Proving Love

*Siiighhhh*


I am so darn full...a day of constant eating does tend to do that to me...my stomach has been stretched beyond comprehension.

It's been soooo nice though.

I couldn't sleep properly last night...I don't know if it was because I was excited for Christmas or the fact that I heard my mum and grandma sneak in at about 1am and bring presents in for us to find when we woke up.

To be fair...I was half in and half out of consciousness, but the awake part of me knew what was going on...I think I actually made a sound.

You know those irritated sounds you make when you are nearly asleep and then something disturbs the transition into sleepfulnes and you make a

'AFLASFHKLJSLFKAJ' sound???

Yeah, well I'm quite sure I made one of those sounds.

Then of course, it was kind of hard to drop off when I knew there were presents right near my nose.

Another thing that was unhelpful with my trying to sleep was the fact that I had nested in my sleeping bag on the rug in front of the fire and for some reason (well, the reason is - I LOVE SLEEPING ON THAT RUG) I woke up at three am because I became convinced in my dreams that the fumes from the fire were going to kill me when I slept and I would die before Christmas Day 2010.

So then I crept on the sofa on which Sarah was sleeping and fell asleep until 9am then I woke up...before my younger sibling and started to open my presents.

I WAS SO SPOILED AND BLESSED THIS YEAR!!!

Im so happy happy happy!!! I have some new pastels and they are so colourful and lush I can't even begin to describe my joy.

When they fell out of the colourful christmassy paper I almost pee'd myself with joy at the sight of them.

THEN THEN!! Get this my loves...I OPENED ANOTHER PRESENT AND THERE WERE MORE PASTELS IN IT!!!

ONLY ONLY!! THIS TIME...they were the fine ones...you know??? skinny pencil type ones so I can do those little annoying details that always smudge when I try and do them???

Omgd the happiness overflowed!!!

I got so much more stuffs too...I'm completely happy and feel so blessed and loveliness.

I'm wearing my new Star Wars T shirt too!!!

It LOOKS WELL AWESOME!! I'm very happy with it. When I opened it I got scared when I saw the tag and it said '11 years old' because I had a fleeting thought that it might not fit me and be too short... but it was fine...I'm not even lying, I feel so attractive wearing the Millennium Falcon on my tummy and having the Star Wars logo scribed across my chest...but everyone else thinks I'm immature.

Ok what else did I get.

I got two pairs of slippers, one pair are shaped like scottie dogs...I will enjoy having dogs on my feet.

Annd I got a snuggie thingy WHICH WILL BE OSMMMMM when I am trying to get warm on the sofa at home...but if I am watching Coffee Prince I usually start heating up from the inside anyway.

I got A4 size pastel paper

SOCKS (of course...you have to get socks for Christmas...its like illegal not to)

A pink shirt

Some cute things from Japan from the darlings

Lots of smellies (thats what British people call those bathroom things that smell nice which people always get you for Christmas)

I remember the first year I got some smellies...I felt so grown up.

I got other stuffs too, but I forgot.

Sam opened his presents too, I took video of him ripping the paper off and spitting it out with everyone shouting,

'WELL DONE SAMMMYYYYY'

Proving that once again he is the baby of the family and we spoil him like mad.

It has been the coldest winter on record in England this year...today it was -12 degrees and the world was white with snow...although it didn't actually fall today.

but still...SNOW AT CHRISTMAS!! WOOHOOO!!!

Yes yes, I know I'm acting a little crazy...I get crazy on days like these.

I love being British you know...it's so excellent to be British...we are so weird.

I REALLY wanted to watch the Doctor Who Christmas special and I'd watched about 10 minutes of it when my other family came to visit and grandma wanted to turn the tv off because she said it was rude to watch TV when everyone was talking.

I guess I will just watch it online later....but omdays the bit I saw WAS ASFLDSNKSL and and!!! Matt Smith looks extra nommable in this episode...I mean, I always thought he was cute, but he looks slightly edible in the Christmas Episode...I was quite shocked at myself..

Darn me and my love for sci fi men...

but Doctor Who just takes the biscuit...his pronunciation is so good.

WOW, Im just so sleepy AND MY FEET ARE FREEZING!

Ohhh it's Boxing Day already!!!

Christmas day 2010 is officially over.

And on that note, I shall hitteth the sack.

Goodnight Dear Ones, I hope you had a very Merry and lovely Christmas and that you were as happy as I was ... if not, then moreso.

Love From Minnie who is VERY full

Seasons Greetings

HEY EVERYONE!!!

Its Christmas EVE!!!

I guess I have a lot to say...some good...some bad, but Imma leave off the bad stuff for the rest of the remaining year.

I want to leave 2010 behind with a light heart.

I know you take most of the crap of the old year into the new year, but the best part about it is that it gives you a chance to change things for the better.

Anyway, my internet at home is broken...which is kind of like my legs being broken lolol...but I've managed for the past three days quite well.

Though my heart did kind of ache because I missed GTOP's album release...but HAYYYY!! These things happen.

The hilarious thing is, I was JUST pressing the 'BUY' button ordering that very album when the internet broke...it literally broke that very second. LMAO.

I've decided to go easy on the fandom over the Christmas period and just enjoy the company of my family and bathe in the great feelings that are wafting all over the place.

I'm not even kidding, Christmas eve is SO magical...there is is FEEL in the air. I find it hard to describe...I don't get this feeling any other time of the year.

Thanks Jesus for being born hahaha...winter would be HORRENDOUS without Christmas.

I feel so giving...I have to give you all just a smile though cos I'm truly broke *smiles*

I thought the problem with the internet was the modem so dad bought a new one for £59 and said I have to pay him back..anyhoo it turns out it was the broadband provider that is the problem...not the modem...soooo that was a bit sahgdjasgdjha

but at least when its fixed we will have one BEAST of a modem!!! Its AWESOME powerful!! ITS THE BOSS OF MODEMS!

*cough*

I can't believe I'm blogging about a modem on Christmas Eve, wth!!

I have this huge hideocity on my chin, it just grew in the past few days and decided to ruin my chances of having half decent festive pictures...nothing new there then lmao...I'm not a photogenic person at all...the camera has some kind of peeve with me I think...well hopefully by New Years Eve my scabby face will be a ghost of Christmas past.

It was Sammy's birthday on the 19th and we all sang 'Happy Birthday' to him...even daddy (who pretends not to love him as much as everyone else, but he totally does)...MY BABY IS 9 YEARS OLD NOW!!!!!

His ears are so soft too...even though I didn't find time to give him a bath...but his ears still smell delicious and beautiful.

Mannnn Im sneezing like crazy, because I cuddled Rocky, my grandmas cat, and my allergy just fired up!!

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Grandma just brought in some early presents for us to unwrap...its kind of a Christmas eve tradition...even before opening it we know exactly what it is.

YESH BABY I GOT OSM NEW PENGUIN PJ'S and some slippers!!!

They are from La senza too..OMG SO COMFY!!!

I shall use them well all year round OHH SO SNUGGLEHHHHHHHH, I can't even....I'm actually going to put them on now...because I just have to!!!

