.
So I was reading my diary earlier and I read a prayer I wrote in January and it made me LOL.
Dear Jesus, I have a horrible feeling, please make it go away. It's like, I've felt all positive all day and then suddenly I got unfocused. Kind of like when things go wrong on tap tap revenge and you can't get back into the groove.
Yeah I also went on to pray for Yamapi HAHAHHAAH
AHAHAHAH I love my old diaries, like this poem -
Yeah, it may seem somewhat emotional, but actually My laptop had crashed and Its about whether I should wait for it to fix itself or just restart it.
You know, you can write deep and meaningful shizz about pretty much anything. Thats how I can see that half the stuff on tumblr is just insincere BS....and I'm not being paranoid either - it really is.
To me The Shocking Incident at Coral Hill - is a much more sincere literary experience and tons more fun - just saying.
Omo! I've just seen a preview picture for the upcoming new season of Doctor who IT GAVE ME GOOSEBUMPS! I have to show you so you too can have goosebumps AND TOGETHER WE CAN FORM THE GOOSEBUMP CLUB FOR ELITE MEMBERS ONLY!
Are you in awe yet???
Cos I know I am!!!
DOCTOR WHO IS BAD ASS!!!! If you have not seen you must see!!! I think no life is complete without AT LEAST one viewing of a single episode of Doctor who.
I DO recommend the most recent series that aired in 2010 - it was - exceptional.
Even my mum said so and she is staunchly biased to the classic episodes from the 70's.
Let me tell you something - IT WILL BLOW YOUR MIND! And it's also extremely entertaining u_u
My family have the most hilarious dialogues. We were coming home from Bible study earlier and the whole car was in silence and then Sarah started talking and just got straight ignored by everyone so she started saying outrageous things to get attention.
*silence*
Dad suddenly replies,
Dad and his sweet priorities, HAHAHAHAH
Man, I feel like eating sweet potato.
I really need to stop looking at pictures of Luke Pasqualino. It's bad for me to want to marry someone so badly without actually knowing them.
I mean, I kind of get away with it with G Dragon because I am a rabid fan who buys his merchandise and is willing to spend thousands of pounds to go see him, BUT I've only ever seen one thing Luke is in.
I CAN'T EVEN MAKE AN EXCUSE THAT I LIKE HIM FOR HIS ACTING SKILLS. MY DESIRE FOR HIM IS BASED UPON THE PLAIN AND SIMPLE COMPLETELY SHALLOW REASON THAT I THINK HE'S AS HOT AS HELL.
OMG ITS 11:11 *forces self not to wish for Luke Paqsqualino*
See I feel like a friggen teenage girl again, but those years were so long ago I can't even remember who my celebrity crush was - did I even have one?
Have I ever mentioned that I think One Tree Hill is crap? I've never understood the obsession with it. House M.D. IS SO MUCH better.
WHY THE HECK AM I BEING SO OPINIONATED TONIGHT?
I really don't want to be one of those horrendous people who throws their opinions all over the place. Though I guess HERE is not all over - Its my blog.
I can't believe its almost Thursday! Weeks go by so fast! THEY JUST SWOOSH BY!
This weekend we will be at Manchester most of the time. Dad didn't give me an honest reason. He said it's because grandma wants to see us (which I'm sure she does) but I also think it's because he wants to watch the Man U v Arsenal match there, which I have no problem with, but I wish he wouldn't be so secretive about his motives.
And I guess we will be staying over at grandmas on Saturday night so we can go to church on Sunday morning, which I'm looking forward to since it's the only place I can sing loudly and violently in public without looking like a tard because you can't hear me over the sound of two electric guitars, a bass, an acoustic, a set of drums, a keyboard and two backup singers.
Oh the greatness of amplified sounds.
I really hope daddy is making some dinner because I feel like eating so badly. Does that make me sound like a brat? Because I'm feeling those feelings without feeling brattyness. I just have this innocent urge of wanting to eat.
I actually think my dad IS cooking something!!! This makes me so happy I could actually leap!
-----
Yes, it was spaghetti!!!! With garlic bread and topped with cheese! HOW GLORIOUS!
Probably a strange thing to eat at midnight, but WHO CARES! It was SOOO DELICIOUS!
...I bet Luke Pasqualino tastes somewhat like spaghetti......
Oh sorry, I just felt the soul of my future intended cringe, DON'T WORRY ONE THAT I LOVE! I OBVIOUSLY THINK YOU ARE THE BEST IN THE FUTURE.
Anyway, probably right at this moment you are probably gawking at some other lady/girl. It makes me so mad!
....it doesn't really make me mad, his tastes will obviously improve.
OH LORD I'M INSANE!
I always get on a high when it's late at night and say atrocious things and don't really think about what I'm writing.
I DON'T FILTER THE MADNESS AS WELL AS I DO IN DAYLIGHT HOURS!
SLEEP! I must do that!
Gooooodnight my lovely darling beautiful amazing angel,
I ADORE YOUR FACES (The ones I have seen)!
Love Minnie
This way, if it blows up, my face wont be damaged.
So I was reading my diary earlier and I read a prayer I wrote in January and it made me LOL.
Dear Jesus, I have a horrible feeling, please make it go away. It's like, I've felt all positive all day and then suddenly I got unfocused. Kind of like when things go wrong on tap tap revenge and you can't get back into the groove.
Yeah I also went on to pray for Yamapi HAHAHHAAH
AHAHAHAH I love my old diaries, like this poem -
Restarting
Waiting for the right moment - It's the hardest
Because sometimes you wait too long before you realise that you should have started over again
and you realise you missed out on an opportunity
Then you quickly restart
Yeah, it may seem somewhat emotional, but actually My laptop had crashed and Its about whether I should wait for it to fix itself or just restart it.
You know, you can write deep and meaningful shizz about pretty much anything. Thats how I can see that half the stuff on tumblr is just insincere BS....and I'm not being paranoid either - it really is.
To me The Shocking Incident at Coral Hill - is a much more sincere literary experience and tons more fun - just saying.
Omo! I've just seen a preview picture for the upcoming new season of Doctor who IT GAVE ME GOOSEBUMPS! I have to show you so you too can have goosebumps AND TOGETHER WE CAN FORM THE GOOSEBUMP CLUB FOR ELITE MEMBERS ONLY!
Are you in awe yet???
Cos I know I am!!!
DOCTOR WHO IS BAD ASS!!!! If you have not seen you must see!!! I think no life is complete without AT LEAST one viewing of a single episode of Doctor who.
I DO recommend the most recent series that aired in 2010 - it was - exceptional.
Even my mum said so and she is staunchly biased to the classic episodes from the 70's.
Let me tell you something - IT WILL BLOW YOUR MIND! And it's also extremely entertaining u_u
My family have the most hilarious dialogues. We were coming home from Bible study earlier and the whole car was in silence and then Sarah started talking and just got straight ignored by everyone so she started saying outrageous things to get attention.
'I'm going to chop my own head off!'
*silence*
'I'm going to convert to support Liverpool.'
Dad suddenly replies,
'That's even worse than chopping your head off.'
Dad and his sweet priorities, HAHAHAHAH
Man, I feel like eating sweet potato.
I really need to stop looking at pictures of Luke Pasqualino. It's bad for me to want to marry someone so badly without actually knowing them.
I mean, I kind of get away with it with G Dragon because I am a rabid fan who buys his merchandise and is willing to spend thousands of pounds to go see him, BUT I've only ever seen one thing Luke is in.
