Saturday 23 April 2011

Weird Dreams :)

I've spent the greater part of today crocheting like a granny on speed.

I feel I've found my inner elderly person 40 years too soon - feels intense man.

I felt so good as I walked into the craft shop yesterday and took arm fulls of wool from the shelves. It was a life changing moment for me.

It felt even better when I finally got home and connected a new ball of wool to my rapidly growing quilt.

You really have to try this shizz my friends. It will give you such a new perspective on everything! I was texting my friend (who also has a crocheting addiction) and I feel like she and I have this great new understanding on things. We send messages to each other asking 'What colour will you be adding next?' or 'How big is yours now?' (LOOOOOOOL) It's a very special friendship. We also are jogging buddies and Tom Cruise movie buddies I kind of really love her. Her level of awesomeness is beyond reason.

How do I even know these kinds of people?! I am so blessed!

Do you know? There is nothing more annoying than seeing emo-ness when you are at a good stage in life. It's like, it reminds you that there are times when you will want to just cry into your pillow.

I don't really want to remember the last time I did that...for the wrong reason at least - like heartbreak.
I don't mind crying because of intense happiness and gratefulness.

Ok so Easter weekend has many wonderful things about it.
The beginning of a new Doctor Who series is one of those reasons.
Ok I just need to freak out a little -

ADSIFHLKSDJF AKSDGHLAKSDJGLKASDJGLKASDJGLKASDJLKasd!!!!!
TODAYS EPISODE WAS JUST MIND BLOWINGLY GOOD!
THE PROPORTIONS OF GOODNESS JUST PROBABLY CANNOT BE MEASURED WITH
ANY SORT OF MEASURE THERE IS OUT THERE!
ITS LIKE AWESOMENESS OF QUANTUM LEVELS!
IF YOU HAVE NOT SEEN IT THEN PLEASE PLEASE WATCH IT!
YOU WILL HONESTLY THANK ME AND SAY 'OH MINNIE, IM SO GLAD YOU REFERRED ME 
TO WATCH THIS BECAUSE IT WAS ONE OF THE BEST THINGS MY EYES HAVE EVER COMPREHENDED!'
TODAYS EPISODE MADE ME LAUGH, FEEL DISTRESSED, SCARED, AND COMPLETELY AWED OUT!
CANNOT WAIT FOR NEXT WEEKS! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOO

Yeah, so after I finished watching it I had that feeling - you know, where you want to scream but can't - and I had to somehow direct my spazzing somewhere. So I sent a text to my friends brother telling him how wonderful Doctor Who was and he was like 'Is that something like Star Wars?' (because he has actually experienced the sheer force of my Star Wars obsession when he unfortunately stated that the said movies were rubbish in my presence). I think I may appear slightly mad to the poor dear.

Anyway, this episode of Doctor Who had these aliens who appeared and were like MAJORLY SCARY but when when the people turned away from looking at them they forgot about seeing them.

IT WAS SO SCARY! AND IT WAS A TWO PART EPISODE AND LEFT ON A CLIFF HANGER AND I ALMOST CRIED WITH sFHAKSDJGHSLKDHGLKASDGKANSDGKL-NESS!

I DON'T KNOW HOW I WILL SLEEP TONIGHT!

(for more reasons than one - I have a tummy predicament!)

Easter Sunday tomorrow. I've decided to wear my dress which I have only ever worn once before and I will probably regret because tomorrow when I wake up I will not feel bothered enough to make myself look presentable. And then of course I will feel very self conscious about the fact that I wont be wearing trousers and will be uncomfortable all day long.

I am getting better with controlling my awkward tendencies, but I still have them.

Like the other night, when I was still at convention a group of us were talking late at night and one by one people started leaving to go to bed.

Anyway, it happened that I ended up being the last girl in the room with three guys and suddenly I felt insanely awkward - and I thought they did too.

So I was like, 'Awwwkwwaaarrrrrdddd.'

And then one of them said,

'I don't feel awkward, do you?'

and the other one shook his head.

And my friend just looked at me and smirked knowing that I felt even more awkward now.

So I was just like,

'OKKKKKKKKK then...I'm just going to go to bed now because I feel incredibly awkward.'

THEN when I brushed my teeth that night, I saw that my top lip had actually blown to incredible proportions and my face looked horrendous and I felt even worse knowing that I had looked like that as well as feeling great awkwardness!

OH MY LIFE!

Ah well, its a memory.

My friend told me a few days later that after I'd left, one of the other guys had said,

'Well, we are obviously not animals, because she can't manage us.'

=.= Really funny stuff dude......

And on that note, I shall go to sleep. I should really publish my tales of strange experinces.