OMG THEY ARE SO COMFEEHHHH IM NOT EVEN LYING!!!!

*calms down*

LOLOLOL

Grandma just said to Sarah,

'Your daddy and I have been eating cheese, do you want some?'

Sarah - *shakes head*

Grandma -

'Do you want chocolate?'

Sarah - *nods head frantically*

So now we have opened two boxes of chocolates and are currently shovelling the contents down our throats.

Orange creme...MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

I have this thing for orange and strawberry creme's...and also Turkish Delight...I can pick those out of the box without even looking at the paper thingy that tells you which chocolate is which....its like my nose can smell is gooey sweetness.

So I've been having to find 'other things' to do while the internet at home is kaput! I started watching Coffee Prince again dkfhsfjshdkfjhds GONG YOO is soooo dreamy...like seriously...I think he was in my dreams...last night..I think I loved him, but then he disappeared. Maybe he will come back again tonight LOLOL.

I shouldn't continue because this post will become like a dedication to the perfection of Gong Yoo and his perfect hair and height and deliciousness.

I also found Sarah's NDS and restarted playing Dragon Quest VI ...my little cousin borrowed it this time last year when I was in the middle of the game and he only just gave it back last week.

I was reunited with my 'YOUNGJAE' LMAO...I must have started playing it when I was watching Full House and named my main character after Rain's character in that drama.

Aww good times :')

Anyway, I played that for a few hours and got my characters all buffed up, so they can be all smexay and macho and beat some monster butt!!!

I get pretty rabid when I get into gameplay!!! Sooner or later you will find me screaming at the NDS screen telling all the baddies to GO TO HELL!!!

...which is probably not very nice of me...but those dudes just keep trying to kill YoungJae and I can't let that happen!!! I MEAN HE'S LIKE MY FLESH AND BLOOD FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!! I practically raised him!!! He would never be as buff as he is now without my help..

Oh man....yes I do realise I am talking about a game character...

but I'm insane so you gotta give me a bit of grace here XD

OH OH OH!!! Now we are going to put the Baby Jesus in the Crib in grandmas model Nativity and sing 'Away in a Manger' like we do every Christmas Eve...cos grandma doesn't put Jesus there till Christmas Eve cos technically He is not born until then LOLOLOL...so Imma BRB!!!

*sigh* I love doing that...its lovely...so many memories.

Im sooooo tired!!! So I'm gonna lay me head down and see if I can actually sleep, I still find it difficult sleeping on Christmas Eve...even if I am 22...Im a complete child at heart.

I'm so excited for tomorrow, we have presents from Japan from Lulu and Haito and Kaito!!! THEY ARE SO PRESH!!! I miss them SOOO MUCH!! I wanna go visit them!!!

OH OH!! and on Wednesday, Judah took his first steps!!! It was so amazing seeing him walk!!! I was just thinking,

'Ooo he looks steady today.'

So I stood him up and called him to me and HE WALKED!!!! sdhfskjdh

Dora was like,

'I CANT BELIEVE MY SON WALKED HIS FIRST STEPS TOWARDS MINNIE!!'

But she got all emotional and cried and said it was like an early Christmas present haha

It was such a high though.

So yesh I shall go and sleep now and wake up fresh for tomorrow morning :)

So good night my dearests,

I wish you all to have a glorious Christmas and are all blessed and sjfksdj and to all those I love thank you for being there, wherever you are...you make my hearts joyful all year round...some of you make my heart sad too (LOLOLOLOL) but I adore you all the same.

For all those friends I can't be with yet, I hope for the day when we exchange gifts for real, but I want you to know that just knowing you is the greatest gift you can give me and I hope that you can feel the same way about me too.

I love you my dear dear friends

I heard some song lyrics today that describe it perfectly.

I look towards the East and see a star, Jesus Christ has blessed my life to know just who you are, you are my hope ~

fdskjfskdjfskdjfksjdkfj

So yes,

HAPPY CHRISTMAS!!!!

love Minnniiiiieeeeee

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS, YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FF Hairflips

Okokokokokkk!!!!

I've had like a busybusy week....which is not normal for me...well, not usually normal, but as it is the Christmas season its exceedingly normal, because I am always active during Christmas time. It's like I awaken from my dormancy or something.

The Christmas spirit just does something to me, I become all joyful and feel the love for all mankind...and animal kind...and rock kind...all the kinds you could every think of, I FEEL THE LOVE FOR ALL OF THEM!!

I would totally buy them all presents if I had the money...maybe not the rocks, because they don't really care...but I'm sure you get me....maybe.

Today I was Christmas shopping with My sis and my friend. I got my dad and grandma the CD's they wanted and Sarah bought me my present...with my money...but we have a arrangement so it's all cool and shizz.

It's just, I really REALLY wanted that yellow Star Wars T Shirt with the millenium falcon and x-wing fighters on the front in the little boys section of NEXT!!!!...but it's for an 11 year old boy so it will totally fit me....COS BOYS SIZES ARE MASSIVE!! And also I am abnormally small for a 22 year old.

BUT THE POINT IS!!! I will have an awesome T shirt on Christmas day so I thank my sister in advance for the lushness.

And yes...I do have a Star Wars issue...it started when I was 5...developed into a full on obsession when I was 9 and now it is integrated in my whole system...it's one of those things which my future husband is going to have to deal with...along with that I really love the left nipple of a 22 year old Korean Idol star and I will probably treat my dog better than our children.

*cough*

I have a lot of issues that need to be dealt with.

The past few days I have had SO MANY weird conversations its mad!!!

I would love to retell them all here but I can't for the life of me remember them all...all I know is that I had them...I can't even remember what they were about.

My brain is just not what it used to be.

Maybe I should buy that brain training game for the Nintendo DS and give my old cranium a good workout.

I could do with giving my legs a workout too...my exercise bike is sat right behind me crying out saying,

'YOU BOUGHT ME MINNIE, WHY DO YOU NOT USE ME'

My sister just read what I wrote and said,

'I hate to break it to you darlin', but exercise bikes can't talk.'

WHUT?! Does she have NO imagination at ALL?? And I'm writing that part because I know she can see it and I find it hilarious watching for her reaction KEKEKEKEKEKEKEKE!

She is also sat on my foot...which I could stand for a while...but it gradually gets more uncomfortable.

Soooo what else can I write??

I had so much to say and then I listened to this Disney channel movie song and all I can hear are the lyrics repeating over and over in my head and it just cancels out all other thoughts I have.

I think my sister should make me a cup of tea *glances over shoulder*

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA OHHH priceless.

NOW I am listening to some J-rock my loooverrlly eonnie linked me too. The band is called Serial Number and the song is called Two-face woman...its CATCHY!!!!

I went into Monsoon today and took my time feeling ALL the dresses there!! The material is so darn lush. I could stay in that shop all day and just feel dresses. I know it sounds crazy and like a one-off Minnie thing, but it's actually hereditary, because my dad feels clothes in shops too.

We actually bring samples...like if I see a pair of chord trousers I like, I will take them too him and say,

'Don't these feel nice?'

and he'll be like,

'Oh yeah they do!'

and visa versa.