I CAN'T EVEN MAKE AN EXCUSE THAT I LIKE HIM FOR HIS ACTING SKILLS. MY DESIRE FOR HIM IS BASED UPON THE PLAIN AND SIMPLE COMPLETELY SHALLOW REASON THAT I THINK HE'S AS HOT AS HELL.
OMG ITS 11:11 *forces self not to wish for Luke Paqsqualino*
See I feel like a friggen teenage girl again, but those years were so long ago I can't even remember who my celebrity crush was - did I even have one?
Have I ever mentioned that I think One Tree Hill is crap? I've never understood the obsession with it. House M.D. IS SO MUCH better.
WHY THE HECK AM I BEING SO OPINIONATED TONIGHT?
I really don't want to be one of those horrendous people who throws their opinions all over the place. Though I guess HERE is not all over - Its my blog.
I can't believe its almost Thursday! Weeks go by so fast! THEY JUST SWOOSH BY!
This weekend we will be at Manchester most of the time. Dad didn't give me an honest reason. He said it's because grandma wants to see us (which I'm sure she does) but I also think it's because he wants to watch the Man U v Arsenal match there, which I have no problem with, but I wish he wouldn't be so secretive about his motives.
And I guess we will be staying over at grandmas on Saturday night so we can go to church on Sunday morning, which I'm looking forward to since it's the only place I can sing loudly and violently in public without looking like a tard because you can't hear me over the sound of two electric guitars, a bass, an acoustic, a set of drums, a keyboard and two backup singers.
Oh the greatness of amplified sounds.
I really hope daddy is making some dinner because I feel like eating so badly. Does that make me sound like a brat? Because I'm feeling those feelings without feeling brattyness. I just have this innocent urge of wanting to eat.
I actually think my dad IS cooking something!!! This makes me so happy I could actually leap!
-----
Yes, it was spaghetti!!!! With garlic bread and topped with cheese! HOW GLORIOUS!
Probably a strange thing to eat at midnight, but WHO CARES! It was SOOO DELICIOUS!
...I bet Luke Pasqualino tastes somewhat like spaghetti......
Oh sorry, I just felt the soul of my future intended cringe, DON'T WORRY ONE THAT I LOVE! I OBVIOUSLY THINK YOU ARE THE BEST IN THE FUTURE.
Anyway, probably right at this moment you are probably gawking at some other lady/girl. It makes me so mad!
....it doesn't really make me mad, his tastes will obviously improve.
OH LORD I'M INSANE!
I always get on a high when it's late at night and say atrocious things and don't really think about what I'm writing.
I DON'T FILTER THE MADNESS AS WELL AS I DO IN DAYLIGHT HOURS!
SLEEP! I must do that!
Gooooodnight my lovely darling beautiful amazing angel,
I ADORE YOUR FACES (The ones I have seen)!
Love Minnie
Tuesday, 8 March 2011
Incandescent
You know when people compliment you, but they do it in a weird way?
Or when people get it totally wrong?
Or those moments when your mum goes completely bonkers in the car and honks at some female joggers.
These are the moments that makes life bearable.
Like when your friends call you 'Weird and obsessive.' which when translated to not-friend language means - 'I'm really fond of you and I'm so glad you are my friend otherwise or I would die of boredom.'
or when you catch the cute guy looking at you and he looks away quickly then looks back like, 'You saw me do that didn't you?' and you look back like, 'Yeapppp, I saw that.' and he's like, 'Awww man.' and then starts smiling to himself creepily and you have to look away otherwise you will sile creepily too and you don't want your friends to know you've just had this WEIRD EYE CONVERSATION WITH SOME DUDE ACROSS THE ROOM! but you wish it would happen all over again because it was kind of fun and sneaky and ninja-ish....
or that moment when you've had the worst birthday imaginable and you sit down to watch the FA cup final and Manchester United win gloriously and it just makes you so happy that you could cry.
Or when you come home from school and daddy says,
or when you watch your sister completely thrash 6 other girls in the 400 metre race for the second year in a row and you can hear most of the crowd screaming for her and feel so proud that she is loved so much.
or that moment when you go into the barn to choose a puppy and there are three there running about, but then one comes up to you and places his paw on you and looks at you with those sad eyes and you just CANNOT BEAR to leave him because you've already fallen in love!!!
YOU REALLY CAN'T BEAT THOSE MOMENTS. YOU HAVE TO REMEMBER THE WEIRD AND THE WONDERFUL AND CHERISH THEM ALL. BECAUSE IN THE END THEY MATTER QUITE A LOT AND I'M NOT SURE WHY EXACTLY, BUT I WILL TOTALLY TELL YOU WHEN IT IS NEAR MY END!
I am actually high on sugar. Popcorn affects me this way and I really don't know why, but who cares - soon I shall lose steam and fall into a deep unconscious slumber.
I think So Ji Sub is veryveryveryveryveryveryveryvereyewgdsjhdsahfda beautiful
HIS BEAUTY IS MAKING ME SNEEZE!
Ohhh I'm so sad, someone just wrote the most disgusting word in their FB status and, how horrible - I really feel disappointed in that person. My personal regard for them has dropped - I need tea - I should just love them even if their vocabulary is beyond my moral comprehension.
Well TODAY!
Today I woke up and I WAS dreaming, but I can't remember what that dream was about, but it must have been something and anyway, I got up and went downstairs and sarah was there doing the dishes and THEN I SEE A GREY PARCEL ON THE TABLE AND GET ALL HAPPY ON THE INSIDE!
So in the parcel are my lovley VVIP, GD&TOP and BIGBANG CD's and I am very happy they have arrived!
I feel somewhat complete about the whole thing and I know it must be weird that CD's make me feel complete, especially when I don't have a CD player atm....but yes
AND THEN I took Sam for a walk and today was the day I trespassed along this road, because it's actually a nice walk and the FLEEPIN guy who owns the roads came driving down in this ugly four wheel drive truck thingy and I was like spazzing out on the inside, but on the outside I acted all cool like *I have no idea that I am trespassing completely innocent child* and he didn't stop and tell me off and I was thanking God for my ridiculously young appearance.
Then I got home and forced myself to ride on the bike for 20 mins because I felt fat, but after that I stunk to high heaven and spent like an hour and a half in the bath.
Honestly, I felt so much better after that, but exercising was so difficult for me today, I had to use a lot of willpower to push myself. AND I GOT DEHYDRATED REALLY FAST TOO!
You know what I'm SOOOSOSOSOSOOSOOOO tired! It's just hit me like that! SLEEP! *BANG*
Its quite forceful when it hits you, I don't know!
Anyway, I haven't really done much else today, not that I can recall anyhoo.
So I shall hit the publish button and be done with it!
GOOD NIGHT DEAREST LOVELIEST ELIZABETH! ------- why the hell am I quoting Pride and Prejudice?
GOODNIGHT DEAREST LOVELIEST READERS OF MINE!!!
LLLLOOOOOOVVVVEEE MINNNNEEEHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
'I'm usually a bitch to pretty girls, but you are too nice not to like.'
'GIVE ME YOUR BODY!'
Or when people get it totally wrong?
'Do they call you Minnie because of your height?'
Or those moments when your mum goes completely bonkers in the car and honks at some female joggers.
'They will think we are men and that we fancy them MUAHAHAHHAHAH!'
These are the moments that makes life bearable.