I will save the story of the spider for another day.

LOVE YOU MANYS AND LOTS!

From Minnie (whose evening just got a whole lot better - not going into detail)

MUAAAHHHHHHHHH

Friday 22 April 2011

A Glorious Day

Today is Good Friday.

It's a special day, not only for religious reasons, but also because it means everyone gets the day off work, which of course means I can spend time with the family.

On that note.

My family all went out without me to see these people who live on a farm where lots of lambs have been born.

This means I'm waiting for them to get home. I don't know why, we have no plans.

I would kind of adore to go to a craft shop though. I've run out of wool for the quilt I'm making - it's pretty much the end of the world.

You know what it's like. You start something, get INCREDIBLY involved in it and then suddenly something happens that halts the progress and it's quite distressing!

Oh my goodness! I've just realised that I have a relationship with a quilt.

I guess it has to be this way though - I have very specific taste in the male of my species and like 99% of the selection I am in contact with do not come up to scratch.

They do not reach the standard of weirdness I need in an individual. THEY fail!

Therefore, I make quilts and get very attached to them.

Don't get me wrong though. There is a very definite 1% of maleness who I am becoming increasingly fond of - and yes, the weirdness level is through the roof - I wont go into more detail than that.

FISH!

So yeah I need at LEAST! Two balls of red wool, two balls of white wool and two balls of black wool. So if anyone is involved in the wool manufacturing business just let me know.

The continuation of glorious weather is certainly inspiring my creativity.

Yesterday I spent the entire morning and afternoon sat in the garden with paper and pencils drawing my little heart out. I'm extremely happy with the result. I haven't been this satisfied about a picture since the (pasteldoggyincident) and I think I've FINALLY let go of my bitter issues lmao!

To add to the joy, the picture I'm drawing is actually a commission. So yeah, when it's finished I get money. Can it get better? I'm enjoying pushing forth with my ability and I get payed for it!

This must be how professional footballers feel!

Christiano Ronaldo eat your heart out ;)

I'm sure my dog thinks he is a boss. He's just lying on the sofa, with his eyes half shut soaking in the suns rays that are pouring through that window (because the curtains fell off the wall). The whole image embodies the phrase 'It's a dogs life' to perfection.

This Easter weekend I will be in Manchester with the family. If the sunshine continues to blaze down on this green and fertile land an alfresco dinner on Easter Sunday is in the works.

Dinner in grandmas garden is perhaps one of my favourite things to do. I think I love it because it means I don't have to wear shoes.

In a perfect world I would never have to wear shoes. In fact, there was one holiday - I must have been about 14 or 15 - I actually spent the whole week unshod like a homeless person. Those were the days!

Lord! It's not even midday yet! Its crazy how some days seem so slow and yet the weeks go by so fast. When you are a child everything takes forever, but when you get to the summertime of your life it all speeds up. It's hard to keep up with sometimes. Especially if you are me. I'm a plodder. I like to plod through life in a half awake state. It's an extremely bad habit of mine and I'm trying to conquer it.

You know, I have very attractive friends. Its amazing how I have managed to survive with so much beauty coming at me from every angle and place and wherever!

So much beauty within too.

It's so lovely to have people who you can look at and say, 'I just love you.' without having to explain why.

You don't have to say, 'Its because of the way you push your hair out of your eyes.' or 'I love you because of your cute mannerisms.'

All that shizz, although very endearing, is not that knowingness you get. I can't describe it - it's like a really sure knowledge that when you think of a person - you just know you love them. And then all the rest grows from that.

Friendship is a beautiful thing. Such a strong bond and highly underrated and also taken for granted!

You are an idiot if you take it for granted, and a stupid idiot at that!

Now I shall go and draw for a wee while (and by 'wee' I mean 'little' not urine).

Have a beautiful day and for all those who are celebrating the day our Saviour took our shame upon Himself so that we be whole and without guilt, lets rejoice in our freedom together!

A life without chains! Such glory is ours!

Love Minnnnnnnnnnnn

P.S. AND CHOCOLATE EGGS ARE OURS TOO!

Wednesday 20 April 2011

Im So Stupid in Love!

Yesterday I had a VERY eye-opening experience. Well it was more like a slap in the face for me.

I got kind of upset by it and went to bed at like 9pm LOL...I do that you know, when I get upset by something I go to bed as early as poss.

Anyhoo, reality has hit me forcefully...in the form of a VERY awful decision by the job centre. Basically, I have to do a course in retail until July - every day - from 9am to 4pm.

One thing is clear to me - I WILL not be doing that course.

There are many reasons why.