We never actually buy these clothes, it's like a weird father/daughter tradition thing.

OH OHHHH!!! I'm so happy that Manchester United are top of the premiership for Christmas. If you didn't know...being at the top on Christmas day is like a really awesome thing for football teams, maybe its superstition...but it's like a good omen.

I don't believe in luck and all that shizz...but I'm completely happy my team are on TOP where they belong.

I find it hilarious that Manchester City could have been top if they had beaten Everton the other day and they lost like noobs...which is even more hilarious-er!

AM I MAKING SENSE?!

I love football.

*sigh*

Ohhh I just overheard my mum tell my sister that my dad is going to kick me out....happy holidays.

I'm not worried though. I've been 'kicked out' so many times it's beginning to become a sort of household ritual.

...though it's never nice.

One day I will really be gone!!! THEN THEY WILL BE SORREH!!!! *dramatic music*

On Monday, lily popped up on BBVIP family sbox and shouted if anyone would write an article for the hot issue threads!! I was like.

'OO I will have a go at that!!'

So she sent me this korean site as a reference and I wrote my first BBVIP article ever.

I had so much fun...it feels like I'm force feeding my spazzing to fellow VIP's...because that is all my article was - legible spazzing.

I feel all cool though, because it got two pages worth of comments U_U

Anyway, I think my next addiction will be writing these BBVIP articles, so as long as Lily is willing to send me random Big Bang info's I will be totally willing to write long drawn out shizzle about it.

I just love Lily you know...she is a blessing.

Wow, my love of lily has poured forth onto my blog...this shows how much I love her...I only show affection for people on my blog if I really actually love them.....and if they happen to be famous people who I happen to admire...but I dont love them I just love them in the admiring kind of way.

But my friends I REALLY LOVE MY FRIENDS...you know, cos I know them...

What the hell am I talking about?

I hope you understand, because sometime when I re-read stuff that I wrote I don't even understand it.

SO YESHHHH!!!

Sammy is snoring his little head off!! and it is so adorable I just cant even!!

I will stop here for now anyway,

LATERS LOVELIES

Love Minnnnnnn

P.S. My post title for today is OSM!!!

P.S.S. I just died of some major cutage...Im so weak

Smiling Still

IM SOOOOOOOOOOOO FULL AND ABOVE ALL...TIRED AS HECK!!!

Today we had like an unnofficial 'Annual Christmas Mini Party' at our house that we invite a small company over and eat tons of food.

So I made a cake and some cupcakes and its heavy work man!!

There is still some leftover so I will try it later, because I stuffed myself too much with savouries.

I am more partial to savoury food than sweet food you see...I just make sweet food...I don't really give a shizz what happens to it after that.

The only problem with these gatherings is that outside people get to see how weird my family is, because we sometimes forget to hide it when we are in the comfort of our own home.

You know, it is dreadfully stupid of me not to go to bed early tonight...cos its another early morning tomorrow.

We are off to Manchester...weather permitting. The football match between Chelsea and Manchester United was cancelled because of the snow...I was looking forward to that as well huhuhuhu!

I will miss GTOP on Inki as well AIIIGOOOOO!!!!!

*falls to the floor crying*

Somehow I get the feeling that recently I'm trying to fill my head with lots of stuff so that I wont think too much...then get myself too tired to even think so at night I just sit there like a vegetable until I fall asleep.

Its a very effective way to act as if everything is ok...because most things are ok.

At least, everything around me is.

but, I don't think I am...

I mean come on!!! A vegetable???

*sigh*

In other news -

The Christmas decorations are finally up!!!!

They are lovely too!!! So sparkly!!!

I'm known to be a very low key person when it comes to presence and clothing....but I find sparkly things irresistible.

My sister finds it weird that I tend to gravitate to things that seem to wholly contradict myself.

But meh, would we learn anything if we only walked around with things we already knew?

Different things intrigue me, so many interesting possibilities.

Wow...I'm being so vague in this post.

I'm in that place between sleep and awake you see...it's not as romantic as Tinkerbell described it.

'You know that place between sleep and awake, the Place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you.'

It's beautiful isn't it? It makes me feel like reading the book 'Peter Pan & Wendy'
but I always cry when I read it...

LOOOOOOOL I'm completely out of it!! I should hit the sack before I write anymore confusing shizzle.

Its less than a week to Christmas now :D :D

I am babysitting again on Monday...staying over there Sunday night...I miss my bed so much, I wish to have a lushhhh nights sleep in it tonight.

Goodnight my lovelies

Love From Min

P.S. How the heck is it 1am??? Last time I checked it was only 11pm!! Ohh my word!

P.P.S. Omgd I want .... LOOOOL I totally forgot what I was going to write. How absurd.

Imagine There's a Train...

I'm so tired.

I'm babysitting and the baby has got some sort of virus.

Symptoms including - screaming and screaming down my ear and refusing to eat.

My friend also came into the house and said,

'Something smells, I think its you sweating.'

She was serious too!!

I was like in my head,

'Wait up bro, I do not smell, I know this for a fact. but wait...maybe it's your poorly baby who smells??? You know? Like poorly people tend to?'

Maybe I'm just being irritable because I've had a earful of screams all day...but man!! Its not my fault he wouldn't eat...I can't exactly insert tubes up his nose and feed him that way.

and I DON'T smell....im infamous for it...even ask my sister.

I got up at 7am this morning...I went into autopilot mode...you know, where you just get ready without thinking...because if you think you will just think yourself back into bed?

Anyway, I got myself all ready and had a cuppa tea to make sure I'd have my fix before entering the wild world...then I went downstairs to check my social networking shizzle, but lo and behold! My dad was sat at my PC watching the Cricket!!!

He was all like,

'Hey Min, why are you awake? Have you come to watch the Ashes? England are thrashing the Aussies.'

I was just all zombiefied and just agreed.

Then I missed my bus and had to wait 30 mins in the freezing sleet and cold!! It was horrendous!!!

I'm not going to go into detail about my appointment, because it was boring.

Actually other than the screaming child ( who I do love despite everything) today has been pretty boring.

The high point was watching INCEPTION again on my friends TV.

She was all like,

'MINNIE I CANT STAND THIS MOVIE!!! WHO DIRECTED THIS CRAP?!'

But that's because of the tension,...she actually really enjoyed it XD

But then her baby grabbed my Inception DVD case and mangled it up and she just watched him laughing and I was just like O: O: O:

Because you know, you can ruin ANYTHING...but please not my dvd's.

So now my Inception has been wounded in battle, but I guess the Discs aren't harmed...but still.

Am I being petty? lololol

I'm kind of like Frodo with the ring, when it comes to my DVD's.

They are my treasures outside of the ones I keep in my heart.

u_u

Ok, Im getting sooo tired now so Im gonna bid thee farewell,

Goodnight darlings

Love Min



(creditwhereitsdue)

OMG ADORBS

GHETTO ELECTRO :)

I'm just in fangirl mode at the moment.

GTOP released their MV for High High earlier today and then Sarah and I watched the Big Show 2010 DVD's she got for her birthday.

Thus, I am seriously HUGELY VIP today...I mean I'm always a VIP, but today my VIP-ness has been refreshed by so much YG goodiness.