Like when your friends call you 'Weird and obsessive.' which when translated to not-friend language means - 'I'm really fond of you and I'm so glad you are my friend otherwise or I would die of boredom.'
or when you catch the cute guy looking at you and he looks away quickly then looks back like, 'You saw me do that didn't you?' and you look back like, 'Yeapppp, I saw that.' and he's like, 'Awww man.' and then starts smiling to himself creepily and you have to look away otherwise you will sile creepily too and you don't want your friends to know you've just had this WEIRD EYE CONVERSATION WITH SOME DUDE ACROSS THE ROOM! but you wish it would happen all over again because it was kind of fun and sneaky and ninja-ish....
or that moment when you've had the worst birthday imaginable and you sit down to watch the FA cup final and Manchester United win gloriously and it just makes you so happy that you could cry.
Or when you come home from school and daddy says,
'I have tickets to the football, QUICKLY GET YOUR SCARF!'
or when you watch your sister completely thrash 6 other girls in the 400 metre race for the second year in a row and you can hear most of the crowd screaming for her and feel so proud that she is loved so much.
or that moment when you go into the barn to choose a puppy and there are three there running about, but then one comes up to you and places his paw on you and looks at you with those sad eyes and you just CANNOT BEAR to leave him because you've already fallen in love!!!
YOU REALLY CAN'T BEAT THOSE MOMENTS. YOU HAVE TO REMEMBER THE WEIRD AND THE WONDERFUL AND CHERISH THEM ALL. BECAUSE IN THE END THEY MATTER QUITE A LOT AND I'M NOT SURE WHY EXACTLY, BUT I WILL TOTALLY TELL YOU WHEN IT IS NEAR MY END!
I am actually high on sugar. Popcorn affects me this way and I really don't know why, but who cares - soon I shall lose steam and fall into a deep unconscious slumber.
I think So Ji Sub is veryveryveryveryveryveryveryvereyewgdsjhdsahfda beautiful
HIS BEAUTY IS MAKING ME SNEEZE!
Ohhh I'm so sad, someone just wrote the most disgusting word in their FB status and, how horrible - I really feel disappointed in that person. My personal regard for them has dropped - I need tea - I should just love them even if their vocabulary is beyond my moral comprehension.
Well TODAY!
Today I woke up and I WAS dreaming, but I can't remember what that dream was about, but it must have been something and anyway, I got up and went downstairs and sarah was there doing the dishes and THEN I SEE A GREY PARCEL ON THE TABLE AND GET ALL HAPPY ON THE INSIDE!
So in the parcel are my lovley VVIP, GD&TOP and BIGBANG CD's and I am very happy they have arrived!
I feel somewhat complete about the whole thing and I know it must be weird that CD's make me feel complete, especially when I don't have a CD player atm....but yes
AND THEN I took Sam for a walk and today was the day I trespassed along this road, because it's actually a nice walk and the FLEEPIN guy who owns the roads came driving down in this ugly four wheel drive truck thingy and I was like spazzing out on the inside, but on the outside I acted all cool like *I have no idea that I am trespassing completely innocent child* and he didn't stop and tell me off and I was thanking God for my ridiculously young appearance.
Then I got home and forced myself to ride on the bike for 20 mins because I felt fat, but after that I stunk to high heaven and spent like an hour and a half in the bath.
Honestly, I felt so much better after that, but exercising was so difficult for me today, I had to use a lot of willpower to push myself. AND I GOT DEHYDRATED REALLY FAST TOO!
You know what I'm SOOOSOSOSOSOOSOOOO tired! It's just hit me like that! SLEEP! *BANG*
Its quite forceful when it hits you, I don't know!
Anyway, I haven't really done much else today, not that I can recall anyhoo.
So I shall hit the publish button and be done with it!
GOOD NIGHT DEAREST LOVELIEST ELIZABETH! ------- why the hell am I quoting Pride and Prejudice?
GOODNIGHT DEAREST LOVELIEST READERS OF MINE!!!
LLLLOOOOOOVVVVEEE MINNNNEEEHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
Monday, 7 March 2011
You and Life Remain Beautiful
I can't even remember today.
I'm feeling very introverted and secretive. I feel like I have a big secret. PI MI!
Even though I haven't. I just feel like I have. I think it's because I'm listening to deep and meaningful songs that were obviously written by people who feel something and some of that feeling has entered my soul.
I have 'Many the Horror' on repeat - I'm not sure if that is good or bad.
It's good in that its a brilliant lovely song.
It's bad in the sense that I get all emotional listening to it - just because I can.
Maybe it's just Monday syndrome. I wonder what my Tuesday syndrome will be like.
Omg you should see my personal diary, ITS OVERFLOWING with weirdness. I swear when my grandchildren read it, they will think I was stoned 99% of the time.
I was thinking about the names I want to call my children and was wondering whether it would be completely horrible if I named my children after Star Wars characters?
It would wouldn't it?
My mum said when I was born there was this other kid at church born around the same time and he was called Obi Wan. I think it's probably for the best that his parents moved away...I would never be able to resist a person with such a name. I would probably be married to him by now with lots of offspring called Yoda and Han and Anakin.
Honestly, I prefer the name R2D2, because he is my ultimate favourite, but it's illegal for humans to have numbers in their name and I have to admit, I would hate to have a number for a name.
I'M IN LOVE WITH MATTY T's VOICE!
I mean I've been in love with it for a while now - 10 years to be exact. I think it's the longest relationship I've ever had with someones voice. Unfortunately, I have to share this voice with other people, but I don't mind too much, because such things have to be shared.
One of my oldest friends would like to marry the body that goes with the voice of Matty T - but I'm just like, no man, thats just not right.
I think it's because I like my boys pretty....I really really do. It's SUCH a burden for me.
My right hand is SO cold! Why is it so cold? What did I do for it to be so cold like this?
Ok, so after I'd been out to the job centre I came home and started this angry sketch (because I was angry) of Luke Pasqualino, so I drew his head and placed his eyes and nose and lips and then started like scribbling away madly. Then Sarah came and just got a pencil and started scribbling away at it too and by the time we'd finished scribbling it actually looked pretty good. I mean it isn't the best sketch but it's actually a good likeness and considering that I started it because I needed to divert my intense rage - well, lets just say it was slightly more productive than chopping my own extremities off with a carving knife.
Actually it's not just my right hand, my whole body is freezing. I went downstairs to tell my dad I was cold.
and he said,
SO??????
I'm wondering, does he think I will go and spend my entire night in the kitchen just because it's warmer in there - and it wasn't that much warmer in there anyway, he was just being facetious and that just annoys me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm contemplating going to bed early because it's the only place in which I will have complete warmth - maybe I should go to bed early tonight.
Because I wan't to wake up early just in case the postman comes with the parcel with the CD's in. I already missed a parcel he brought last Friday, I think it was something from Lily because it was addressed to Sarah and only things that come from the other side of the world are from Sarah.
Unless they are from Malaysia, then they are usually addressed to me, because Zaty sees me as THE BIG SISTER! Even though the other day Sarah and I did this thing where we leap into each other arms and I dropped her straight away, cos I just have like -2% muscle mass in my arms.
I used to be so strong you know? Like I used to go to this youth club and the boys used to call me 'She-hulk'.
but, they were rubbish boys anyway, never lifted a finger to help hardly, they might as well have been Victorean Era ladies. Seriously dudes nowadays need a punch in the face to awaken their masculinity.
There is definitely a problem when the girl is lugging about and setting up Air hockey tables and the guys are sat there watching. ITS A PROBLEM. And I'm not being all feministic here either, because that's just stupid. Naturally and scientifically, boys are built to be stronger and have more energy THEY SHOULD HELP CARRY STUFF AND ALL THAT!
I don't know why I'm talking about this, it's like I'm suddenly peeved about this stuff that happened in the past, but maybe it's just the Monday syndrome again.
It's just wouldn't it be nicer if the males of this word stopped trying to catch grenades and step in front of trains and just man up and do a bit of hard labour?
