Then My World Was Shattered

I can deal with FB not loading, but twitter is another matter all together.

I love twitter...its...AMAZING.

I love tumblr too, but it wont load with this connection either, but I can live with that, because you get so many people who have no idea what they are talking about on tumblr. Whereas on twitter people don't think as much so they say the first thing that comes to mind. I find twitter is more sincere than tumblr...when it comes to being emotional anyway. As far as pretty pictures and having a laugh goes, tumblr is a GEM - I just find that some people there try too hard to be deep and meaningful. When sincerity is the only way to show true feelings and you don't have to TRY and be sincere when you really truly are.

I have no idea why I'm typing about the psychology of social networking sites hahaha.

Someone said to me the other day,

'I've always doubted your sanity and now I know you actually don't have any.'

It's scary knowing the person who said that has known me since I was born.

It's not surprising though...any offspring of my parents is destined to be slightly offbeat in comparison with normal reality. There is a big red streak of eccentricity in our genetics.

One of our ancestors was a highway man in the 1700's or something - which is basically a road pirate and my biological great grandfather was an Italian sailor who had an affair with my great grandmother, my grandma was a result of that and since in those days this kind of thing was HUGELY scandalous she was sent off to be adopted when she was a baby and ended up with a family in Manchester who loved her more than any 'blood relative' would have done.

Its nice to know my family was once a lot less boring than they are now *sigh*

I can only hope for the future generations...but I hope they will be exciting in a less illegal way...though I don't mind being illegal if the law is wrong :P

TWITTER PLEASE WORK!!!! T_______________________________T

I've had a REALLY good morning. We had people round for a prayer meeting thingy and my friends sister came over and she's lush.

She was saying how she wanted to go professional as a photographer, but give 60% of her earnings to charity and I was all in awe of her awesomeness. Anyway, she made me feel inspired about my artwork. Recently I've been feeling a little discouraged about it because everything I've drawn in the past few weeks has been really fail to be honest and I'm just not happy with it.

THEN I keep getting stressed because ideas are flowing into my head and piling up one after the other and nothing is coming of it.

but, anyway, I'm going to start doing that Bi Rain picture for my friend which I've been putting off for months.

I was discussing the Korea trip with Zaty eonnie over twitter (haha) yesterday and she was like,

'Yeah, I've already got my tickets.'

I was all O: O: O: O: O: O: O: !!!!!!

And I realised that I really needed to get my act together with the acquiring of money and stuff. I am a complete noob when it comes to air travel having never EVER EVER DONE THAT EVER!

So at the dinner table last night I was all,

'Daddddddddyyyyyy, will you help me buy tickets to go to Korea.'

and he was all,

'Do you have a job?'

and I said,

'Dadddddddddddddddddddddyyyyyy can you help me buy tickets for Korea when I have money?'

and he's like,

'You can go wherever the hell you like as long as you have the money.'

I replied,

'I wasn't asking for permission I was asking for help!!!!!!!!'

'Ok then get some money.'

he said.

So at least I have help with ticket purchase, now all I have to worry about is getting money. OH HELP!!!!

As of now though, I am watching episodes from Gossip Girl season three and wishing it was summer again. HOW NICE IT WILL BE TO NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT KEEPING WARM!

I love summer SO MUCH!

Its like, you can go outside with a t shirt and you just don't get cold!!! DO YOU REALISE HOW NICE THAT FEELING IS?!?!?!?!?! IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME!

And now I am getting that sleepy afternoon feeling again - what the heck is wrong with me???

It's not like I didn't get enough sleep either! I slept flat out for like 10 hours or something. I got out of bed about 20 mins before our guests came and I was hoovering the front room in my PJ bottoms just minutes before they knocked on the door hahaha

I might take Sammy for another walk in a little bit. My brain feels so frazzled.

Oh I was so cutesified the other day. My dad told me Sammy cried every night that me and Sarah were away and kept going to our room and looking for us. ISN'T THAT SO SWEET???

HE LOVES US!!

Oh ladies and gentlemen, I am in such a strange mood. Around ten minutes ago I was feeling extremely lazy and unfruitful and just now I've just got a massive energy boost and I feel like I could hit the ceiling!

I think this would be the right time to get off my ass and do some stuff before I start to feel sleepy again....

so brb later

That was a lovely fresh walk, very invigorating. I'm trying to find a picture of Rain again. I saved loads onto my USB thingimajig and now I can't find it.

Now this is a moment where having an accessible tumblr would be VERY useful.

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Ok, now, I actually didn't get the chance to post this and it's actually a full day later now

The reason being is that I was watching Kurosagi for the rest of the night and it finished by 1am...by that time I was FULLY in love with Yamapi and his character and wanted the whole experience fresh in my mind so that I could dream about him...and...I feel shame to say this, but, I decided to desert my waiting-to-be-completed blog post so I could dream about a Japanese man.

Whether or not I did dream or not will remain a mystery because I cannot remember for the life of me if I dreamed of anything or anyone last night because my sleep was of an extreme deepness.

Yesterday, I got complemented on how I looked and my friend was laughing at me, because I HATE above all things to be complimented on my outer appearance...not because I think people are lying to me because I have low self esteem, but because I am easily embarrassed and my pale face makes this VERY obvious when the blood rushes upwards. So I ran away from the awful moment, pretending I needed to get my dog while my mum and friend mocked me saying,

'No matter how hard she tries to be invisible, she can't help getting attention.'

but actually, I am EXTREMELY incredibly pro at diverting all attention from myself. I enjoy to be an onlooker. I believe being an onlooker makes me happy.

I have no hatred however of telling other people how beautiful they are. You know, everyone is perfectly who they are.

This is what I think anyway, because I believe God created each individual, and I believe God is perfect and I believe every piece of his creation is perfect, because nothing God creates is imperfect. Therefore everyone is wonderful and perfect and completely gorgeous and a FANTASTIC magnificent masterpiece.

In my eyes, you are like a character designed by Square Enix for Final Fantasy - BUT MUCH BETTER!

As far as appearance is concerned anyway :P Attitude is another thing all together. AND I do think an ugly attitude kind of pollutes appearance too, because it comes through. I think that must be my problem LMAO.

Ok so TODAY!

Church was fun, I saw many smiles, which is something I love, and my friend bought me two crumpets covered in hazelnut chocolate spread for some reason...I think its because she LOVES ME!!!! :D :D :D

We came back to grandmas for lunch...SUNDAY DINNER YUMMY LUSHNESS!

Then watched the Carling Cup Final between Arsenal and Birmingham. I'm not a fan of either team, but it was a really good match....and the team that I wanted to lose - LOST MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

It also didn't go through to extra time and penalties because I can't stand that.

I like watching final matches that don't have Man U, because it is SO much less stressful.

Don't get me wrong though, I would MUCH rather have like United to be in the final and WON!

but, NVM, we have FA Cup Final and Premier League for that :P

Allright, I am going back home now so I better pack up my laptop.

When we get back I will be watching Nobuta wo Produce and there is a good chance that I will not be back to write more so I am going to post this now and be done with it!!

I can't let it span over three days! haha

Good day sweet dears. I Hope you get everything you DESERVE (evil laughter)

No I'm kidding - be blessed and happy and beautiful

From Min HEE