Here is GTOP's High High MV -



I've been replaying the song all day LOLOLOL, Its so OSM!!! That party looks fuuunnnnn, I love seeing Seungri and YoungBae pop up too...but I missed Dae.

But GTOP are crazy, they just don't care, just having fun with everyone.

I LOVE THEM!!!

'G.H.E.T.T.O E.L.E.C.T.R.O'

I love that part hahah *sings along*

AND I LOVE GD'S BELT!!!! ITS SEXAAAAYYYY

I can't wait for their full album to be released, I am SO buying it and adding it to mine and Sarah's little (growing) collection. The previews sound SOOO GOOOD! sFLDSFKJSDLKFSLKDFJLKSdjf

but yes...the fangirl part of my existence has been VERY satisfied today.

There were other parts of today that were a little more....irritating.

You know those people who know you quite well and they like to torment you, but in a way that only you yourself know what they are doing?

And then when you blow up at then or show your irritation it looks like you are over-reacting or just being mean?

Well, I have one of those people...and they know what they are doing...and they know that I know that they know *shifty eyes*

GOSH my tummy hurts so much!!!!

Its now 12:15am and I have to be awake EAAAARLY tomorrow as I have an appointment at 8:30 sakjdhajkshdkjashd. but I really DUN wanna go to sleep atm...I'm not SLEEEPEHHHHHH!!!!

For Once.

Actually, I went out earlier and I felt so depressed coming home, but then I went on the forum sbox and lots of the awesomes were there and they just cheer me up IMMENSLY....most of them anyway.

Then this member came on the sbox whose username was reallywally....and I was giggling for like 20 mins straight because I just find it highly amusing.

Me and my eonnie had a nice spam about it on twitter anyway...all the people who follow us both will be cursing us for spamming up their timelines....laik we care *kekeke*

Ohhhh so Im pretty happy now...maybe I should sleep before something changes that.

It's almost 1am anyway.

GOODNIGHT!!!!

Love Min

Shizzled

YESSSSS, I finally have time to write a blog!!!

This weekend was SO FULL, but really nice.

I love going to my grandmas, I always feel so gluttonous when I'm there.

Its because she feeds us well.

My allergies have massacred me these past few days though. Because allthough I love Rocky, my grandmas cat, hugging him never helps me.

My throat is still feeling itchy.

Then this morning, I went to help Sarah with Tia (our pony) because the farrier was coming to put new shoes on her...and I'm allergic to horses too...and hay and straw.

I'm allergic to anything that is dusty.

Did you know cats AND horses have a layer of dust on their skin???

That's why people have allergies...it's very rarely to do with hair...so if someone says,

'IM ALLERGIC TO CAT HAIR!!!'

just say..

'Pffft, it's not the hair you are allergic to...ITS THE DUST!'

They will probably have no idea what you are talking about and will think you are stupid...but YOU WILL BE RIGHT!

Usually people don't like things they are allergic to, but I don't let my allergies restrict me like that.

I flipping love cats, so even if I sneeze to death and get a VERY unnatractive rash or something...I will still cuddle them.

Usually though, I take a anti-histamine tablet...so my allergies dont bother me anyway LOL

Why am I even writing about allergies?? I actually feel itchy thinking about it haha.

Last time I had the weirdest dream...it involved, narnia, mobile phones and kidnappers...and it made me wake up...I wasn't scared, I was just a bit annoyed that it didn't end satisfactorily.

You know when you wake up and the dream just fizzles out and there is no ending?

It's so disappointing.

You know when you hear these stories of people having really amazing dreams and they write it in a book and it becomes a best selling novel??

Well that will never happen to me if my dreams keep ending all limply.

Not that Im hoping for that XDDD

but it would make life so much easier if I could write a best selling novel that would earn enough money to provide for my family for like ten generations.

XDDDD

Honestly, I did stuff today, but I can't really remember because Im just quite tired atm LOL

1. What time did you get up this morning?

8:30am

2. How do you like your steak?

Well done

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?

Toy Story 3

4. What are your favorite TV shows?

Doctor Who, Merlin, House, Scrubs, Gossip Girl LOTS AND LOTS

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?

Somewhere where I would be happy...I dont have any particular places in mind, because I guess I have so many places where I would like to go...

6. What did you have for breakfast today?

I didn't have any breakfast...I had a cup of tea though.

7. What is your favourite food?


Curry...though I'm open minded about food, nothing has managed to capture my heart quite like curry can

8. What foods do you dislike?

Mushrooms and I really cant eat cherry flavoured yogurt...other than that I will eat anything.

9. Favorite Place to Eat?

The Agraa...yup, Indian restaurant haha

10. Favorite salad dressings?

honey mustard and french....Im not too keen on the creamy ones

11. What are your favorite clothes?

Anything I can wear on a beach

12. Where would you visit if you had the chance?

Korea, Japan, Brunei, Philippines, Malaysia

13. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?

half full for sure XD

14. Where would you want to retire?

I never want to retire

15. Favorite time of day

The part of the day where I am most at peace haha, I think it varies

16. Where were you born?

Manchester, England

(I deleted 18, 19 and 20 because they were irrelevant)

21. Bird watcher?

Yes, I like watching birds

22. Are you a morning person or a night person?


Morning

23. Pets?

My dog Sam

24. Any new and exciting news that you’d like to share?

Not really

25. What did you want to be when you were little?

An animator for disney

26. What is your best childhood memory?

I had a great childhood filled will innumerable memories...I think seeing my sister for the first time is the best one though.

27. Are you a cat or dog person?

Dog person :D

28. Are you married?

Yes :D ..... no

29. Always wear your seat belt?

ALWAYS! Ever since princess Diana died, I always wore a seatbelt. lol

30. Been in a car accident?

Never

31. Any pet peeves?

Several million

32. Favorite pizza topping?

Anything meaty and spicy

33. Favorite flower?

Sunflower

34. Favorite ice cream?

chocolate

35. Favorite fast food restaurant

McD I guess

36. How many times did you fail your driver’s test?

Nooonee

37. From whom did you get your last email?

Tumblr...real people dont send me emails LOL

38. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?

HMV

39. Do anything spontaneous lately?

No, but I should.

40. Like your job?

Dont have a job

41. Broccoli?

ITS SUPER!!! ESPECIALLY WITH CHEESE SAUCE

42. What was your favorite vacation

Cornwall 2010

43. Last person you went out to dinner with?

Probably my family

44. What are you listening to right now?

My own breathing

45. What is your favorite colour?

green

46. How many tattoos do you have?

ew, none

47. Coffee drinker?

Yep, on occasion

48. How many children do you have?

One

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Yeah I know its random but, Im sleepy and I have not posted anything in a few days and have lost my blogging groove a bit.

I should just sleep now!

Its cold tonight though!

Good Night

Love Minnie

Resurrect the Saint from Within the Wretch

Cos I could spend my life just trying to sift through what I could have done better, but what good do what-if's do? ~

- Forget and Not Slow Down by Relient K

I'm listening to that song, it's so amazing. It makes me think about how I tend to think about too much crap in my life and not move on.