Why on earth would you want to catch a grenade anyway??? are you an idiot? Do you know that would kill you? IF YOU ARE DEAD WHAT GOOD WOULD THAT DO ME?
And if a grenade is coming my way why can't you just pull me aout of the way why do you have to catch it? WHY DON'T YOU THINK LOGICALLY BRUNO MARS?!?!?!
No hating though, I actually like that song and I find Bruno to be very attractive. BTW is that his real name? BRUNO!
Sounds MANLY *says 'BRUNO' in a deep voice*
I think I knew a dog called Bruno once.
When I was little there was this horse called 'Spot' that lived in a field behind my house and I used to love him so much. Anyway we moved away to Manchester and then years and years later we went back to visit our old house and HE WAS STILL THERE!!!
Mum thought he would have been dead already, because he was old and stuff, but I never recall him being old. To me he was like a GLORIOUS STALLION or something. I remember sitting on his back when I was little thinking I was the Queen of all I surveyed.
OH OH OH I'm just so tired, I need to wash my face and brush my teeth and then snuggle up in my bed and dream about nice things like spring and baby animals and please please please no boys because they are always people like Luke Pasqualino and it just gets me thinking that REAL LIFE MUST BE LIKE THIS!
but Luke Pasqualino is not in my real life...unfortunately.
So yes, SLEEP TIME!
Goodnight!
I love you!
From Minnie
THE PICTURE
The scan actually doesn't do it justice, it looks better in your hands...trust me :)
Night
I'm feeling very introverted and secretive. I feel like I have a big secret. PI MI!
Even though I haven't. I just feel like I have. I think it's because I'm listening to deep and meaningful songs that were obviously written by people who feel something and some of that feeling has entered my soul.
I have 'Many the Horror' on repeat - I'm not sure if that is good or bad.
It's good in that its a brilliant lovely song.
It's bad in the sense that I get all emotional listening to it - just because I can.
Maybe it's just Monday syndrome. I wonder what my Tuesday syndrome will be like.
Omg you should see my personal diary, ITS OVERFLOWING with weirdness. I swear when my grandchildren read it, they will think I was stoned 99% of the time.
I was thinking about the names I want to call my children and was wondering whether it would be completely horrible if I named my children after Star Wars characters?
It would wouldn't it?
My mum said when I was born there was this other kid at church born around the same time and he was called Obi Wan. I think it's probably for the best that his parents moved away...I would never be able to resist a person with such a name. I would probably be married to him by now with lots of offspring called Yoda and Han and Anakin.
Honestly, I prefer the name R2D2, because he is my ultimate favourite, but it's illegal for humans to have numbers in their name and I have to admit, I would hate to have a number for a name.
I'M IN LOVE WITH MATTY T's VOICE!
I mean I've been in love with it for a while now - 10 years to be exact. I think it's the longest relationship I've ever had with someones voice. Unfortunately, I have to share this voice with other people, but I don't mind too much, because such things have to be shared.
One of my oldest friends would like to marry the body that goes with the voice of Matty T - but I'm just like, no man, thats just not right.
I think it's because I like my boys pretty....I really really do. It's SUCH a burden for me.
My right hand is SO cold! Why is it so cold? What did I do for it to be so cold like this?
Ok, so after I'd been out to the job centre I came home and started this angry sketch (because I was angry) of Luke Pasqualino, so I drew his head and placed his eyes and nose and lips and then started like scribbling away madly. Then Sarah came and just got a pencil and started scribbling away at it too and by the time we'd finished scribbling it actually looked pretty good. I mean it isn't the best sketch but it's actually a good likeness and considering that I started it because I needed to divert my intense rage - well, lets just say it was slightly more productive than chopping my own extremities off with a carving knife.
Actually it's not just my right hand, my whole body is freezing. I went downstairs to tell my dad I was cold.
and he said,
'Its not cold in here.'
SO??????
I'm wondering, does he think I will go and spend my entire night in the kitchen just because it's warmer in there - and it wasn't that much warmer in there anyway, he was just being facetious and that just annoys me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm contemplating going to bed early because it's the only place in which I will have complete warmth - maybe I should go to bed early tonight.
Because I wan't to wake up early just in case the postman comes with the parcel with the CD's in. I already missed a parcel he brought last Friday, I think it was something from Lily because it was addressed to Sarah and only things that come from the other side of the world are from Sarah.
Unless they are from Malaysia, then they are usually addressed to me, because Zaty sees me as THE BIG SISTER! Even though the other day Sarah and I did this thing where we leap into each other arms and I dropped her straight away, cos I just have like -2% muscle mass in my arms.
I used to be so strong you know? Like I used to go to this youth club and the boys used to call me 'She-hulk'.
but, they were rubbish boys anyway, never lifted a finger to help hardly, they might as well have been Victorean Era ladies. Seriously dudes nowadays need a punch in the face to awaken their masculinity.
There is definitely a problem when the girl is lugging about and setting up Air hockey tables and the guys are sat there watching. ITS A PROBLEM. And I'm not being all feministic here either, because that's just stupid. Naturally and scientifically, boys are built to be stronger and have more energy THEY SHOULD HELP CARRY STUFF AND ALL THAT!
I don't know why I'm talking about this, it's like I'm suddenly peeved about this stuff that happened in the past, but maybe it's just the Monday syndrome again.
It's just wouldn't it be nicer if the males of this word stopped trying to catch grenades and step in front of trains and just man up and do a bit of hard labour?
Why on earth would you want to catch a grenade anyway??? are you an idiot? Do you know that would kill you? IF YOU ARE DEAD WHAT GOOD WOULD THAT DO ME?
And if a grenade is coming my way why can't you just pull me aout of the way why do you have to catch it? WHY DON'T YOU THINK LOGICALLY BRUNO MARS?!?!?!
No hating though, I actually like that song and I find Bruno to be very attractive. BTW is that his real name? BRUNO!
Sounds MANLY *says 'BRUNO' in a deep voice*
I think I knew a dog called Bruno once.
When I was little there was this horse called 'Spot' that lived in a field behind my house and I used to love him so much. Anyway we moved away to Manchester and then years and years later we went back to visit our old house and HE WAS STILL THERE!!!
Mum thought he would have been dead already, because he was old and stuff, but I never recall him being old. To me he was like a GLORIOUS STALLION or something. I remember sitting on his back when I was little thinking I was the Queen of all I surveyed.
OH OH OH I'm just so tired, I need to wash my face and brush my teeth and then snuggle up in my bed and dream about nice things like spring and baby animals and please please please no boys because they are always people like Luke Pasqualino and it just gets me thinking that REAL LIFE MUST BE LIKE THIS!
but Luke Pasqualino is not in my real life...unfortunately.
So yes, SLEEP TIME!
Goodnight!
I love you!
From Minnie
THE PICTURE
The scan actually doesn't do it justice, it looks better in your hands...trust me :)
Night
Saturday, 5 March 2011
THREE DAYS BABY!
Got woken up this morning by a shout,
Which I did, because I was feeling very obedient when my eyes opened. I wondered why I was being summoned seeing as it is a Saturday and allthough my family were going out for the day, I was staying at home with the doggy (my ideal saturday).
Anyway, when I got downstairs I found my family rushing about to get out and so I stood around like a moose in PJ's watching them.
After that I just did stuff and then I thought I should practice drawing Rain, you know so I could decide which picture of him would be best to draw and this is how it went.
I think it's obvious which one I should go ahead and draw. LMAO
(THELASTONE)
I was so happy yesterday because I FINALLY got back my copy of 'Slumdog Millionaire'
I lent it to my friend about a thousand years ago and when I asked for it back she staunchly denied that she had it.