Firstly, this type of course was made for people who have not had the opportunity to finish basic education and have to learn a skill. It is TOTALLY inappropriate for me who has completed higher education to be doing such a course. Not for snobbish reasons, but because someone who needs it could be going without because I am taking up space.

Secondly, I have better things to do with my time. I'm going away in May to help a charitable and worthy cause and I really don't plan on giving that up to satisfy the government. I will quite gladly give up job seekers allowance if that is what it comes to.

Thirdly, you only get 5 days holiday from this course. I plan on going away with my family for 10 days - nuff said. My family time, especially since my grandma is going on holiday with us this year, is FAR more important to me than financial benefits.

Therefore my friends - by faith I will give up job seekers financial services and trust God has something super duper for me - which He has. I am in awe of His provision in advance. He is incredible and beautiful and I am His :)

Other than that issue! I HAVE HAD A GORGEOUS DAY!

Did you know how glorious England is in summer? It makes me overflow with national pride.

Its ESPECIALLY amazing when Big Bang bring out amazing summerful anthems to blast out of the speakers!
The boys have completely surpassed themselves this year.

Me and my sister have been amazing VIPS too. This year so far we have converted about 5 of our friends to big bang fandom. WE ARE ROLLIN BAYBAY!

Its so satisfying to see our English friends posting Big Bang related stuff on facebook or other such social sites. SPREAD THE LOVAGE!

Its been such good weather that I've taken my dog for three walks today and its only 7 pm. Samuel is a very happy chappy at the moment. It wont be long before everyone starts complaining about how hot it is. We British people are never actually satisfied with our country's meteorology. Its ingrained in our genetics to never be completely satisfied with anything. Allthough, we all agree that our country is the best overall - which it is - sorry other countries XD

My sis is currently out riding her pony. I'm very happy that she is able to go out riding again. Over winter she didn't seem to be doing anything but mucking out poo and wee. It's nice that she is actually able to have fun with her pet now!

Recently, I've been CRAVING the beach. No, more like INTENSELY CRAVING the beach. It's probably because its freakishly close to our annual holiday and Its been almost a year since I have hurled my body into those crazy alive waves! I think there is a part of me that would quite happily live on a beach permanently. I'm superduper looking forward to reuniting with the Atlantic ocean. Now it would be almost perfection if I could surf properly. My life would be complete!

I was applying suncream to my fair epidermis earlier and the smell just transported me to summer and the waves and the sand and the glory of Gods fine creation and now I think I have a suncream addiction - it will go nicely with my caffeine addiction, but have less side effects when I have withdrawal symptoms. Unless, crying is a side effect, because I do feel sad when its time for winter and dark days and no suncream.

BUT YEAAHHHH BABY! SUMMERTIME IS OOONNNNNN!

I should go now for two reasons.

One, I am wearing COMPLETELY inappropriate clothing for Bible Study, which is at our house today and starts in 35 mins. I should change because some people wont appreciate shorts and tanktops for these sorts of occasions although I don't think Jesus really gives two hoots. I can't expect people to be Him though so I will change out of respect for them.

Secondly, I have to tidy the kitchen. Should have started that like 10 mins ago or summink!

SEE you later my darls!

Lotsa lovins for youuuu!

Minnnnn

Sunday 17 April 2011

Me Homies and Homie Times

I know I know.

I haven't blogged in like two thousand million years. However, I HAVE BEEN TERRIBLY BUSY!

Honestly, I've been upon cloud 9 for about 2 weeks. Today however, reality has slapped me in the face - I am kind of on a downer, don't worry though, I WILL DEFEAT it.

I'm glad to say it is the type of downer that has come from a good thing.

You see, I've spent pretty much three months of this year working with friends, living with them, messing with them, talking with them and crying with them.

And when that kind of experience is suddenly over and you have to leave them - well, its really hard...especially in some cases.

AND on top of all this emotion - there is another complicated thing going on, which I am struggling with...struggling with it far more than I ever thought I would.

OH MY HEAD!

Did you know that my phone burps when I get text messages? My parents hate it. I love it.

Lets just say this - Why U no burp a lot for me in the past two days, phone? I going crazy! T__________T

So anyway, the event we have been organising went perfectly. It was a HUGE success. And my team were just too good to be true. We bonded so much this year.

Can't you just feel the love? XDDD Yeah the one in the centre of the heart is me. Im the centre of the LOOOVE!


And this is us on the final day before we all went home, you have no idea how reluctant I was to leave.


Some other moments of bonding -





In fact - we all miss each other so much that we've already planned a reunion in July. Camping in the lake district for a weekend. This will mainly involve - marshmallows and arguing - because as you all know, the more you get to know people the more you can openly show your annoyance - but mostly lots of lovin' and hugs. We all hug each other an awful lot.

