Ohhhh today I did some DJ-ing for a few hours, it was so much fun, I forgot how much I liked it.
The thing is, I like DJ-ing when there is no one in the house, because I feel awkward if someone is there.
I don't know why.
Well actually, I think its because you sort of act over the top and less like yourself because you are trying to entertain the audience.
My sister hates me when I'm DJ-ing, she says I'm being fake, but I'm not, I'm just being slightly more animated so that the people listening don't get bored.
Cos I'm kind and stuff LOLOLOL
This morning I was SO COLD! I actually didn't want to get out of bed because of coldness, thats the first time I've felt like this since April or something. I'm going to have to get all hard core and used to the cold now.
Tonight it is going to be 1 degree....soon it will be in the minuses BRRRRRR.
I really miss warm weather huhuhuhuhuhhu.
Sarah told me a few days ago that Wednesdays would be 'drawing days', which means we would have to produce a piece of art ever Wednesday. I think its a good idea, it with help with practising techniques and also I will finally be able to finish some of those commissions I've been given.
Yep, people are actually willing to give me money in exchange for a portrait and I STILL haven't taken them up even with the cash incentive.
I have like 3 people waiting, and I charge £35 per picture - hmmmmmm I should really get those finished before Christmas muahahahhaah.
I'm suddenly very hungry, but I refuse to eat at this time of night...no, its not because I care about getting fat (which I do care about, but not at this moment) It is because my feet are warm and I don't want to get out from under my bed sheets.
Otherwise I would so go to the fridge and find something to stuff down my throat.
We watched The Lake House this evening, its a well cute movie, I remember liking it when I first saw it...it is a remake of the Korean movie Il Mare. The Korean version is better in my opinion, but the American remake is a good one on it's own...and I like the lead actors. Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock are LUSH acting with each other.
My tummy is making noises haha
Its 11:47 now and honestly, I haven't really done anything today or accomplished anything, but then, I never made any goals for myself today or challenged myself.
I do that a lot you know, inside my head - I disappoint myself a lot too.
Ahh I'm sleepy, I keep closing my eyes and then remembering that I'm writing something.
I know this is short, but I really have nothing else to say.
Its been a good day with very few bad moments and I got to see my favourite nose ever.
What more can a girl ask for?
Good Night/Good day - just good everything.
Love Min
P.S. I'm sorry to all those I deserted earlier today...there was an electric shortage in my house which cut off the power that feeds the modem.
Mianhee!!! T___T
Tuesday, 9 November 2010
Sunday, 7 November 2010
How Could I Plan on Forever, When I never Planned on You
I'm really tired so this is going to be a short one.
My sister just told me that my typing,
which means
'Please don't blog for long because you will keep me awake.'
I didn't end up going to Manchester because of an absolutely ridiculous occurrence that put me through several emotional changes within the space of six hours.
To put it simply - my dad in an irrational attempt to teach me a lesson decided that it would be best to lock me out of the house without money food or drink while they went to Manchester.
I was basically wandering around my town for 6 hours with my dog - yes he was locked out with me.
I was so angry at first, then I was upset but the most overwhelming emotion was that of utter boredom.
and it was also very cold. England in November is not the best place to be locked out in.
and I spend a lot of time sat on the park bench venting my fury to Zaty eonnie via text.
To put it short, I have had a lot of exercise today and I wouldn't be surprised if I have a cold tomorrow.
I'm not angry at my dad anymore...I haven't spoken to him yet, but I'm not angry at him. He is my daddy after all.
I have this feeling that everyone I love likes to punish me in order to test my affection. You know, say awful things to me or do awful things to me in order to somehow mould me into what they want.
It confuses me at times.
Like for example just now I was lying on the floor cuddling Sam and my mum said to me,
Its like she forgot I just got home after babysitting at someone elses house for 5 days and today from 8:40am to 3:00pm I was walking around all over the place just to keep warm.
I think I have the right to be tired.
I just didn't even reply to her. I can't be bothered anymore, I just said to Sarah,
I know myself and I know when I am being lazy and selfish and I know I didn't deserve that statement from her.
Anyway, I'm just going to forget about the first half of today, at least I didn't have to go to Manchester and I got to spend time with my doggy...so I can take positives away from it, even if it is some crazy shizz.
I did cry though. It seems Sunday's are the 'lets be cruel to Minnie and make her cry' days.
Meh!
So I started writing a little story to post on my posterous. It kind of popped into my head in a moment of inspiration so I'm really looking forward to posting it...after its all been written of course :D
This evening was a chick flick evening. Sarah and I watched The Wedding Planner and Sweet Home Alabama.
We came to the conclusion that the best chick flicks are the ones that can make you cry, which both of the above mentioned do.
There are so many cheap rom com's nowadays. They are far too concerned with how fast the lead role's can bed each other that they miss out on the meaningful stuff...you know, like loving someone forever.
Alright, I'm going to leave it here for tonight. My pillow calls me.
Love from Minnie
P.S. I feel so numb inside recently :/
My sister just told me that my typing,
'Isn't just any typing...your typing is disgusting and I hate it.'
which means
'Please don't blog for long because you will keep me awake.'
I didn't end up going to Manchester because of an absolutely ridiculous occurrence that put me through several emotional changes within the space of six hours.
To put it simply - my dad in an irrational attempt to teach me a lesson decided that it would be best to lock me out of the house without money food or drink while they went to Manchester.
I was basically wandering around my town for 6 hours with my dog - yes he was locked out with me.
I was so angry at first, then I was upset but the most overwhelming emotion was that of utter boredom.
and it was also very cold. England in November is not the best place to be locked out in.
and I spend a lot of time sat on the park bench venting my fury to Zaty eonnie via text.