Anyway, she was looking for something on a shelf yesterday when I was at her house when it fell down and I was like :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
Then she was like,
and I was just thinking,
So I just said,
BUT NOBODY WILL ASK BECAUSE ITS MINE!!!!!!
So yes, Im very happy that it is back in my caring hands.
Gosh I'm starving! I went downstairs earlier to make myself some lunch and a cup of tea, but I ended up cleaning the kitchen and the living room and didn't eat at all - though I did have tea.
I should probably eat something, but I have this thing where the time has to be on the nearest tenth before I move. It's 17:56 now and so I only have to wait for 18:00.
LMAO, I know, I have strange habits, but there you are.
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I ATE CHEERIOS FOR DINNER!!!! It might be just me, but every time I eat cheerios the gum behind my front upper teeth goes numb.
yeeeeaassssss
You know tumblr is kind of torture? It has strings and strings of VERY handsome men spammed all over the place. I feel like I'm reblogging all the time. Yesterday I actually reblogged a picture of G Dragon EATING! If it was just a random stranger eating I wouldn't even notice. I mean normally, you wouldn't find someone munching away at something to be a very attractive picture, but NOOOOOO when I see GD eating its like - 'OH HOW CUTE ASLDFJKASDJFLKASJFASJFASLKFJ'
If you would like to have a stalk on my tumblr be my guest -
http://pienso-en-ti-siempre.tumblr.com
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ok I did that thing again, you know where I forget to post what I've written. I CANT BELIEVE I DO THIS KIND OF STUFF!!
Actually, my mind has been rather occupied this week...with stuff....believe me....it's weird stuff...the kind of stuff that is VERY hard to believe. SO HARD TO BELIEVE, that I'm not even sure I can believe it.
ITS MADNESS! If it's true, which it could be...and I don't even think I mind if it is true - then I have no idea what to do.
NO IDEA.
Omo, I'm making no sense at all am I?
It's just I don't want to say what the thing is, but I want you to know there is a thing.
DO YOU GET ME?!
hahaha
Right, I really need a cup of tea. I was just about to get one at church when this guy came along and took the last bit of tea from the pot and I was like, 'ASDFSJDfsjdlkfjsdkfjsdlkfjsdkfjskdfj YOU MAN YOU!!!!!' but, on the inside obviously, because if I said that out loud, well, I would be sectioned or something.
LORD this tea is delicious! OISHI!!!!
I swear it not only warms my body - it also warms my soul!
The tea plant must have been a lil extra God threw from heaven just to bless us humans. Which proves that he loves us!
I wore my new necklace at church today, even though I haven't got a red top, but its OK COS I WORE BLACK!
Imma take a piccy so you can see...ONE SEC!
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Ok so this is the first blog that has ever stretched over three days...and I did take the picture, but hated it so mehh!
I should really just post this LMAO!
Last night I got so distracted by watching Secret Garden episodes that I forgot to continue writing this shizz.
IM BECOMING DEFECTIVE!
but, this drama is SO INTENSE! The chemistry is DIVINE! I love all this hard core sexual tension in dramas hahaha IT MAKES ME CRINGE for real!
I actually cover my face sometimes because IT'S JUST TOO MUCH TO BARE!
I would like to take this time to brag about football, but I'm still VERY upset by the outcome of yesterdays match. I actually forced the thought of it out of my mind for the entire day yesterday. HORRENDOUS STUFF!
Sarah told me that when she went into the shop yesterday the match was playing on the TV part and all these Man City fans were watching it supporting that INFIDEL team (which shows they aren't REAL Mancunians, because no TRUE person born in Manchester would EVER support the 'L' word) yeah and she said there was this asian butcher and he asked the score and this man city fan was like, '2-0 MUAHAHAHA' and he was like 'Don't be stupid man that sucks!' and gave that other guy a friendly punch and Sarah became all *AZN pride* and sent me a text all about it even though she is a white British girl, but meh, our family is Asian and they get all *British pride* when they hear something British SO ITS LIKE THE CIRCLE OF LIFE!
So I really felt like watching a movie last night, but I couldn't because the night before I'd watched 'Slumdog Millionaire' and honestly, most other movies are just not even nearly as good as that and I knew I would be disappointed because 'Slumdog' was still in my system.
I can't describe it...oh oh oh I know, it's like, there is a nice guy who acts like he likes you and you think he's pretty nice too, but you always fob him off because you can't forget how you feel about that wally who is always sat in your head somewhere. So this poor new guy has no idea where he stands AND ITS SO CRUEL! So you have to wait a while until you have convinced yourself that the guy in your head will always be there, but then you feel bad because that makes the new guy seem not good enough, which is not true BECAUSE HE'S MORE THAN GOOD ENOUGH...AND ITS SO COMPLICATED!
*cough*
Yeah so thats why I couldn't watch another movie after I watched 'Slumdog Millionaire' because 'slumdog' is the guy in the head and another movie is the new guy who I'm not ready to appreciate yet.
WOW, my explanations are so confusing...WHY DO I DO THINGS LIKE THIS???!!!
So yeah, I have to go to the job centre today and I'm really not happy about it cos that place makes me want to rip my own face off. HUHUHUHUHUHU.
I woke up feeling really depressed about it, but then I was like!
so I'm trying to find the silver lining in everything about today.
I had this dream last night that I was part of this special spy school and there was a world war going on. Anyway, my best friend (in the dream) got suspected of treachery and was on the run and I found him and was just about to help him escape across the English Channel when Sarah woke me up asking if I had any envelopes so she could send a letter.
And it annoyed me at first because the guy in my dream reminded me of someone and I couldn't quite remember who it was AND THEN I REMEMBERED!!
IT WAS LUKE PASQUALINO!
THE MOST SEXIEST BRITISH MALE ON THIS ISLAND AFTER BEN BARNES
I feel so happy he was in my dream best friend, it's a shame everyone thought he was a traitor though - he WASN'T EVEN!!!! O: O: O: O: O:
I would post a picture of him, but my net connection is being extremely gay and not loading one shizzle of things!
I probably dreamed of his because I was drooling over him the entire day of Saturday like a friggen camel.
OHHH FINALLY GOT PICCIES OF HIM! Actually, I'm pretty sure I've spammed about him before on my blog :/
SO MA STYLE! He's famous for being in the British drama 'Skins' which I have never even watched - mainly because it makes the drudgery that is British youngsters look sexy and it's just not true.
IF YOU WATCH SKINS AND YOU THINK THATS WHAT BRITISH TEENS ARE LIKE, BE WARNED!!!!
One in a BILLION ARE LIKE THAT!
Of course I was one of those billion back in the day *smugly wiggles eyebrows*
NO REALLY, I WAS!!!
hahahaahahahaahahah
OH OH OH HOH OHOHOHOHOHOHO
While we are on the subject of British men/guys/peeople
ANDREW GARFIELD AS THE NEW SPIDERMAN!
CAN I HEAR AN AMEN!!!!!!!! Andrew Garfield is not bad on the eyes either.
AND AND AND If I am not mistaken! The new Superman is a British Actor - So thats batman, spiderman AND superman all played by me HOMIES!! :D :D
I LOVE SUPERHEROES!
Anyway Im gonna head off now cos I have to go to that HORRENDOUS PLACE!!!
SEE YOU LATER DELICIOUS ONES!!!!
'MICHELLE GET DOWN HERE NOW!'