Like my lack of motility on any direction, because I have these voices in my head that say,

'You can't do that, you can't do this, you aren't good enough, you always fail why even bother, they don't like you, you are rubbish, you don't understand anything, you will never amount to anything, your dreams are hopeless, the little confidence you have is actually false, you are of no use to anybody, you are a disgrace, you are a waste of time, you are a waste of space....'

I could go on...the funny thing is, I'm the one who is actually saying that to myself...I mean other people are mean, but no one is as mean as the judge inside yourself.

I guess why people who have low self esteems have major ego's.

Not that I have low self esteem...

you see I have two voices u_u

...scared?

I have my highly negative inner voice, beating the hell out of my personality and existence in general.

Then I have that other voice - you know, the Still Small One - the one I tend to ignore...to my disadvantage.

And then when I calm down and stop and listen and realise I was never alone - not even when I was crying my head off and begging for sleep so the ache would stop, so that I would feel some sort of peace...that at least for a few hours of the day I could have some time where I wouldn't have to think the hell out of myself.

cos when there is no-one who will hug you and when there is no one you can trust to tell everything to...I still have that Voice that tells me that everything will be ok. That I exist for a reason. That everyone needs me, even when they don't know it, that I will make a amazing life for myself, that everything in worth something.

And then when I listen...I have a better day and I can be of use to everyone I love and I make a better life for myself.

So yeah, that's why I know God is real...because that isn't my loud, irrational angry inner voice...it's someone who knows far better than I do.

And then I know I'm awesome for real and I'm not just telling myself that so I don't get suicidal tendencies.

God doesn't create anything that is un-awesome you know.

I just thought I would write something about what I believe in. Because it is very important to me. I don't just believe it because my parents do...it was my own choice.

Believe me I have argued with myself in my heart and head...

Asking myself if I just use my religion/beliefs as a safety net to get to heaven 'just in case'

but no. It actually makes me happy to be alive...more than my family, more than my interests, more than anything.

It's the only thing that has NEVER let me down.

A lot of people say,

'ohh you are goody goody...stop sucking up to people blah blah blah'

but I'm not...why should I swear if I don't want to? Why should I sleep around with 20 million guys to be a 'real woman'? Why should I do anything if I don't want to? Why should I be mean or cruel to be strong? Why should I drink myself senseless to have a good time?

Why are people so shocked?

The fact is I just don't want to...I'm happy how I am...I'm not doing anything wrong or offending anyone who DOES like to do those things.

So why do they feel like they should smirk and mock me?

AND

Why is it so hard for people to accept that you like them without an ulterior motive?

Its like they feel comfortable with you and then they stab you in the back, just in case you were thinking of hurting them.

Its like they want to win a game you aren't even playing.

It's flipping heartbreaking, especially when everything you feel about them is of maximum sincereness.

But nvm...I guess love is about being there for them, even if they beat on you...

I guess that's how you know that you really love someone.

For example (OFF THE RECORD) my sister is the person I love most in this world. I would probably die for her...or worse, sacrifice my pride for her (LMAO).

but the thought that she should feel the same way about me doesn't even cross my mind - in fact, I couldn't care less if she didn't - that's not why I love her.

Thats what love is...it can't be controlled, it's something that is given without any thought, it's constant and beautiful and most of the time it's invisible...sometimes people get so used to it that they don't even feel it.

They would feel it if it wasn't there though...

and that is the worst kind of lonliness.

Omg this post is deep LMAO!

I should totally shut up now and go to grandmas.

OH OH OH!!!

THIS SONG IS AMAZING!! I love this album!!! Its definitely going on my 'realistic Christmas List'

There is a ROCK version too!!

It's such a heavy song!

Ohhhh I just found out we are staying over at grandmas tonight...I guess that's because we are going to church there tomorrow, but my bestie wont be there because she has to go to one of her friend's babies Christening ceremonies.

That SELFISH baby!!! Taking my friend from me!!!!!

*cough*

Ok I should really get ready to go!!

Later my peeps,

Love Min

P.S. Someone on facebook who I generally dislike because they are EXTREMELY bumfaced to my sister just spelled 'Mickey Mouse' wrong and I REAALLY want to go all Grammar Nazi on him as an excuse to make him feel small...but I shall refrain...I don't want his spelling to improve because I helped him...SO NOT WORTH!!

P.S.S. My dad actually just texted my sister to tell us to get ready, rather than shouting up the stairs....HE IS FUNNEH!!!

bye bye see you!! *waves*

The Opposite of a Nice person is a Coward

I FINALLY posted something on my Posterous Blog.

Remember, the one I made specifically for creative writing like a million years ago?

Honestly, I have about 7 or 8 posts in draft form that I probably could publicise, but somehow they are just not ready to be released yet XD...not yet.

But this, it just popped into my head while I was watching the movie 'Australia' and it wouldn't remove itself from my mind so I had to write it down so it can leave e in peace.

Sooo if you like poetry, please take a look at my poor attempt ^__^

I don't mind constructive criticism!

http://nubcak.posterous.com/just-because

and while I'm at it I might as well flog my tumblr link too, just incase you'd like a browse XD.

pienso-en-ti-siempre.tumblr.com

Tumblr is being a pain in the butt this week...I'm trying to 'keep calm and carry on'...but tumblr is kind of addictive.

but like my YJ eonnie said earlier...

'blogspot is always the best'

and I completely agree...I love my blog here...its my little ranting den...the only way I keep up the appearance of being calm on the outside.

In reality I give the appearance of being a almost comatose like personality - but I guess even the quite ones have to have their outlet somewhere.

OH WOW!! I just remembered that I left my diary in my backpack downstairs!!! Not that it will get invaded...but you can't be too careful, especially when you have parents who are EXTREMELY volatile.

but actually...the last time I wrote in there was like...when I was still in Uni...so, honestly, it's not very juicy.

I tend to keep my innermost thoughts to myself...and then I post the shell of my innermost thoughts here...to taunt you XD

I'm completely tired at the moment and with good reason. I went to that seminar and it was actually quite informative and interesting - considering we were listening to a woman talk for 4+ hours, it was not that boring at all...though I have to admit...my mind did wander at some moments.

The only problem was...she didn't even cover on the subject of working overseas.

I did HINT I was interested in it...but everyone else there seemed obsessed with admin/office vocations...

What I wanted seemed a little abstract.

The only person who took the slightest bit of interest in my desired occupation was this guy called Eduardo from Spain. LMAO

I was telling him about how a good starting job opportunity for me would be to get a job in a lab which produced bacteria that they use in Yogurts.

And he was talking and his accent was REALLY strong so I don't now if I heard him right so I just said,

'yes'

He seemed happy with my answer, so Im guessing 'yes' was right LOL

But he was the nicest there...there were only two people who were around my age group there, they were both guys and they both seemed gay.

Well one had a STRONG gay vibe and the other one was blonde and thought he was awesome...so yeah.

Then there was this other woman who wanted to give students 'pastoral care' and another woman who had taken pictures of the Queen - I didn't wan't to burst her bubble but when Sarah was like 7 she went to see the Queen when she came to visit Leeds and Sarah took this freaking OSM picture of her....hummmm.