To put it short, I have had a lot of exercise today and I wouldn't be surprised if I have a cold tomorrow.
I'm not angry at my dad anymore...I haven't spoken to him yet, but I'm not angry at him. He is my daddy after all.
I have this feeling that everyone I love likes to punish me in order to test my affection. You know, say awful things to me or do awful things to me in order to somehow mould me into what they want.
It confuses me at times.
Like for example just now I was lying on the floor cuddling Sam and my mum said to me,
'You are so lazy and selfish and you get tired even when you do nothing and you get stressed out over the smallest of tasks.'
Its like she forgot I just got home after babysitting at someone elses house for 5 days and today from 8:40am to 3:00pm I was walking around all over the place just to keep warm.
I think I have the right to be tired.
I just didn't even reply to her. I can't be bothered anymore, I just said to Sarah,
'I think mum will say I'm lazy no matter what I do.'
I know myself and I know when I am being lazy and selfish and I know I didn't deserve that statement from her.
Anyway, I'm just going to forget about the first half of today, at least I didn't have to go to Manchester and I got to spend time with my doggy...so I can take positives away from it, even if it is some crazy shizz.
I did cry though. It seems Sunday's are the 'lets be cruel to Minnie and make her cry' days.
Meh!
So I started writing a little story to post on my posterous. It kind of popped into my head in a moment of inspiration so I'm really looking forward to posting it...after its all been written of course :D
This evening was a chick flick evening. Sarah and I watched The Wedding Planner and Sweet Home Alabama.
We came to the conclusion that the best chick flicks are the ones that can make you cry, which both of the above mentioned do.
There are so many cheap rom com's nowadays. They are far too concerned with how fast the lead role's can bed each other that they miss out on the meaningful stuff...you know, like loving someone forever.
Alright, I'm going to leave it here for tonight. My pillow calls me.
Love from Minnie
P.S. I feel so numb inside recently :/
Saturday, 6 November 2010
We Could Rule the World
Well I'm back home :D
Something I am completely happy about, it's ridiculous how uptight I have been all week.
You know, I thought I was so relaxed and being cool and stuff, but actually I wasn't because today I have discovered just how chilled I am when I am home...it's like another flipping level of chillage.
I feel like a princess that has returned to her castle after doing community service for a week.
Yeah I didn't post last night because I got home at 10 and I just stunk of baby, so I just got a wash, changed into some lush clean PJ's and sat down in the front room to watch 'Taken' with dad and Sarah.
We didn't get to bed till past 1am.
'Taken' is dads new favourite film. According to Sarah he has watched it three times already this week, but I think it's a very daddy-ish kind of movie.
Its about this guy who is an ex secret service agent. Anyway he has this estranged daughter and he really loves her and wants to get to know her better...because he was away a lot when she was little and then he and his wife divorced and now his daughter lives with her mum and her mum's new husband.
ANYWAY, his daughter wants to go to this trip to France with her friend and he isn't sure because he is really cautious and stuff, but in the end he relents and lets her go.
Unfortunately, his worst nightmare becomes a reality and his daughter and her friend get kidnapped by these sex traffickers.
So basically the rest of the movie is about her dad hunting them down and killing and torturing everyone who is involved with her kidnapping until he finds her.
It's kind of violent, but there is barely any swearing and no crude scenes and the storyline and acting is really strong, I would totally rewatch it.
but I guess it is more of a daddy film because dad's love to be the hero haha.
Once when I was little there was this pervert who touched my head when I was in town (this guy was know for being a strange dude anyway...he thought he was Jesus and wore a robe and sandals - since when was Jesus bald?)
Anyway I told my dad because I hated it and he just went right over to that guy and punched his face LOOOOOOL
Thats the only time I've ever seen my dad lose it, but I still think it's kind of cool that my dad would punch someone for me.
Well today I woke up pretty early, due to an overactive mind and also, I have my doggy to take care of again :D
btw, when I got home I hugged Sam for like a full ten minutes I missed my lil baby puppy so much!!!!
I felt kind of in with the money this morning because I've hardly spent any the past few weeks so I asked dad whether we could go to the shops so I could buy some art supplies that I've needed for ages.
He was like,
and I was like,
and he said,
and I said,
And he said,
but you know, the words 'hurry' and 'bath' do not line up together well in my vocabulary or dictionary or whatever.
In my view, there is no point in running a nice hot glorious bath if you are just going to leap in and out of it in two seconds.
and besides, I had to take Sam for a long walkie.
So we ended up going shopping after dad had been to fetch the van.
In the meantime Sarah and I started watching House of Flying Daggers (which we have never EVER finished watching before), but daddy came home and took us out RIGHT AT THE VERY SAME MOMENT where we ALWAYS stop it.
One day I will see the ending haha ONE DAY!
I found what I wanted while we were out shopping. ACTUALLY IMMA SHOW YOU!!
I know I know!! For some reason I got all flustered and spazzy when I was filming that and looked like a stupid idiot, but in my defence, its 11pm-ish and Im tired and shizz so MEH!!
Maybe it would have been better if I'd have just taken pictures of my new stuff. Ahh never mind. My embarrassment is out there now.
Anyway, I bought two new dvd's today - Stardust and the Lakehouse.
We watched Stardust tonight, I forgot how AMAZING it was!!! I seriously love that movie, its so sweet and romantic.
My favourite part is the very ending because it makes me tear up and also the part when Yvaine confesses to Tristan, because its so beautiful -
I wish I could have said it like that It's almost exactly what I wanted to say...but it came out like - 'fpsfialjfASDLFIOHASDFLAS' - instead.