Which I did, because I was feeling very obedient when my eyes opened. I wondered why I was being summoned seeing as it is a Saturday and allthough my family were going out for the day, I was staying at home with the doggy (my ideal saturday).
Anyway, when I got downstairs I found my family rushing about to get out and so I stood around like a moose in PJ's watching them.
After that I just did stuff and then I thought I should practice drawing Rain, you know so I could decide which picture of him would be best to draw and this is how it went.
I think it's obvious which one I should go ahead and draw. LMAO
(THELASTONE)
I was so happy yesterday because I FINALLY got back my copy of 'Slumdog Millionaire'
I lent it to my friend about a thousand years ago and when I asked for it back she staunchly denied that she had it.
Anyway, she was looking for something on a shelf yesterday when I was at her house when it fell down and I was like :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
Then she was like,
'Ohhh I dunno if this is someone elses copy...'
and I was just thinking,
'NONONONONONONOOOOOOOO THIS IS MINE MINE!!!!'
So I just said,
'wellll I'll just take it now and if anyone asks you for it, I can bring it for them.'
BUT NOBODY WILL ASK BECAUSE ITS MINE!!!!!!
So yes, Im very happy that it is back in my caring hands.
Gosh I'm starving! I went downstairs earlier to make myself some lunch and a cup of tea, but I ended up cleaning the kitchen and the living room and didn't eat at all - though I did have tea.
I should probably eat something, but I have this thing where the time has to be on the nearest tenth before I move. It's 17:56 now and so I only have to wait for 18:00.
LMAO, I know, I have strange habits, but there you are.
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I ATE CHEERIOS FOR DINNER!!!! It might be just me, but every time I eat cheerios the gum behind my front upper teeth goes numb.
yeeeeaassssss
You know tumblr is kind of torture? It has strings and strings of VERY handsome men spammed all over the place. I feel like I'm reblogging all the time. Yesterday I actually reblogged a picture of G Dragon EATING! If it was just a random stranger eating I wouldn't even notice. I mean normally, you wouldn't find someone munching away at something to be a very attractive picture, but NOOOOOO when I see GD eating its like - 'OH HOW CUTE ASLDFJKASDJFLKASJFASJFASLKFJ'
If you would like to have a stalk on my tumblr be my guest -
http://pienso-en-ti-siempre.tumblr.com
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ok I did that thing again, you know where I forget to post what I've written. I CANT BELIEVE I DO THIS KIND OF STUFF!!
Actually, my mind has been rather occupied this week...with stuff....believe me....it's weird stuff...the kind of stuff that is VERY hard to believe. SO HARD TO BELIEVE, that I'm not even sure I can believe it.
ITS MADNESS! If it's true, which it could be...and I don't even think I mind if it is true - then I have no idea what to do.
NO IDEA.
Omo, I'm making no sense at all am I?
It's just I don't want to say what the thing is, but I want you to know there is a thing.
DO YOU GET ME?!
hahaha
Right, I really need a cup of tea. I was just about to get one at church when this guy came along and took the last bit of tea from the pot and I was like, 'ASDFSJDfsjdlkfjsdkfjsdlkfjsdkfjskdfj YOU MAN YOU!!!!!' but, on the inside obviously, because if I said that out loud, well, I would be sectioned or something.
LORD this tea is delicious! OISHI!!!!
I swear it not only warms my body - it also warms my soul!
The tea plant must have been a lil extra God threw from heaven just to bless us humans. Which proves that he loves us!
I wore my new necklace at church today, even though I haven't got a red top, but its OK COS I WORE BLACK!
Imma take a piccy so you can see...ONE SEC!
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Ok so this is the first blog that has ever stretched over three days...and I did take the picture, but hated it so mehh!
I should really just post this LMAO!
Last night I got so distracted by watching Secret Garden episodes that I forgot to continue writing this shizz.
IM BECOMING DEFECTIVE!
but, this drama is SO INTENSE! The chemistry is DIVINE! I love all this hard core sexual tension in dramas hahaha IT MAKES ME CRINGE for real!
I actually cover my face sometimes because IT'S JUST TOO MUCH TO BARE!
I would like to take this time to brag about football, but I'm still VERY upset by the outcome of yesterdays match. I actually forced the thought of it out of my mind for the entire day yesterday. HORRENDOUS STUFF!
Sarah told me that when she went into the shop yesterday the match was playing on the TV part and all these Man City fans were watching it supporting that INFIDEL team (which shows they aren't REAL Mancunians, because no TRUE person born in Manchester would EVER support the 'L' word) yeah and she said there was this asian butcher and he asked the score and this man city fan was like, '2-0 MUAHAHAHA' and he was like 'Don't be stupid man that sucks!' and gave that other guy a friendly punch and Sarah became all *AZN pride* and sent me a text all about it even though she is a white British girl, but meh, our family is Asian and they get all *British pride* when they hear something British SO ITS LIKE THE CIRCLE OF LIFE!
So I really felt like watching a movie last night, but I couldn't because the night before I'd watched 'Slumdog Millionaire' and honestly, most other movies are just not even nearly as good as that and I knew I would be disappointed because 'Slumdog' was still in my system.
I can't describe it...oh oh oh I know, it's like, there is a nice guy who acts like he likes you and you think he's pretty nice too, but you always fob him off because you can't forget how you feel about that wally who is always sat in your head somewhere. So this poor new guy has no idea where he stands AND ITS SO CRUEL! So you have to wait a while until you have convinced yourself that the guy in your head will always be there, but then you feel bad because that makes the new guy seem not good enough, which is not true BECAUSE HE'S MORE THAN GOOD ENOUGH...AND ITS SO COMPLICATED!
*cough*
Yeah so thats why I couldn't watch another movie after I watched 'Slumdog Millionaire' because 'slumdog' is the guy in the head and another movie is the new guy who I'm not ready to appreciate yet.
WOW, my explanations are so confusing...WHY DO I DO THINGS LIKE THIS???!!!
So yeah, I have to go to the job centre today and I'm really not happy about it cos that place makes me want to rip my own face off. HUHUHUHUHUHU.
I woke up feeling really depressed about it, but then I was like!
'MINNIE DUDE! You can't let stuff like this ruin your day! It's not worth it!'
so I'm trying to find the silver lining in everything about today.
I had this dream last night that I was part of this special spy school and there was a world war going on. Anyway, my best friend (in the dream) got suspected of treachery and was on the run and I found him and was just about to help him escape across the English Channel when Sarah woke me up asking if I had any envelopes so she could send a letter.
And it annoyed me at first because the guy in my dream reminded me of someone and I couldn't quite remember who it was AND THEN I REMEMBERED!!
IT WAS LUKE PASQUALINO!
THE MOST SEXIEST BRITISH MALE ON THIS ISLAND AFTER BEN BARNES
I feel so happy he was in my dream best friend, it's a shame everyone thought he was a traitor though - he WASN'T EVEN!!!! O: O: O: O: O:
I would post a picture of him, but my net connection is being extremely gay and not loading one shizzle of things!
I probably dreamed of his because I was drooling over him the entire day of Saturday like a friggen camel.
OHHH FINALLY GOT PICCIES OF HIM! Actually, I'm pretty sure I've spammed about him before on my blog :/
SO MA STYLE! He's famous for being in the British drama 'Skins' which I have never even watched - mainly because it makes the drudgery that is British youngsters look sexy and it's just not true.
IF YOU WATCH SKINS AND YOU THINK THATS WHAT BRITISH TEENS ARE LIKE, BE WARNED!!!!
One in a BILLION ARE LIKE THAT!