ANNYHOOO, I had very little trouble finding the place...though I had to catch four buses, which is UGHHHHH.

AND THE paths were so icy I had to walk on the roads.

Better getting knocked over my a car than slipping on the ice and looking like a noob hahahaha.

Which brings me to the end of this post...because I'm extremely tired...I've not slept since 7am yesterday morning.

Happy weekend peeps - 14 days till Christmas!! WOOHOO!

Love Minnie

My Heart is Stronger than That, You Idiot

Continuing this day, holding my temper has been easy actually...recently though, my ability to close my mind to things that irritate me is beginning to wear very thin.

It's like I'm losing my superpowers...I guess it is what happens when you start to care about things.

I have this affliction which is starting to grow on my right cheek and I'm hoping it doesn't become HUGE before tomorrow!

Sarah's new phone arrived today, it's pretty awesome, I kind of wish I had one now...she's starting to overtake me now XD

How is it that my little sister gets a phone on contract before I do?

She will probably drive before me too...at this rate.

WHY CANT A JOB JUST FALL INTO MY LAP?

Maybe I should just sell a kidney?

Sarah and I have the most awesome advent calender this year...it is a MANCHESTER UNITED, Dora bought it for us.

Dora is epik like that.

I spell epic wrong all the time now, probably because of Epik High. I LOVE THOSE GUYSES!!

My fave song of theirs is UMBERELLA

I cryyyy ~

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ :D

I'm going to try and get my parents to watch Inception with us tonight.

Obviously, we aren't going out to the movies to see the Voyage of the Dawn Treader anymore. I will never suggest that again, I'll just go out sometime next week with Sarah and go see it...Maybe Monday.

And if they say I'm trying to influence Sarah and distracting her from whatever they want her to do, I'll just go kill myself.

...I won't really...that was me being over dramatic.

I watched Eclipse today, you know, number three in the Twilight series.

It was pretty bad actually (understatement)...the plot, the dialogue...I was cringing all the way through.

It was only the werewolf eyecandy that made it even remotely watch-able.

And Bella is just the most irritating person ever...GO TO FLIPPING JACOB FOR HEAVENS SAKE!

On the other hand I also watched 500 days of Summer, and I LOVEED it!

I can't believe I've been lucky enough to watch TWO AMAZING MOVIES (Inception and 500 Days of Summer) within two days.

If you have not seen those movies, I really recommend them...It makes me wish I'd taken media so that I could get into film journalism and write EPIK reviews for those two movies...I'd be so bad at slating reviews though because I have a tendency to try and find the good in everything.

It's only a lovely coincidence that Joseph Gordon Levitt stars in both of those movies...LOVELY!

And Zooey Dechanel looks like my mum when she was young...I never realised it before, but she does.

My mum was always the prettiest compared with all my friends mums....kekeke

Sometimes Sarah and I get shocked looking at pictures of when we were little and she is there looking like some kind of princess.

Though this morning she was more like...a dragon.


UHHHH anyway I must sleep, Im shattered and sfsjkdhfkjshdfkjshdkfj and not looking forward to tomorrow at all!!

Night Everyone,

Love from Minnie

I'm Faking my Own Suicide, Because I Know You Love Me, You Just Never Realised~

I have had the weirdest morning.

I woke up and took my dog for a pee and then made a brew for myself and my mother.

and I was like joyful and feeling good (even though through the night I found it hard to get to sleep because these scenarios kept playing in my head - you know where you are arguing with someone, trying to convince them of things, but they just wont listen every time and it drives you crazy because you are so scared that they will never accept what you say as the truth?....yeah, this is why you should never let the sun go down on your anger LOL....I'm not angry any more though XD)

So yeah and tea in the morning is like the greatest invention EVER! Its the best wakeup IN THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD!

I just felt so proud of myself because I'd FINALLY woken up before 9am after so many days of rising after 10am.

I was feeling so good!! (don't worry, I still am) I EVEN decided to work out this morning, because I felt that I needed some exercise because this week I've just been so gluttonous!! It's like the 'seven deadly sin' that I am most prone to.

Then SUDDENLY! I heard all hell break loose downstairs, and I was like

'WOAH'

(exactly like the turtle Crush? in finding nemo - I had a poster of him on my wall for years HAHAH)

It turns out my mum had completely flipped out because she couldn't find my sisters ponys passport and was screaming at my sister for misplacing it.

Because the vet was coming today to give Tia (Sarah's pony) her flu injection and you have to have the passport.

Though in the end I figured out that the passport wasn't really the issue with her and it was more of a - My children are huge dissappointments and I want to make them feel really small and insignificant just to prove my dominance - kind of rage.

So this morning I learned that -

The friends I have CHOSEN myself are not even real people.

I should suck up to the people I didn't choose to be around

All the desires and dreams I have are futile, because I am alive purely to advance the lives of my parents.

I am of no value or asset to the family

I am immature because I thought it would be nice for us all to go to the movies together...but apparently

'going to see a movie doesn't make people who have jobs happy'

and yes, that is a real quote - I promise I will never suggest going to the cinema ever again...just in case I offend people who have jobs.

My desire to see the world is WRONG and the right thing to do is stay in Leeds forever and ROT.

I'm a snob because I don't lose my temper in public

And Its ok to be late for work when you have family members to scream abuse at, but if you get out of bed a little later than normal on a day when you have no plans at all you are a waste of space.

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AND ITS ONLY 10:30!!!

I wonder what else I will learn on this FINE December morning.

Considering all this, I'm still feeling pretty good. I have some good ideas in my head and they are already shaping up.

speaking of shaping up, I'm gonna take the exercise bike for a spin and loosen up a bit...then get a nice warm bath to loosen up all this stress shizzle!

God help me :(

Love Minnie

P.S. Never make tea for your parents in the morning

Oh Serenade

WARNING - this post has ranting.

Ok, I'm tired so I'm just going to bullet point my day.

WHY DOESNT BLOGGER HAVE A BULLET POINT THING???

Oh wait it's because Im on the html thingy and not the compose thingy.