ALLRIGHT!
I made a posterous account because YJ eonnie recommended it and said it was very easy when it comes to posting fics and stories and poetry and shizzle.
So here is the link to that if you wish to check it out.
http://nubcak.posterous.com
I just wrote a little introductory post, nothing new as of yet, but I promise there will be soon, my brain just needs to tick over some stuff :D
Emmm and I think that is about it for tonight/today/now.
Tomorrow I'm in Manchester...joy of all joys =.=
I would be lying if I said I was pleased about this. I REAAALLY wanted a peaceful weekend at home, but life just refuses to give us what we want so I shouldn't be surprised that it's doing irritating things tomorrow.
It smells all smoky in England today because yesterday it was the 5th of November which is bonfire night. I kind of like that smell haha...
Well the tiredness is sweeping over me, Ive had a good day :D
Look! No complaining (hardly) ^____^
Love you loads,
From Min
Something I am completely happy about, it's ridiculous how uptight I have been all week.
You know, I thought I was so relaxed and being cool and stuff, but actually I wasn't because today I have discovered just how chilled I am when I am home...it's like another flipping level of chillage.
I feel like a princess that has returned to her castle after doing community service for a week.
Yeah I didn't post last night because I got home at 10 and I just stunk of baby, so I just got a wash, changed into some lush clean PJ's and sat down in the front room to watch 'Taken' with dad and Sarah.
We didn't get to bed till past 1am.
'Taken' is dads new favourite film. According to Sarah he has watched it three times already this week, but I think it's a very daddy-ish kind of movie.
Its about this guy who is an ex secret service agent. Anyway he has this estranged daughter and he really loves her and wants to get to know her better...because he was away a lot when she was little and then he and his wife divorced and now his daughter lives with her mum and her mum's new husband.
ANYWAY, his daughter wants to go to this trip to France with her friend and he isn't sure because he is really cautious and stuff, but in the end he relents and lets her go.
Unfortunately, his worst nightmare becomes a reality and his daughter and her friend get kidnapped by these sex traffickers.
So basically the rest of the movie is about her dad hunting them down and killing and torturing everyone who is involved with her kidnapping until he finds her.
It's kind of violent, but there is barely any swearing and no crude scenes and the storyline and acting is really strong, I would totally rewatch it.
but I guess it is more of a daddy film because dad's love to be the hero haha.
Once when I was little there was this pervert who touched my head when I was in town (this guy was know for being a strange dude anyway...he thought he was Jesus and wore a robe and sandals - since when was Jesus bald?)
Anyway I told my dad because I hated it and he just went right over to that guy and punched his face LOOOOOOL
Thats the only time I've ever seen my dad lose it, but I still think it's kind of cool that my dad would punch someone for me.
Well today I woke up pretty early, due to an overactive mind and also, I have my doggy to take care of again :D
btw, when I got home I hugged Sam for like a full ten minutes I missed my lil baby puppy so much!!!!
I felt kind of in with the money this morning because I've hardly spent any the past few weeks so I asked dad whether we could go to the shops so I could buy some art supplies that I've needed for ages.
He was like,
'Ok, but you have to get ready fast.'
and I was like,
'WHY??!!!'
and he said,
'Because I have to pick up a van from work in a bit.'
and I said,
'AWWW but I stink, I need a bath first!!!'
And he said,
'HURRY UP AND GET ONE THEN!'
but you know, the words 'hurry' and 'bath' do not line up together well in my vocabulary or dictionary or whatever.
In my view, there is no point in running a nice hot glorious bath if you are just going to leap in and out of it in two seconds.
and besides, I had to take Sam for a long walkie.
So we ended up going shopping after dad had been to fetch the van.
In the meantime Sarah and I started watching House of Flying Daggers (which we have never EVER finished watching before), but daddy came home and took us out RIGHT AT THE VERY SAME MOMENT where we ALWAYS stop it.
One day I will see the ending haha ONE DAY!
I found what I wanted while we were out shopping. ACTUALLY IMMA SHOW YOU!!
I know I know!! For some reason I got all flustered and spazzy when I was filming that and looked like a stupid idiot, but in my defence, its 11pm-ish and Im tired and shizz so MEH!!
Maybe it would have been better if I'd have just taken pictures of my new stuff. Ahh never mind. My embarrassment is out there now.
Anyway, I bought two new dvd's today - Stardust and the Lakehouse.
We watched Stardust tonight, I forgot how AMAZING it was!!! I seriously love that movie, its so sweet and romantic.
My favourite part is the very ending because it makes me tear up and also the part when Yvaine confesses to Tristan, because its so beautiful -
You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.- Yvaine
I wish I could have said it like that It's almost exactly what I wanted to say...but it came out like - 'fpsfialjfASDLFIOHASDFLAS' - instead.
ALLRIGHT!
I made a posterous account because YJ eonnie recommended it and said it was very easy when it comes to posting fics and stories and poetry and shizzle.
So here is the link to that if you wish to check it out.
http://nubcak.posterous.com
I just wrote a little introductory post, nothing new as of yet, but I promise there will be soon, my brain just needs to tick over some stuff :D
Emmm and I think that is about it for tonight/today/now.
Tomorrow I'm in Manchester...joy of all joys =.=
I would be lying if I said I was pleased about this. I REAAALLY wanted a peaceful weekend at home, but life just refuses to give us what we want so I shouldn't be surprised that it's doing irritating things tomorrow.
It smells all smoky in England today because yesterday it was the 5th of November which is bonfire night. I kind of like that smell haha...