Of course I was one of those billion back in the day *smugly wiggles eyebrows*
NO REALLY, I WAS!!!
hahahaahahahaahahah
OH OH OH HOH OHOHOHOHOHOHO
While we are on the subject of British men/guys/peeople
ANDREW GARFIELD AS THE NEW SPIDERMAN!
CAN I HEAR AN AMEN!!!!!!!! Andrew Garfield is not bad on the eyes either.
AND AND AND If I am not mistaken! The new Superman is a British Actor - So thats batman, spiderman AND superman all played by me HOMIES!! :D :D
I LOVE SUPERHEROES!
Anyway Im gonna head off now cos I have to go to that HORRENDOUS PLACE!!!
SEE YOU LATER DELICIOUS ONES!!!!
Thursday, 3 March 2011
Beyond it All
Staying at my friends because I'm baby sitting for her tomorrow while she goes for an interview.
This morning I woke up in a bad mood, which is something weird for me...I mean, I'm usually sleepy and groggy in the morning, but not irritable.
Anyway...you know when you just want to be left alone and don't want to be talked because you ACTUALLY can't be bothered talking - I was like that.
My body is being a freak recently too, doing things I don't understand and that are not normal and I don't know whether it's due to lack of sleep or maybe underlying stress or something, but it's VERY tiring!
It's strange though - I feel so happy recently, you've probably (if you are a regular reader) that my blog posts have been less negative.
Ever since new year I made a promise to try and be a better person and be more giving and friendly and sincere. It's a hard thing to do and I mostly always fail because I am naturally a very selfish introverted person, but it has made a difference in my life. And I feel a lot more fulfilled - it's hard to explain.
I think the word is joyful. And trying to find joy in everything, even in the things that seem awful and heartbreaking. You have to think that things can be better, will be better. You have to have that hope. I think for a lot of people life is not beautiful because they don't allow it to be.
I know honestly, that I have a had a pretty cushy life. Always had food, had mostly everything I've ever wanted (the dog took a while but I got there eventually), known all my grandparents, my parents are both alive and still married, I get along (most of the time) with my sister, I have amazing friends who I don't even nearly deserve.
but, I have been through different things that have seemed like hell on earth and that it would never get better, but it always has got better. And I'm sure in my future I will have times where I will want to curl up and die, but knowing that joy can be found in the darkest of places gives so much hope.
There are so many people who I know who have had incredibly hard times, I can't even imagine - but to see them be so amazing after having experienced so much hardship, just astounds me. Do you know how amazing you are?
It's so encouraging for someone like me - who is lazy and easily discouraged - to see people like that.
So never give up on yourself, no matter who you are or where you are or how you are feeling. You can actually win, you can.
I know the things that are hurting me at the moment and the things that I'm worried about - they will all be fine. This is what life is.
And I want to thank every person who has ever told me their story, or ever looked out for me or ever told me to stop being an idiot because I was shooting myself in the foot...YOU ARE AN AMAZING PERSON/PEOPLE and you have helped me and I will always remember how you made a difference in my life.
LOOOL I'm getting all emotionful typing this out, because I really feel this so strongly. Every person I know or have known has blessed my life in some way or another. Arguments, distance even death can't take away from that fact.
I can't help loving people because of this.
Anyway, back to today haha -
I was lazing about for quite a while, then I forced myself to work out for a bit and get a bath.
The bath was SO nice, I used my new shampoo and I SMELL LUSH! lmao
Then I took my beautiful animal for a LONG overdue walk and stomped around the fields like a boss with Bigbang 'Tonight' ringing in my ears.
OH YEAH! The hoodies from Zaty arrived today! I LOVE MINE its LUSH! And Sarah loves hers too. Mine is the GD one and Sarah's is Seungri's. I'm HUGELY thankful for them and feel so loved MY LITTLE CUP OF JOY HAS COMPLETELY OVERFLOWED!
OH OH I watched The Blindside for the first time today! IT WAS AN AMAZING MOVIE! I LOVED IT! Totally understand why Sandra Bullock got that Oscar, she was amazing in it.
Honestly, I haven't done very much today, but thankfully, the bad mood I woke up with, has completely gone and I'm sleeping in a lovely comfy bed and am all ready to close my eyes and go to sleep!
IM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO THE WEEKEND! ITS GONNA BE THE SHIZZNESS!!!
Ok I'm off to have some sweet dreams.
Night everyone!
LOVE MIN!
P.S.
One of my favourite songs we sing at church goes.
'You made everything glorious
You made everything glorious
You made everything glorious
And I am Yours
So what does that make me?'
REMEMBER THAT! YOU ARE GLORIOUS!
ok night XD
This morning I woke up in a bad mood, which is something weird for me...I mean, I'm usually sleepy and groggy in the morning, but not irritable.
Anyway...you know when you just want to be left alone and don't want to be talked because you ACTUALLY can't be bothered talking - I was like that.
My body is being a freak recently too, doing things I don't understand and that are not normal and I don't know whether it's due to lack of sleep or maybe underlying stress or something, but it's VERY tiring!
It's strange though - I feel so happy recently, you've probably (if you are a regular reader) that my blog posts have been less negative.
Ever since new year I made a promise to try and be a better person and be more giving and friendly and sincere. It's a hard thing to do and I mostly always fail because I am naturally a very selfish introverted person, but it has made a difference in my life. And I feel a lot more fulfilled - it's hard to explain.
I think the word is joyful. And trying to find joy in everything, even in the things that seem awful and heartbreaking. You have to think that things can be better, will be better. You have to have that hope. I think for a lot of people life is not beautiful because they don't allow it to be.
I know honestly, that I have a had a pretty cushy life. Always had food, had mostly everything I've ever wanted (the dog took a while but I got there eventually), known all my grandparents, my parents are both alive and still married, I get along (most of the time) with my sister, I have amazing friends who I don't even nearly deserve.
but, I have been through different things that have seemed like hell on earth and that it would never get better, but it always has got better. And I'm sure in my future I will have times where I will want to curl up and die, but knowing that joy can be found in the darkest of places gives so much hope.
There are so many people who I know who have had incredibly hard times, I can't even imagine - but to see them be so amazing after having experienced so much hardship, just astounds me. Do you know how amazing you are?
It's so encouraging for someone like me - who is lazy and easily discouraged - to see people like that.
So never give up on yourself, no matter who you are or where you are or how you are feeling. You can actually win, you can.
I know the things that are hurting me at the moment and the things that I'm worried about - they will all be fine. This is what life is.
And I want to thank every person who has ever told me their story, or ever looked out for me or ever told me to stop being an idiot because I was shooting myself in the foot...YOU ARE AN AMAZING PERSON/PEOPLE and you have helped me and I will always remember how you made a difference in my life.
LOOOL I'm getting all emotionful typing this out, because I really feel this so strongly. Every person I know or have known has blessed my life in some way or another. Arguments, distance even death can't take away from that fact.
I can't help loving people because of this.
Anyway, back to today haha -
I was lazing about for quite a while, then I forced myself to work out for a bit and get a bath.
The bath was SO nice, I used my new shampoo and I SMELL LUSH! lmao
Then I took my beautiful animal for a LONG overdue walk and stomped around the fields like a boss with Bigbang 'Tonight' ringing in my ears.
OH YEAH! The hoodies from Zaty arrived today! I LOVE MINE its LUSH! And Sarah loves hers too. Mine is the GD one and Sarah's is Seungri's. I'm HUGELY thankful for them and feel so loved MY LITTLE CUP OF JOY HAS COMPLETELY OVERFLOWED!
OH OH I watched The Blindside for the first time today! IT WAS AN AMAZING MOVIE! I LOVED IT! Totally understand why Sandra Bullock got that Oscar, she was amazing in it.