RIGHT THEN -

• woke up far too late (for me)
• Got ready
• Took dog out - he got really hyper in the snow, which got me hyper, so we both ended up running around this field like mad person and dog and I didn't care if anyone saw me because my life does not revolve around impressing others (yeah Im a bit grumpy at the moment because I really want to kick the ass of someone who is an asshole pain in the ass, king of bumfaced donkeyness wally - but yeah I'm tired and shizz of being 'taken for granted' ...*cough* rant over - Ohhh how cruel love is *swoons* (LOL look at me trying to make light of how I feel so my readers will think I'm not ACTUALLY being serious, but actually I am serious - OMG!!!)
• Sarah and I went to town on the bus
• We went to the German market
• We had a German Burger - but the woman at the counter made us wait for ages because she was too busy flirting with this other german guy who worked at the frankfurter stall or something
• I felt shocked that there was such a thing called 'banana sauce'
• We bought one of those marshmallow cloud thingies
• Sarah and I went into a bookstore so we could feel civilized and Sarah saw lots of depressing books written by Russians that she wanted for Christmas
• I just rambled on how I was jealous of all the people who get to read The Count of Monte Christo by Alexandre Dumas for the first time...because I want to read it for the first time again, but I will never be able to because I already have...and I also want to buy numerous copies of it even though I have it twice already - I LOVE IT SO MUCH ITS MY FAVOURITE BOOK!!! Its about REVENGE.
• We then went to HMV and I bought 4 DVD's - Inception, 500 days of summer?? (I forget the title but it has Joseph Gordon Levitt HNNNNG), Australia and Eclipse.
• I feel very satisfied now that Ive bought DVD's
• We then went to next and tortured ourselves by looking at clothes we couldn't afford at the moment
• Then we got a Gingerbread Latte from starbucks cos ITS SO FREAKING COLD
• Gingerbread latte IS DIVINE!!!
• We went home on the bus, this fat man was talking to this woman about cats.
• When we got home we ate dinner
• It was chicken and veg and Yorkshire pudding
• I put Sammy's hoodie on him, OMG HE HAS PUT ON SO MUCH WEIGHT!!
• Then we made a cuppa and Started to watch Inception
• OMGA SDFAOSLUBFASFKH ASFOUGALHSFKNAHSI FYPIAHLSfA ISYFOAHISLFASFIHLKASF AISFHKLASFU ASILFHKASF HASIFLHAKSFHA SIFLHASFKAHSFILAHFKA
• Then we had to take a break because it was Bible Study Time
• I thought daddy would skid the car because our street is so icy and that we would bang into that sexy BMW and we would die in a ball of burning fire, but that didn't happen.
• WE HAD BIBLE STUDY IT WAS ABOUT MOSES AND NO ONE LAUGHED AT MY JOKES BECAUSE THEY ARE WAY TOO SERIOUS! (IdunnowhyIcapsedallthat).
• We came home and still didn't die on the ice
• We made another cup of tea and then watched the rest of Inception
• OAFOUASJLFKA SFYOA*SIHFLKaSFU YPASIHFLKLASF UAISHFLKASFU IAHSFSKFJSDYF HDSKFSYDOGUSDLKF YSDPFHILSKDLFUYSDUFOLSKLDF YSDGOUFHLHSD FYSGOUF
• ITS SO GOOD I CANT EVEN!! ITS JUST SO GOOD!! WHY DID I NOT GO SEE THIS BEFORE NOW??? WHY???? I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN CHINESE MIKES ADVICE WHEN HE SAID GO SEE IT!!!!!
• When the movie finished sarah was like, 'shall we watch another movie?' and I was like, 'No, because they have no hope of being even a tiny bit as good as that and then we will be dissapointed.'
• So we got ready for bed and I spammed twitter about how good Inception is
• and then we watched the latest episode of 'Miranda' to calm down...T__T Miranda and Gary broke up because he married a Hong Kong girl so she could get a green card thingy
• Then I decided to write a short blog
• and then I got furious about how people are so infatuated with how they feel that they don't care about anyone else and how they expect other people to try and understand them even though they dont care about other people and all that shizz!! Why are people even like that???
• And you know whats really something??? Missing a complete pain in the backside. TRY doing that on a good day!!!!
• GOD IM SO ANGRY!
• Ok....Its the season of good cheer *breathes*
• I should pray for those who hurt me and then sleep - I believe that people reap what they sow - Therefore I should forget being angry and just love the pain in the ass.
• Goodnight
• Love from Minnie

I Don't Want to Lose (You)

You know, I really should start being more attentive about tagging my blog posts.

Sometimes I want to know whether I have spoken about anything and I don't know if I have because I never tag anything...I don't on tumblr either...it's not that I'm lazy, I just forget and press 'publish post' and then it's just too late and the end of the world!!!

I really don't know why the entrance subject of my post today is 'tagging'

How boring.

Um so yeah, dad had a migraine today so I wasn't on my own like I usually am every Tuesday.

Everyone seems to be putting up their Christmas decorations up already, but we always put ours up 12 days before the 25th and then take it down 12 days after...its like a tradition. I REFUSE to have decorations up before then.

Wow watching Michelle Phan makeup tutorials is just so relaxing...its like you can be all wound up and feel like beating the snot out of someone and then all you have to do is watch one of her tutorials and the stress just leaves your body.

All the awesome people are called Michelle you know....kekekekeke ~

and I just made one humdinger of a typo, it was like the mother of all typo's - I'm so glad I discovered that in time...that would have been just so embarrassing.

My dog is dreaming and making these weird snory noises...he runs in his sleep too, it so adorable!!!

So today I was sat at the computer and generally bored out of my mind, my head was telling me to draw, but my heart and hands were just not in the mood.

Then I went on ebay to see if I could find Christmas presents for people, but all I did was stare at one thing that I've already decided to get someone and wondering whether they would really like it or if I just want to get it them because I think that it is AWESOME!!

Then I got this HUGE craving to go to the German Christmas market in town because they sell these GORGEOUS marshmallow thingies, Its like eating a cloud...I mean, how you WANT a cloud to taste...not actually how they really taste.

Ohhh you get me!!

but anyway, I wanted to go this evening, but then Sarah and dad were faffing about buying getting new phone contracts and shizzle so we will go tomorrow instead I guess.

Sarah mentioned Tampopo, which is a restaurant which sells various Asian foodz and I wanted to go so I could try Malay food, so depending on how much money I have, we could go there for lunch or dinner or whatever.

There is this member on the forum who's username is 'Me!!!' and I really want then to say hi on the shoutbox so I can say,

'HEY ME!!!'

Yeah cos that's the kind of shizz that makes me laugh...yup!

*sigh*

OHHHH episode 7 of Secret Garden was FINALLY subbed and we watched that tonight!

OMGGGSDLFHSDLFHSDLFKHSLKDHFSLDHFKSLDHFLKSDHFKLSH ITS SO GOOD!!!

I started watching Mary Stayed Out all Night too, but like the awesomeness of Secret Garden has already got me totally biased and even though Mary Stayed Out All Night is cute and good I cant bring myself to watch another episode yet.

I was looking for a dvd to watch last night and I couldn't even find one considering this -



in fact, that's like the tip of the iceburg..so WHY, Couldn't I find anything to watch?

Well the truth is I have this tendency to lend out my dvds and I must have like 30 or 40 unnaccounted for movies scattered at the places of various friends and aquaintences.

and THEY must have all the ones that I feel like watching.

After much thinking about my problem I have found a simple solution.

Tomorrow I must go to HMV and buy more dvds U_U

OMG ITS ALMOST 12AM AND IM NOT EVEN TIRED YET!!!

Just before me and my sis were in the kitchen dancing to music rabidly - I should be tired out of my mind - I was whipping my hair back and forth and everything.

That's the most satisfying thing about having abnormally long hair, you can shake it all about like a male lion

....but in a good way.

AND HERE! the latest thingy tumblr has to offer that I am transferring to here because I RARELY blog personal things on tumblr...well if I do, its more indirect personal rather than RAW Minnie heart vomit-

This is majorly personal, you ready?