Well the tiredness is sweeping over me, Ive had a good day :D
Look! No complaining (hardly) ^____^
Love you loads,
From Min
Thursday, 4 November 2010
Just Fine (ish)
This may be my last day away from home after a full week of babysitting.
LOL, I thought it was only going to be for a couple of days and it was a full five day job.
I'm shattered its 11:30 already...I think I've been sat in a weird position because my right shoulder kills like its nobody's business.
Its strange living at someone elses house. In my house everyone goes to bed way past 12, but here everyone gets tired around 10pm.
It makes me wonder if our family just has no control over their sleeping habits and all other families actually get to bed before 11pm, but I guess every household is different.
You know, the TV in England after 10pm is just full of so much foulness.
It's like we have these really great and hilarious comedies...but they just get ruined by REALLY bad language and crude speaking. I just have to turn the off.
I CANNOT abide foul language, it's pathetic. I mean can these people not get a more extensive vocabulary??? I try so hard not to be a snob (LOL) but when I hear people swear I immediately feel superior to them.
I feel the same way about people who don't drink tea.
Anyway, today was pretty much the same as yesterday and the day before that and the day before that.
Do you know I haven't set foot outside since Monday morning? Is that even healthy?
I did however stick my head out of the patio doors for a breath of fresh air today...it was so...FRESH!
So how was Minnie feeling today??
Well...not perfect that's for sure...but I'm happy to say my skin is improving in it's clearness this week...October was the month of facial flaw for me.
The first week of November 2010 has had some TERRIBLE moments, but I am glad to say my face is improved...there is at least one think I can take from it then.
I feel like the week is slowly getting better, but I have this horrible feeling like I've missed something important...oh yeah and not being wanted...
I KNOW!!! I know there are people who want me...its an actual fact that I have been claimed more than once this week by people who I have ferociously claimed for myself. It's so wonderful when there are people who you want who want you back...but there is always that one person who likes to make it difficult for you and that is the kind of thing that nags at my brain and keeps me awake.
Some people are so extreme...others are freaking hard to read...even when you ask them something and they give you an answer, you still feel as if you have to read them...
but it's ok.
I found myself smiling like a noob today. You know when you are just doing something random and suddenly you remember something that makes you grin like mad. It was one of those moments. It washed away a lot of annoyance I felt towards a certain individual.
There are some people in ones life who can just make you smile...even if you do really want to hit them or at least put them through some mild form of torture.
Anyway, IM SLEEEPEHHHH!!!!
Goodnight Loveliesss
Love Min
LOL, I thought it was only going to be for a couple of days and it was a full five day job.
I'm shattered its 11:30 already...I think I've been sat in a weird position because my right shoulder kills like its nobody's business.
Its strange living at someone elses house. In my house everyone goes to bed way past 12, but here everyone gets tired around 10pm.
It makes me wonder if our family just has no control over their sleeping habits and all other families actually get to bed before 11pm, but I guess every household is different.
You know, the TV in England after 10pm is just full of so much foulness.
It's like we have these really great and hilarious comedies...but they just get ruined by REALLY bad language and crude speaking. I just have to turn the off.
I CANNOT abide foul language, it's pathetic. I mean can these people not get a more extensive vocabulary??? I try so hard not to be a snob (LOL) but when I hear people swear I immediately feel superior to them.
I feel the same way about people who don't drink tea.
Anyway, today was pretty much the same as yesterday and the day before that and the day before that.
Do you know I haven't set foot outside since Monday morning? Is that even healthy?
I did however stick my head out of the patio doors for a breath of fresh air today...it was so...FRESH!
So how was Minnie feeling today??
Well...not perfect that's for sure...but I'm happy to say my skin is improving in it's clearness this week...October was the month of facial flaw for me.
The first week of November 2010 has had some TERRIBLE moments, but I am glad to say my face is improved...there is at least one think I can take from it then.
I feel like the week is slowly getting better, but I have this horrible feeling like I've missed something important...oh yeah and not being wanted...
I KNOW!!! I know there are people who want me...its an actual fact that I have been claimed more than once this week by people who I have ferociously claimed for myself. It's so wonderful when there are people who you want who want you back...but there is always that one person who likes to make it difficult for you and that is the kind of thing that nags at my brain and keeps me awake.
Some people are so extreme...others are freaking hard to read...even when you ask them something and they give you an answer, you still feel as if you have to read them...
but it's ok.
I found myself smiling like a noob today. You know when you are just doing something random and suddenly you remember something that makes you grin like mad. It was one of those moments. It washed away a lot of annoyance I felt towards a certain individual.
There are some people in ones life who can just make you smile...even if you do really want to hit them or at least put them through some mild form of torture.
Anyway, IM SLEEEPEHHHH!!!!
Goodnight Loveliesss
Love Min
Wednesday, 3 November 2010
Don't Underestimate Dreamers
I'm going to start my blog now so that I am not posting rubbish at late night when I'm tired.
I have this weird mindset where I HAVE to post at least something once a day. I told myself earlier this year that if I wasn't going to write anything of value I just wouldn't post anything, but it feels so WRONG not to post anything.
*sigh*
I've not been home since Monday morning
11:11
Imma go put a pizza in the oven.
House is on the TV!
I really love House, I watched like 4 seasons of it in my first year at uni and I felt so brainy when I understood what they were talking about when they were speaking in medical mumbo jumbo.
My favourite character in House is Wilson!!! He's the adorable best friend...and I love his bromance with House
ASFULASJFAJSFLKAS
I've missed so many seasons of it though!! I really want to catch up. If I see the box sets on offer at a DVD store I AM SO going to purchase.
I'm happy with myself cos I've been sparing with my spending and I've earned a bit from babysitting...which it seems I will be doing until Friday now.
