Abnormal, the New Normal

So many things are happening all at once.

The laziness within me is like...

'Dude, chill your life.'

I know, that is just a load of tosh.

Actually, life is just being normal. Full. It just makes me want more of it.

This in turn, makes my life SO irritating.

Monotony, that curse. I have to drag through the days waiting for the times I have planned for excitement, or at least some amazing surprise. Yet the great race just loves keeping it simple just when I want everything to explode.

This leaves me in a great predicament. Should I throw in the towel of monotony and give up making a living so I can then ACTUALLY  live a living?

The truth is, I need money dammit. The things I like are expensive. The things I want to do have an expense. So you see, monotony is what I pay for being able to live a life that I enjoy.

(Not that I am endorsing the love of 'Things' - I just can't be bothered thinking up words that describe life stuff at the moment.)

If I could just find a way to make the boring stuff worthwhile, in my own mind, so then everything would be wonderful and interesting.

But then...if everything is interesting, does everything then become not very interesting at all????

I DON'T EVEN KNOW!

I just super confused my own brain with this entire post. Do I even want to continue to publicize my ability to completely and utterly befuddle myself?

I need someone to fool around with.

I'm going now, to write deep and meaningful poetry about how I really feel.

Minneh

The Korean Dream

Here I am, sat in my room, listening to the instrumental of 'Blue' by bigbang.

I have a very nice view from my bedroom window. The combination of pretty view and chill tunes really relaxes my socks off (not literally).

You may (or may not) know, but two weeks ago I finally fulfilled my long term dream of visiting South Korea. It was everything that I imagined and more. Not only was I in the country, but I was with dear friends who I'd been waiting to hug for so long AND to just make it perfection - I saw Bigbang at Big Show 2012 - twice.

If you have been following me since I've had this blog. You will understand the hugeness of the whole experience.

I should probably post a few piccies so you can see.Unfortunately I can't post them all because there are like seven million.

 Bi Bim Bap on the plane - the first flavours of Korea

 The first signs of land, soon I will be there!

 Me and Zaty eonnie after I landed - TIRED and Vereh happeh!

 Me and my Boyfriend

 BIG SHOW 2012! Here we come!

The three of us together <3 - wish we'd got a better pic than this, next time!

Only six. It takes forever for pictures to upload on blogger doesn't it? I just don't have the patience haha.

I wore my I <3 Korea t shirt for the first time today. Allthough the design is not as pretty as the one I bought for Sarah, it still looks nice on me haha. I guess it's because I'm a t shirt type girl. Always have, always will be. I will be an embarrassment to my kids, but PFFT what do they know anyway?!

Anyway, I'm all blogged out for now. All I can say is. I had an amazing fabulous time. I'm completely in love with South Korea, Bigbang and my friends. Lets make more plans! I have so many more friends I have to hug to death! Believe me - It has only just begun.

Minnnnnn

I'm sat at lunch listening to 'blue' bigbangs latest gift to the world. It's an awesome song, but from them I expect nothing less and they ALWAYS deliver.

Last night I slept super light. The reasons being -

Firstly, it was super hot, like a flaming sauna

Secondly, nerves.

Thirdly, there is no thirdly.

I'm finding that I get my most extreme form of anxiety when it is night time. It's as if all the negative thoughts I have ignored throughout the day have fused together to form the monster that hides in my wardrobe.

It's really annoying!

I jut wanna kick it's ass or hit it with a Bible or something, because not only does it really discourage me - it also reduces my sleep time.

It's obvious there are serious issues here.

'Breathe' by G Dragon live recording from the shine a light concert - I am dying in my lunch seat.

Well, my time is up. I have to return to databases and call outs. I'm trying to have joy about this whole thing.

Min

The Working Mind

Sat at the lunch table at work wondering what else I could be doing with my life.

I was just thinking last night about how I wanted to be able to work In another country at some stage. I'm a complete fail when it comes to wanting something so hard and then working to get it. Most of the time I just allow myself to be discouraged.

I'd love to have a constant flow of new things coming into my existence, but it takes a bit more effort than that. My brain yearns for creativity and fresh ideas and my eyes really wish I still wore contact lenses(just thought I'd throw that in).

Someone bought me a new mirror for my room yesterday. I really love it and it makes a lot of difference in the complete barren wasteland that was left when my room mate moved out. It brings a lil' bit of character to the place, I like character.

It's one of my housemates 21st birthday on Thursday and I have no idea what to get her. I can't really remember my 21st, however I do know that two weeks before I met some pf my best friends. I think it's remarkable how 'things' don't remain in your memory, but the feeling of love does. It shows what is the most important thing.

Well, I have to get back to work now so I hope you have a nice day and please pray that I think of a great birthday present.

Min

I Hope I Am Never Gross

My tongue feels like it has lost all feeling and my back gums feel like they have had a fist fight with the Incredible Hulk.

This horrible experience is due to drinking boiling hot liquid and wisdom teeth.

If this is what heat and wisdom bring with them...well, I think we would all be better of without it all - kidding...ish...no really I am.