When I got home. The lack of hugs was almost unbearable LOL

Anyway, I'm going away again for the whole month of May to help with the after-shock of the event. Making lists for next year and stuff. I have mixed emotions about the whole thing.

Especially about the the fact that after a month I will have to come back to Leeds and its going to be REALLY hard for me to be away from them all again. I also have absolutely no feelings of attachment to the city that I live in and I wouldn't care if my family decided to uproot and leave it - but that is a whole other matter.

Another issue is, I'm not getting payed for all this work. Its all voluntary and I;m not being able to properly search for a job. Well, actually it probably should be an issue, but its actually not.

Before I started working for this project, I had a job interview. As you all know I am a Christian and I really reeealllly want to be living Gods plan for my life. Anyway, I was feeling REALLY good about this interview, but then I started getting this feeling that I should be doing the voluntary work instead. So I prayed to God and was like,

'Lord, whatever happens, let it be what You want, because You know best - You are God after all.'

Well it turns out, I didn't get the job and honestly - I was relieved.

And you know, even though I'm not getting payed. I'm working for a worthy cause and helping people I love and making amazing friendships and I really do believe my life has changed for the best. I'm just overwhelmed and feel so satisfied and really good!

I swear I don't deserve what God has given me the past few years in terms of friendship. My gorgeous BBVIPers and now my lovelies from ESC and beyond. I'm pretty sure I know all of the best people who were ever created.

LOL as I type my love of my friends, my sister throws a basket at my head in a rage and I call her a pig - talk about ruining the mood. I should probably invest in some sisterly bonding before she starts irrationally hating me for spazzing about people who aren't her.

I should go to sleep now.

Goodnight!

Love Minnie

P.S. OMG! I JUST GOT A BURP. YOU CANNOT REALISE HOW HAPPY I AM! I WAS HONESTLY READY TO CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP AND ASK JESUS TO TAKE MY BURDEN FROM ME SO IT WOULDN'T HURT SO MUCH  HAHAHAHA *calms down*

Saturday 2 April 2011

Challenge Day 6: Your best friend

This question is a nice easy one after having two days of difficulty.

Leaving out divine friends, because you know, thats obvious, but God is everyone best friend if they allow Him.

So yes, my best friend in this life is my sister.

It's that simple.

The fact is. She is the only person (other than Sam) who has seen me dance in the kitchen - so it is clear that the trust levels are beyond any other connection I have.

and also, we share the same DNA. So I will never ever ever ever be able to get away from her!

OMG DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:

Thats SCARY!

Sometimes we actually plan not to talk to each other, because we think the same things at the same time and it's just completely unhealthy for two people to be so in sync.

Like today I was talking to her on the phone and we both said,

'So, what are you having for dinner?'

At the exact same time.

It was some creepy ass shizz!

So this is why we often say,

'Lets not talk today.'
To avoid such terrible terrible things!

So what can I say about my sister?

Well - people laugh at her face a lot - in the nicest possible sense.

She has a pony called Tia.

She is very tall even though she is younger than me and it's just wrong.

She loves Chansung and Francisco

She wants to go to Brazil because Francisco is there

She dislikes feet and moths

She was born in 1994

Her first word was 'doggy' even though we didn't have one then.

ERMMMMMMMMMM....

She has a scar on her nose where I threw a metal tea coaster at her

She has a scar on her finger where I slammed the door on it.

She has an abusive older sister...LOL JK

She LOVES Oguri Shun

Her favourite character in Avatar the Last Airbender cartoon is Sokka

Her favourite footballer is Javier Hernandez because she thinks he LOOKS like Sokka

She hates corn

She always likes the 'other guy' in dramas...you know the one who never gets the girl?

She is good at drawing, but doesn't think she is, but she actually is a lot better than I was at her age.

She wants a Bentley because bad ass people have Bentleys

She wants to call her child 'Poseidon'

Her fave Big Bang member is TOP, but she definitely loves them all....but she secretly loves TOP more

Every time she hears Chansung sing she says, 'That's my Chansung.'

She is actually very kind, but she doesn't have time for people who are idiots.

She thinks a lot of people are idiots.

I'm the only idiot she has time for.

but she likes silly people a lot.

And I am this persons sister :D

And I also have to go out now

And this blog has taken me like thousands of days to write :(

IM SORRY!

I LOVE YOU!!!

LOVE FROM MINNIE! sdkfhkjsdhfkjshdfkjhsdkjfhksjdhfkjshdfkjshdfkjshfkjshdf