I'm not going to deny it, I miss home...it has a weird sort of comfort there. I saw my dad tonight though so that was ok. I asked my sister to send me some clean clothes and she sent me a pair of socks that she had already worn...LOOOOOOL
It seems to be 00:15am :/
Time flies by.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHOI SEUNG HYUN aka T.O.P. of Big Bang :D
You are an awesome dude, OVERWHELMINGLY AMAZING artist, great actor, and freaking handsome to boot.
Man, you are like so perfect - AND your ears are made out of mango pudding...thats unbeatable.
All the girls love you and all the guys wanna be you...that's crazy lush :D
I know you will never see this, but HAVE AN AWESOME DAY!!!
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Yeah, I know it isn't as spazzy as my message for GD on his birthday...but I feel TOP deserves a more classy message.
Its like...with TOP you'd wanna go on a date with at a classy restaurant in a posh car.
With GD....you just want to lose all control of yourself and jump on him...
....yeahhh.
So Dora and I watched Iron Man 2 tonight.
I was getting all emotional earlier because I REALLY MISS MY DOG! I saw my dad walking out of the door and I wanted to just go home with him.
I even asked Sarah to film him and upload it on MSN so I could see him.
She was like,
D:
but its ok, I will just get along here and enjoy myself, because there is no point in being grumpy.
You only have every moment once...you can't afford to ruin it by being moody or nasty, it does leave a mark...and you never know how you affect the people around you.
I have such a huge rant right now...but I shall guard my feelings...wouldn't want to test any ones patience...like they seem to love testing mine, which it seems I have to reboot constantly the past few days.
What else can a I do when I have no idea why a person behaves like they do?
Paste a smile on my face and vomit rainbows for them...love is weird like that.
You know what else I love? Baby elephants? Actually I just love elephants in general.
The fact that they are so cute you don't even realize how strange they actually are.
You have to think about an elephant remove all your emotion when you look at it and you realize that it is actually a fiercely weird creature.
They are HUGE. Their noses are so long that they can reach the floor. They use their ears as air conditioning. Their skin doesn't seem to fit them. And they eat almost constantly. They can get into huge rages and are one of the most dangerous species on earth.
If a HUMAN was to look/act like this...it would be the most unattractive human ever...but we find these creatures to be cute and they are one of the most loved and popular animals.
I guess that's what its like with certain people...they can be strange and unexplainable, unimaginably confusing at times, they can be made up of almost 99% ridiculous, treat you like crap...and yet they are your elephant...
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Now is it just me or is facebook becoming increasingly rubbisher? What is with the tiny writing and 'See friendship'
What is that?
TUMBLR IS NOT WORKING AND THE WORLD IS ENDING!!!
*calms down*
I should go to sleep but, I don't want to think about stuff that will make me want to cry, because I'm happy right at the moment, but I feel like I'm walking on a knife edge and just the tinyest drift in my emotion will make me UGHHHHHHHHHHH!
I am also getting an increasing urge to dabble with my creative writing skills and am considering adding like an 'extension blog' to this one for like short stories and poetry and stuff that comes to mind.
And its not gonna be like one of those emo poetry/creative writing blogs either...my mind is not ALWAYS centred on emotional potentially depressing things. I once filled a whole notepad with silly poetry about penguins and inanimate objects.
but I'm just thinking about it anyway...its a thought.
ALLRIGHT!
I will sleep now as it is ALMOST 1am.
Good night everyone :D
Love From Minnie
P.S. If you are on twitter don't forget to trend #happybirthdayTOP...do it once at least...even if you aren't a fan or don't know who TOP is :D
FOR ME :D (long shot)
LOVE YOUUUUU
I have this weird mindset where I HAVE to post at least something once a day. I told myself earlier this year that if I wasn't going to write anything of value I just wouldn't post anything, but it feels so WRONG not to post anything.
*sigh*
I've not been home since Monday morning
11:11
Imma go put a pizza in the oven.
House is on the TV!
I really love House, I watched like 4 seasons of it in my first year at uni and I felt so brainy when I understood what they were talking about when they were speaking in medical mumbo jumbo.
My favourite character in House is Wilson!!! He's the adorable best friend...and I love his bromance with House
ASFULASJFAJSFLKAS
I've missed so many seasons of it though!! I really want to catch up. If I see the box sets on offer at a DVD store I AM SO going to purchase.
I'm happy with myself cos I've been sparing with my spending and I've earned a bit from babysitting...which it seems I will be doing until Friday now.
I'm not going to deny it, I miss home...it has a weird sort of comfort there. I saw my dad tonight though so that was ok. I asked my sister to send me some clean clothes and she sent me a pair of socks that she had already worn...LOOOOOOL
It seems to be 00:15am :/
Time flies by.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHOI SEUNG HYUN aka T.O.P. of Big Bang :D
You are an awesome dude, OVERWHELMINGLY AMAZING artist, great actor, and freaking handsome to boot.
Man, you are like so perfect - AND your ears are made out of mango pudding...thats unbeatable.
All the girls love you and all the guys wanna be you...that's crazy lush :D
I know you will never see this, but HAVE AN AWESOME DAY!!!
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Yeah, I know it isn't as spazzy as my message for GD on his birthday...but I feel TOP deserves a more classy message.
Its like...with TOP you'd wanna go on a date with at a classy restaurant in a posh car.
With GD....you just want to lose all control of yourself and jump on him...
....yeahhh.
So Dora and I watched Iron Man 2 tonight.
I was getting all emotional earlier because I REALLY MISS MY DOG! I saw my dad walking out of the door and I wanted to just go home with him.