Well, my room mate has officially moved out, but in the kindness of her heart, has left me her laptop till the end of the month, hence, this blog post.

Its like three minutes past 12 so my grammar will be poo, but I don't actually care - what loony gave rules to expression anyway? (FYI, I don't usually think this way at a daylight hour, in fact I <3 grammar).

Call me fickle, I don't give a crap.

So yeah I'm all alone in this room now, I'm a bit sad about it actually. I miss having a roomie.

The internet has been super boring tonight, no one has been online and tumblr and twitter are going extremely slow. I'm totally using this blog post as a place to complain - I'm sorry, I really don't mean to.

We just finished watching a French Romcom called 'Beautiful Lies'. Its about this guy who writes a love letter to this girl., but her mum gets confused and thinks it is for herself. It was pretty good. I wouldn't watch it again for a while though. It didn't even come close to being as good as 'My Sassy Girl' (Korean version, just to be clear).

It was Valentines Day yesterday and I never told anyone I loved them. It doesn't really matter, all the people I love know it already. It's just a good harmless excuse to be loving and I didn't take the opportunity. Oh well, at least it's pancake day next Tuesday.

And now, I MUST sleep. I can have a lie in too, because I have a lift to work, which is a bit lush.

Goodnight fit ones,

Love Min

Feet

I have just watched the trailer for 'The Amazing Spiderman'.

I'm looking forward to this film, but I REALLY loved Spiderman 1 & 2 so it has rather large shoes to fill, in my opinion.

It helps that I like Andrew Garfield. It also helps that he is a very good British Actor.

I don't fancy him though, I just like him....cos I know you were thinking that I think about every attractive person in a shallow and perverse way. I don't. I have a list of specific people for those kinds of thoughts.

:D

Anyhoo, work has been doing that thing. You know, work then sleep, work then sleep then repeat. I was scared my life would end up like this, but actually, I don't hate it as much as I hate the thought of it. I mean, without standing all this monotony I wouldn't have been able to buy a plane ticket to South Korea, nor would I have been able to go ice skating tonight.

Skating was good by the way. I was wearing this old jumper that I feel extremely comfortable in and I think I learned a lot better. The learning process (in anything) is always a lot easier when you are extremely relaxed in the clothing you are wearing.

My dad just posted on my FB wall! He is never on FB, this is like a huge achievement for him.

I'm so glad I don't have to get a shower tomorrow morning. It's super cold in this country at the minute, I'm talking constant minus temperatures. Its so awful having wet hair on very cold days and then waiting for a bus outside on those very cold days. It doesn't help that I refuse to use a hair dryer (with good reason) and also I only have one pair of shoes, which seems irrelevant, but I think warm feet are necessary when you have wet hair on cold days.

Am I making any sense at all? I hope not.

While I am on the subject of hair, I just want to mention that I am completely happy with my hair lately. It feels so nice and is being wonderfully manageable, it's like after all these years I have finally managed to tame the beast...or maybe I haven't, maybe actually I have just come to have an understanding with it.

If you didn't know my hair is actually another life form attached to my body whom I have had to learn to live with in a symbiotic way.

Alright, I shall sign off now, because I want to tumblr.

MIN---CE

Talks like a Cabbage, Walks like a Cabbage

I'm actually super tired and I don't know why I'm doing this.

My landlady has decided to buy a new TV for our front room - this news is - AWESOME.

I feel we should watch Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon for its 'first time'. It has to be a good movie, not some old tosh.

As you can probably gather from the tone of this post, my mood from when I wrote here last has diminished. I was in a bad place at that time, I am through that bad place now, thanks to my creator and also common sense. I have to admit though, that last rant was really well written. Sometimes I just impress myself so much.

Speaking of impressiveness. Today I wrote a letter to this guy and showed it to my supervisor to check it over and I only had one error in the whole letter and that was a spelling error (well, who knew 'administrational' was not a word?'). MY COMPOSITION SKILLS ARE BOSSLIKE!

I feel like I am well practised in letter composition though. During my school years (in the back of beyond) there were like a thousand English books dedicated to letter writing. It seems an irrelevant skill in this webb/internet day and age, but surprisingly it is of use to me.

I find that I often find use of things that seem irrelevant.

LIKE MY HEART!

*cough*

Ok I'm just going to have a lil rant here and now.

I superduper hate dating. LIKE SUPERDUPERDUPER HATE WITH A PASSION THAT BURNS MY SOUL!

If you want to get to know someone can't you just do it in a not stalker creepy way like, I dunno, talking to them about every day stuff in a normal every day way.

Asking someone on a date and saying you want to get to know them more is super freaking creepy I can't even. Its pretty much saying, I am interested in you and I want to force my feelings upon you in this stupid indirect way.

Well, let me put this straight. I only go out with my friends! If you are not my flipping friend, then you have no right to even approach me in that kind of intimate manner.

THERE ARE LEVELS THAT YOU HAVE TO PASS WITH ME!

You can't just jump over the friendship level just because I don't let people be my friend easily!

BLOODY FOOLS!

Ok, I think I'm done with this rant now.

I will see you later smexual ones!

Minnie