Honestly, I haven't done very much today, but thankfully, the bad mood I woke up with, has completely gone and I'm sleeping in a lovely comfy bed and am all ready to close my eyes and go to sleep!
IM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO THE WEEKEND! ITS GONNA BE THE SHIZZNESS!!!
Ok I'm off to have some sweet dreams.
Night everyone!
LOVE MIN!
P.S.
One of my favourite songs we sing at church goes.
'You made everything glorious
You made everything glorious
You made everything glorious
And I am Yours
So what does that make me?'
REMEMBER THAT! YOU ARE GLORIOUS!
ok night XD
Tuesday, 1 March 2011
Motion Sickness
The Chelsea V Man U match just finished. Watching it was like self torture that you enjoy slightly, but then don't feel satisfied with at the end...not that I enjoy self torture.
It WAS NOT the result I wanted, but these things happen T_________T
Anyway, on a MUCH NICER and MORE BEAUTIFUL level, I will post my BIGBANG MV of the day!
I awoke this morning to find a special treat! The OFFICIAL and lovely un-TV version of their BRAND SPANKIN NEW 'Tonight' MV had been released.
It is very beautiful! When I tried to find a moral to the storyline I came up with...
Watch, you'll see what I mean!
Aren't they lovely???
It's actually quite a confusing MV to decipher, but I haven't actually read the lyrics yet, so I think it will make more sense when I do.
The thing you are REALLY left thinking when it finishes is.
but I'm sure there must be more to it than that.
In any case, Its a nice fresh approach to an MV from the KPOP industry. MV's always seem the same nowadays, like just with dimly lit rooms and hot guys dancing in perfect sync.
Bigbang bring SO much more to the table.
I think it's LUSH when Jiyongie kicks the camera too! HOW ADORABLE!
DFSIHASLDFKJALKS I LOVE BIGBANG!!!!! AHHHH!
So I have to get up at some God forsaken hour tomorrow, because my mum arranged my life without telling me.
I was irritated at first, but I'm beginning to accept that she will keep telling other people I will do stuff for them without my permission for the rest of my life.
It is very sad.
So I have to go help at this school tomorrow because they are having an inspection and one of the teacher is pregnant so I am the 'fill in person'. WHICH IS HORRENDOUS!
I am trying to think positively about the whole situation, but I really can find nothing in it at all that appeals to me. Except for the fact that I LOVE the boss of the inspector who is visiting.
Her boss is the lady who's house I lived in last month! AND I LOVE HER!!!!!
My dog is such a babe!
Today I went to buy some necessities (and a dvd) and my card was rejected. I WAS HORRIFIED! It made me feel like a criminal! And I was exasperated because I knew that I had money in my account. Good job my mum was there, so she got the stuff for me. Anyway I went to the ATM to see if I could withdraw money to give back to her from there AND IT LET ME! It's so weird, I'm going to call my bank tomorrow and DEMAND an explanation.
I was so embarrassed when they said I couldn't buy my things. Sarah said I went red. I'm so glad I wasn't alone. I'd hate to have to leave that stuff behind.
I saw my spider friend on the window above the door in the kitchen just a bit ago. I was so happy to see him, but he really does travel around the house a lot. I suppose travelling is fast when you have eight legs though. It must be quite useful to have so many limbs. YOU COULD LIKE PLAY THE PIANO AND HOOVER AT THE SAME TIME WHILE SEWING AND HAVING A CUP OF TEA!
Though, you would look VERY strange!
You know when some things are just SO hard for you to comprehend? Like when creeper guys actually think they have a chance with you???
*SHUDDERS*
ITS HORRIBLE! STAY AWAY *makes cross sign with fingers*
Ahhhh, I love watching drama at night time. Just sat on a sofa drinking a nice cup of tea.
We've been re-watching Nobuta wo Produce for the past few days, but just watching like one episode a night before we go to bed. It's just so nice and relaxing. Such a nice story of friendship.
I have a lot in my head that I would like to write, but I have to be up early tomorrow and it's almost 12am. I think it would be wise of me to stop for now and get some sweet dreams....tomorrow awaits HUHUHUH DNW!
Anyway! FIGHTING!
Love Min
It WAS NOT the result I wanted, but these things happen T_________T
Anyway, on a MUCH NICER and MORE BEAUTIFUL level, I will post my BIGBANG MV of the day!
I awoke this morning to find a special treat! The OFFICIAL and lovely un-TV version of their BRAND SPANKIN NEW 'Tonight' MV had been released.
It is very beautiful! When I tried to find a moral to the storyline I came up with...
Watch, you'll see what I mean!
Aren't they lovely???
It's actually quite a confusing MV to decipher, but I haven't actually read the lyrics yet, so I think it will make more sense when I do.
The thing you are REALLY left thinking when it finishes is.
'OMG, DAESUNG HAD HIS HEAD BETWEEN THAT WOMANS BOOBIES!'
but I'm sure there must be more to it than that.
In any case, Its a nice fresh approach to an MV from the KPOP industry. MV's always seem the same nowadays, like just with dimly lit rooms and hot guys dancing in perfect sync.
Bigbang bring SO much more to the table.
I think it's LUSH when Jiyongie kicks the camera too! HOW ADORABLE!
DFSIHASLDFKJALKS I LOVE BIGBANG!!!!! AHHHH!
So I have to get up at some God forsaken hour tomorrow, because my mum arranged my life without telling me.
I was irritated at first, but I'm beginning to accept that she will keep telling other people I will do stuff for them without my permission for the rest of my life.
It is very sad.
So I have to go help at this school tomorrow because they are having an inspection and one of the teacher is pregnant so I am the 'fill in person'. WHICH IS HORRENDOUS!
I am trying to think positively about the whole situation, but I really can find nothing in it at all that appeals to me. Except for the fact that I LOVE the boss of the inspector who is visiting.
Her boss is the lady who's house I lived in last month! AND I LOVE HER!!!!!
My dog is such a babe!
Today I went to buy some necessities (and a dvd) and my card was rejected. I WAS HORRIFIED! It made me feel like a criminal! And I was exasperated because I knew that I had money in my account. Good job my mum was there, so she got the stuff for me. Anyway I went to the ATM to see if I could withdraw money to give back to her from there AND IT LET ME! It's so weird, I'm going to call my bank tomorrow and DEMAND an explanation.
I was so embarrassed when they said I couldn't buy my things. Sarah said I went red. I'm so glad I wasn't alone. I'd hate to have to leave that stuff behind.
I saw my spider friend on the window above the door in the kitchen just a bit ago. I was so happy to see him, but he really does travel around the house a lot. I suppose travelling is fast when you have eight legs though. It must be quite useful to have so many limbs. YOU COULD LIKE PLAY THE PIANO AND HOOVER AT THE SAME TIME WHILE SEWING AND HAVING A CUP OF TEA!
Though, you would look VERY strange!
You know when some things are just SO hard for you to comprehend? Like when creeper guys actually think they have a chance with you???
*SHUDDERS*
ITS HORRIBLE! STAY AWAY *makes cross sign with fingers*
Ahhhh, I love watching drama at night time. Just sat on a sofa drinking a nice cup of tea.
We've been re-watching Nobuta wo Produce for the past few days, but just watching like one episode a night before we go to bed. It's just so nice and relaxing. Such a nice story of friendship.
I have a lot in my head that I would like to write, but I have to be up early tomorrow and it's almost 12am. I think it would be wise of me to stop for now and get some sweet dreams....tomorrow awaits HUHUHUH DNW!
Anyway! FIGHTING!
Love Min
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