I even asked Sarah to film him and upload it on MSN so I could see him.
She was like,
'Hell no.'
D:
but its ok, I will just get along here and enjoy myself, because there is no point in being grumpy.
You only have every moment once...you can't afford to ruin it by being moody or nasty, it does leave a mark...and you never know how you affect the people around you.
I have such a huge rant right now...but I shall guard my feelings...wouldn't want to test any ones patience...like they seem to love testing mine, which it seems I have to reboot constantly the past few days.
What else can a I do when I have no idea why a person behaves like they do?
Paste a smile on my face and vomit rainbows for them...love is weird like that.
You know what else I love? Baby elephants? Actually I just love elephants in general.
The fact that they are so cute you don't even realize how strange they actually are.
You have to think about an elephant remove all your emotion when you look at it and you realize that it is actually a fiercely weird creature.
They are HUGE. Their noses are so long that they can reach the floor. They use their ears as air conditioning. Their skin doesn't seem to fit them. And they eat almost constantly. They can get into huge rages and are one of the most dangerous species on earth.
If a HUMAN was to look/act like this...it would be the most unattractive human ever...but we find these creatures to be cute and they are one of the most loved and popular animals.
I guess that's what its like with certain people...they can be strange and unexplainable, unimaginably confusing at times, they can be made up of almost 99% ridiculous, treat you like crap...and yet they are your elephant...
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Now is it just me or is facebook becoming increasingly rubbisher? What is with the tiny writing and 'See friendship'
What is that?
TUMBLR IS NOT WORKING AND THE WORLD IS ENDING!!!
*calms down*
I should go to sleep but, I don't want to think about stuff that will make me want to cry, because I'm happy right at the moment, but I feel like I'm walking on a knife edge and just the tinyest drift in my emotion will make me UGHHHHHHHHHHH!
I am also getting an increasing urge to dabble with my creative writing skills and am considering adding like an 'extension blog' to this one for like short stories and poetry and stuff that comes to mind.
And its not gonna be like one of those emo poetry/creative writing blogs either...my mind is not ALWAYS centred on emotional potentially depressing things. I once filled a whole notepad with silly poetry about penguins and inanimate objects.
but I'm just thinking about it anyway...its a thought.
ALLRIGHT!
I will sleep now as it is ALMOST 1am.
Good night everyone :D
Love From Minnie
P.S. If you are on twitter don't forget to trend #happybirthdayTOP...do it once at least...even if you aren't a fan or don't know who TOP is :D
FOR ME :D (long shot)
LOVE YOUUUUU
Tuesday, 2 November 2010
I've Never Heard Silence Quite this Loud
My heart is beating like crazy...how can one sound make me so skfdhjksdhfkjsh!!!
I'm still not home yet, staying here another night.
I miss home now...and I miss people NOT stealing my laptop.
Here people keep 'borrowing' it off me and usually its at the wrong time.
I'd not spoken to my sister in almost two days and as soon as I came online someone needed to borrow my lappy for a 'minute'
Or three hours =.=
*sigh*
I think my phone is dying too. Its battery power is lessening at a rapid rate. As soon as I take it off charge it starts losing power...I guess I shall have to look for a new phone soon :D
I wonder what it will be.
To be honest phones bore me. I barely get calls or texts, but it doesn't bother me that much since I talk to most people online.
I shall just get Sarah to choose a phone for me...she knows best about that shizz.
Its 11:11...I don't make wishes, but I do pray that this week gets better, cos I'm trying to be all positive and stuff, but I feel really dank inside, like there is a stone stuck in my chest, grinding away at my heart.
I'm not a 2NE1 girl...I admire the 'I Don't Care' mentality...but I'm a complete fail when it comes to actively practising it.
Funny thing happened though, Sarah was watching the new VLOG from Bubz on youtube, and she was just videoing a trip to Macau with her friends. And then she realized that one of her friends was someone we know...and Sarah was like, 'HOW IS IT POSSIBLE THAT MIKE KNOWS HER? HE'S SUCH A BUMFACED DONKEY.!'
It was kind of hilarious and unexpected though. Too see a someone with a Leeds accent on a highly viewed youtube style guru's Vlog...
It's kind of wrong too :/
Anyway...me and YJ are totally about to take over the sbox :)Cos we OSM and gifted like that.
Other people just let it die huhuhuhu...noobs.
My life recently -
When’s the last time you talked with the opposite sex on the phone?
My dad this morning
You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?
I kissed my dogs head on Monday....so as I believe he is a person...I'm just going to assume that it was him and if so, there are no problems at all, cos he has fluffy ears and he's my little baby.
What’s one thing you’re tired of?
People's weird standards
In the last 5 months can you say you truly cared about someone?
Yeah
Do you have feelings for someone?
Yeap
Have you ever kissed the last person you texted?
I can't remember who that was...but the answer is no anyway.
Does your password have to do with a boy/girl?
Nope...LOOOOOOOOOOOOL, it is hilarious though
What sounds good to you right now?
Mind reading abilities.
If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
Probably...but I can't go back, so no regrets and learning from mistakes is the best way to go.
What if the last person you kissed walked out of your life?
Why do these things always assume you have been kissing someone? Why are they so obsessed with it?!?!?!?!?!? DDDDDDDDD:
What was the first thing you did when you woke up today?
Tried not to think about anything.
Would you rather have your parents catch you having sex or smoking weed?
Neither...I'm no needy teenager...gosh, where did all the classy people go?
Do you live near your ex boyfriend/girlfriend?
NO!!!!! SHUTUP, stupid EX BF/GF questions are stupid
Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Irrelevant question is irrelevant
Do you like to cuddle or be cuddled?
Both at once and pleasant shampoo scents.
Are you happier single or in a relationship?
Don't know...I think happiness depends on your life...relationships are just a part of life, they are not the deciders of happiness...and if you base your happiness on that then, you will be gravely dissapointed.
Have you ever had your heart broken?
No...it got pretty bashed up on Sunday now...or rather....it was gravely taken for granted...nothing new there then.
Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
They don't deserve it no....but they need it...
Have you told anyone you’d marry them?
No hahah
Name two people you miss really bad?
Sammy and some other person
Would your parents care if you came home at 3 in the morning?
No
Last person to cheer you up when you were sad?
Were sad?....the people who make me smile without having to try
Quick, look to the right what do you see?
A radiator
Could this year be any better?
Of course it could be better...what a silly question...It could be worse too.
Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over?
The only thing they have in common is that they are all weird and have frequent immature moments...as far as looks go, they all look different...apart from the fact that they all have brown eyes and dark hair.....
Is there anyone that you’d do anything for?
As long as it was legal and moral (to my standards)
Will you have a child by time you’re 18?
TOO LATE!! :D Thank goodness for that!!
Are you wearing pants?
As in trousers??? No, got a nightshirt on.
What do you think about people who smoke weed?
I don't think about them
Was the first person you talked to today boy or girl?
Girl
Who was the last person to go to your house?
I dunno, not been home for two days HUHUHUHUUH
Can you touch your toes?
YEA
Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a J?
No
Last time you laughed your head off?
Can't remember
What was the name of the last boy you were in bed with?
Never
What does your last outgoing text say?
I dont know
Has anyone told you they would never leave and left?
No
Are you a morning person or a night person?
Morning for sho.....Im so tired right now...why do I blog so late????
Excited for anything?
For this week to improve
Are you afraid to stay home alone all night?
No
Have you ever walked away from someone who was yelling at you?
Yeah
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Well that was really boring and a waste of time.
I deleted about half the questions too because they were irritating.
Im just going to chat to YJ and then sleep, she is so wonderful.
Love From Minnie
P.S. Sorry if I sounded so negative in my post...being in love is hilariously ironic at times.
I'm still not home yet, staying here another night.
I miss home now...and I miss people NOT stealing my laptop.
Here people keep 'borrowing' it off me and usually its at the wrong time.
I'd not spoken to my sister in almost two days and as soon as I came online someone needed to borrow my lappy for a 'minute'
Or three hours =.=
*sigh*
I think my phone is dying too. Its battery power is lessening at a rapid rate. As soon as I take it off charge it starts losing power...I guess I shall have to look for a new phone soon :D
I wonder what it will be.
To be honest phones bore me. I barely get calls or texts, but it doesn't bother me that much since I talk to most people online.
I shall just get Sarah to choose a phone for me...she knows best about that shizz.
Its 11:11...I don't make wishes, but I do pray that this week gets better, cos I'm trying to be all positive and stuff, but I feel really dank inside, like there is a stone stuck in my chest, grinding away at my heart.
I'm not a 2NE1 girl...I admire the 'I Don't Care' mentality...but I'm a complete fail when it comes to actively practising it.
Funny thing happened though, Sarah was watching the new VLOG from Bubz on youtube, and she was just videoing a trip to Macau with her friends. And then she realized that one of her friends was someone we know...and Sarah was like, 'HOW IS IT POSSIBLE THAT MIKE KNOWS HER? HE'S SUCH A BUMFACED DONKEY.!'
It was kind of hilarious and unexpected though. Too see a someone with a Leeds accent on a highly viewed youtube style guru's Vlog...
It's kind of wrong too :/
Anyway...me and YJ are totally about to take over the sbox :)Cos we OSM and gifted like that.
Other people just let it die huhuhuhu...noobs.
My life recently -
When’s the last time you talked with the opposite sex on the phone?
My dad this morning
You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?
I kissed my dogs head on Monday....so as I believe he is a person...I'm just going to assume that it was him and if so, there are no problems at all, cos he has fluffy ears and he's my little baby.
What’s one thing you’re tired of?
People's weird standards
In the last 5 months can you say you truly cared about someone?
Yeah
Do you have feelings for someone?
Yeap
Have you ever kissed the last person you texted?
I can't remember who that was...but the answer is no anyway.
Does your password have to do with a boy/girl?
Nope...LOOOOOOOOOOOOL, it is hilarious though
What sounds good to you right now?
Mind reading abilities.
If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
Probably...but I can't go back, so no regrets and learning from mistakes is the best way to go.
What if the last person you kissed walked out of your life?
Why do these things always assume you have been kissing someone? Why are they so obsessed with it?!?!?!?!?!? DDDDDDDDD:
What was the first thing you did when you woke up today?
Tried not to think about anything.
Would you rather have your parents catch you having sex or smoking weed?
Neither...I'm no needy teenager...gosh, where did all the classy people go?
Do you live near your ex boyfriend/girlfriend?
NO!!!!! SHUTUP, stupid EX BF/GF questions are stupid
Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Irrelevant question is irrelevant
Do you like to cuddle or be cuddled?
Both at once and pleasant shampoo scents.
Are you happier single or in a relationship?
Don't know...I think happiness depends on your life...relationships are just a part of life, they are not the deciders of happiness...and if you base your happiness on that then, you will be gravely dissapointed.
Have you ever had your heart broken?
No...it got pretty bashed up on Sunday now...or rather....it was gravely taken for granted...nothing new there then.
Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
They don't deserve it no....but they need it...
Have you told anyone you’d marry them?
No hahah
Name two people you miss really bad?
Sammy and some other person
Would your parents care if you came home at 3 in the morning?
No
Last person to cheer you up when you were sad?
Were sad?....the people who make me smile without having to try
Quick, look to the right what do you see?
A radiator
Could this year be any better?
Of course it could be better...what a silly question...It could be worse too.
Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over?
The only thing they have in common is that they are all weird and have frequent immature moments...as far as looks go, they all look different...apart from the fact that they all have brown eyes and dark hair.....
Is there anyone that you’d do anything for?
As long as it was legal and moral (to my standards)
Will you have a child by time you’re 18?
TOO LATE!! :D Thank goodness for that!!
Are you wearing pants?
As in trousers??? No, got a nightshirt on.
What do you think about people who smoke weed?
I don't think about them
Was the first person you talked to today boy or girl?
Girl
Who was the last person to go to your house?
I dunno, not been home for two days HUHUHUHUUH
Can you touch your toes?
YEA
Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a J?
No
Last time you laughed your head off?
Can't remember
What was the name of the last boy you were in bed with?
Never
What does your last outgoing text say?
I dont know
Has anyone told you they would never leave and left?
No
Are you a morning person or a night person?
Morning for sho.....Im so tired right now...why do I blog so late????
Excited for anything?
For this week to improve
Are you afraid to stay home alone all night?
No
Have you ever walked away from someone who was yelling at you?
Yeah
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Well that was really boring and a waste of time.
I deleted about half the questions too because they were irritating.
Im just going to chat to YJ and then sleep, she is so wonderful.
Love From Minnie
P.S. Sorry if I sounded so negative in my post...being in love is hilariously ironic at times.
Monday, 1 November 2010
Simple
I woke up at 6:45 today.
I SLEPT SO WELL!! It's ridiculous.
But anyway when I woke up I couldn't get back to sleep because of my thoughts.
ALSO, Sam still doesn't realize 6am is the new 5am....His body clock still hasn't caught up with the extra hour since the clocks went forward...therefore he will be waking me up too early for like a week.
But enough of the daylight savings talk!
It is now 00:32
And I am tired and my tummy hurts and there is a computer on in my room which is driving me crazy and I have no Idea how to turn it off....and I don't want to lose anything that might be open on it.
I'm not at home btw. Babysitting again.
But I am a tiny bit homesick....I know weird right?
I dunno, maybe its because I'm tired...this week didn't have a very good start so I'm trying my best.
My interview went smoothly.
Today wasn't as much of a trial as I thought it would be.
Though I was kind of smiling through clenched teeth the whole time.
At least when you have a few trials it helps you to remember Who you should really keep in charge of your life.
I am prone to getting frustrated and emotional....not in public, just inside my head and my heart.
I can't trust myself to do the right thing at the right time, or say the right thing at the right time.
And when I get hurt because of my noobness, I realize that I let my trust in God slip....again. I should stop trying to take things into my own hands.
Nothing is mine...everything I have was given to me.
So I guess tonight I'm remembering that...and remembering to be thankful.
And remembering not to take anything for granted...and realising that I'm VERY blessed to be who I am, despite my faults.
And feeling confident in who I am because God made me like this...I guess He thought I could be of use to some people....those who don't mind a somewhat slow, stubborn and eccentric person to be in their lives...
And I'm just so tired. but but but IIII love youuuu :D
So Goodnight Everyone,
From Min
P.S. If I had rules concerning friendship my new rule would be this - Don't compare me with anyone who isn't me...I'm the only one who is me in the whole world...No-one can live up to being me,...and the same goes for you too...so feel special...cos you are.
Also...don't expect me to be someone else either...otherwise you will be utterly disappointed...why would I want to be a fake version of someone else, when I can be the real me???
I SLEPT SO WELL!! It's ridiculous.
But anyway when I woke up I couldn't get back to sleep because of my thoughts.
ALSO, Sam still doesn't realize 6am is the new 5am....His body clock still hasn't caught up with the extra hour since the clocks went forward...therefore he will be waking me up too early for like a week.
But enough of the daylight savings talk!
It is now 00:32
And I am tired and my tummy hurts and there is a computer on in my room which is driving me crazy and I have no Idea how to turn it off....and I don't want to lose anything that might be open on it.
I'm not at home btw. Babysitting again.
But I am a tiny bit homesick....I know weird right?
I dunno, maybe its because I'm tired...this week didn't have a very good start so I'm trying my best.
My interview went smoothly.
Today wasn't as much of a trial as I thought it would be.
Though I was kind of smiling through clenched teeth the whole time.
At least when you have a few trials it helps you to remember Who you should really keep in charge of your life.
I am prone to getting frustrated and emotional....not in public, just inside my head and my heart.
I can't trust myself to do the right thing at the right time, or say the right thing at the right time.
And when I get hurt because of my noobness, I realize that I let my trust in God slip....again. I should stop trying to take things into my own hands.
Nothing is mine...everything I have was given to me.
So I guess tonight I'm remembering that...and remembering to be thankful.
And remembering not to take anything for granted...and realising that I'm VERY blessed to be who I am, despite my faults.
And feeling confident in who I am because God made me like this...I guess He thought I could be of use to some people....those who don't mind a somewhat slow, stubborn and eccentric person to be in their lives...
And I'm just so tired. but but but IIII love youuuu :D
So Goodnight Everyone,
From Min
P.S. If I had rules concerning friendship my new rule would be this - Don't compare me with anyone who isn't me...I'm the only one who is me in the whole world...No-one can live up to being me,...and the same goes for you too...so feel special...cos you are.
Also...don't expect me to be someone else either...otherwise you will be utterly disappointed...why would I want to be a fake version of someone else, when I can be the real me???
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