Absolutely :D

Do you care about the last person you kissed?

Not at all :) I don't even know what their name is.

Does anything on your body hurt right now?

Nothing physical, no.

Do you swallow gum when you’re done with it?

No, cos it always gets stuck in your throat all day and you can feel it and its so uncomfortable...and then at night you get afraid you might choke and die.

Do you like to cuddle?

Yeah, but it doesn't really happen much...I cuddle my dog a lot though..and my teddy.

Do you still talk to the person you last kissed on the lips?

Nope, he could be dead for all I know.

Do you hate the last person who called you?

NOOOOOOOOOO I LOVE HER!!!!!

Name something you dislike about the day you’re having?

People choosing fakery over true and honest friendship just because they are scared of getting hurt...my advice - Live a little...and not trusting people is insulting their integrity you know.

What does the last message in your facebook inbox say?

I'd tell you, but then I would have to kill you - and I don't have it in me to be a murderer.

Tell me about the shirt you’re wearing?

It's white and it says 'SHINE A LIGHT - first concert' on it. and I freaking adore it.

How long have you lived in your current home?

Since June 2001

Have you ever planted a tree?

Yes I have.

Do you text into the game shows on TV to win 10,000 dollars?

Nope.

Way down in there is any part of you sad?

Yes there is. I won't elaborate though.

How have you felt today?

Normal, slightly bored - I don't feel like crying though and I have laughed frequently...so you know, pretty good really.

Will you be in bed within twenty minutes?

I hope so, but probably not.

First person to speak to you in 2010?

My best friend

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?

Yeah

What’s something you want to purchase next time you’re at the mall?

Dvd's

If you woke up in one of the Saw movies, do you think you could survive?

No, I dunno, I've never actually watched any of those movies. I think they are pointless and crude :/

Would you rather grow old with someone or be single forever?

What a silly question..do I even need to answer it?

Do you like to hold or be held?

I guess it depends on the situation doesn't it.

Do you know anyone that smokes weed?

Yeah

For people that don’t know you, what do they think your age usually is?

16

How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?

None

Do you have someone you always have late night conversations with?

A few people...I blame it on time difference.

Is there someone of the opposite sex you tell everything to?

Yeah I guess.

Do you get mad when people don’t text back?

Not mad...maybe irritable though.

What does your phone do when it receives a new text?

It burps.

Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?

No.

Do you still speak to the last person you slept with?

Not applicable.

Are you going out of town soon?

Probably on Sunday.

The person you had the strongest feelings for dies, do you care?

More than words can say.

Someone says to you, “Lets go to a party and get trashed!” you say?

You obviously have no idea who I am or else you would know that I never 'get trashed'...I'm the one who watches all the 'trashed' noobs fall over.

Do you reply to all your texts?

Yeah

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?

Nope, I slept like a person who gets payed to sleep.

Have you ever peed while on the phone?

On the toilet? yep :D

Your last ex says ‘leaving you was a mistake’ you say?

I think you have the wrong person mate.

Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?

Probably the same, to be honest...this time last year I was realising a few things though...now I'm learning to cope with them....

Is there something that has happened in your past that you really hate talking about?

YES

Are you nice to everyone?

Yes, I try my best to be, even when people don't deserve my niceness...allthough with the people I feel most comfortable with I tend to be less plastic and show my emotions more.

Do you sleep with anything?

My teddy.

Has someone ever made you a promise and broke it?

LOOOOOL

Is there someone you will never forget?

A few people actually.

Do you think you’ve ruined your chances with someone?

No LOL, I don't think anyone ever gave me a chance to ruin.

What is something you currently want right now?

A job

What are your plans for tomorrow?

Take Sarah to town.

What could you eat any day of the week and never get tired of?

Curry

Someone knocks on your window at 5am, what do you say?

I wouldn't know what to say...I would be shocked because someone was actually on the roof.

Do you find drinking unattractive?

Yep, I think it's foul...unless you mean like the ACT of drinking - like water or something...then I think thats normal and healthy and shizzle.

What piercings do you have?

Ears.

Do you like to hold hands?

I dunno, never done that before.

Is someone on your mind right now?

Yeah, like 24/7...what? Its not like I can help it...it's like I've been branded and I have this scar...like cattle.

Any tattoos?

Ew no

Dark hair or light hair in the opposite sex?

Dark yo

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I should probably go to sleep now, I had an epic curry for dinner tonight, It was so satisfying.


(cred for GIF image: fyeahavataraang@tumblr)

Goodnight Darlings

Love from Minnie

Fooling Everyone

*BIG SIGHS*

SOOOOOOOO! After a long deliberation and a quick discussion with my parents I decided that I would drop that course/seminar for today and retake it on Friday - which is in fact, a much better day for me.

I felt so relieved when I'd decided to do that. If I'd have taken it today thousands of my braincells would have died.

I also got a MUCH needed lie in...this past weekend was just so incredibly busy...I think its probably the longest time I have actually spent standing up.

I decided along with Sarah that we should have a family night out so I suggested to my father and mother that we should go watch The Voyage of the Dawn Treader as it is released this coming Thursday (actually on all the signs it says the release date is Friday, but when I went to check times on the Odeon website it said Thursdays date so we shall go then.)

My mum's reaction to my suggestion was,

'OO YES WE MUST.'

(Narnia fan much?)

My dad's reaction was,

'As long as you buy the tickets.'

Such a dad-ish reply, psht!

Mum heard from upstairs and shouted down,

'WE CAN BUY OUR OWN TICKETS!'

...come to think of it, I haven't been to the cinema since Toy Story 3.

I still get a faint streak of horror go through my stomach whenever I think of a dark movie theatre.

DUN DUN DUUUNNNNNNNN!!!!

My dog is snoring, it such a cute sound. My toes curl with joy whenever I hear it.

Sarah and I wanted to go out shopping today because we are both in dire need of new jeans...allthough, to be honest, if I continue with the way I have been eating these past few days, a smaller pair of jeans will not be necessary.

Anyway, it didn't end up happening because we were going to go to the job centre together first and then from there onwards to town, but my mum was like.

'NO minnie!!! You can't drag Sarah everywhere with you, she has her own life!!!'

You know like I am scared of going to the job centre on my own or something?

And I was like,

'Mum we are going somewhere together.'

and she was like,

'No...'

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and I'm sorry, but I have to stop here because I kind of fell asleep and then forgot what I was writing about....yesh, I know...u_u

GOODNIGHT EVERYONE

Love Min

P.S. My dog is trying to push me off the couch, so he can get on and whimpering when I don't move...EEEK!

{Update} Just Stuffs

Hai guys, I'm planning to change my blog layout soon.

If you were wondering where my 'About Me' has gone...I've made a new page for all that shizz, just so I wouldn't have a huge clump of writing down the side of my blog entitled, 'Who is Minnie'.

I've decided to make my little internet house/diary a tad more interesting...so there will be a few more stuffs for you to browse around in the near future.

So anyhoo, I have to go and do a few thingies naaawww so I will be back later with a post for today.

As always, I much appreciate you visiting this abnormal place!!!

LYVM!!!!

From Min

Sam is Worth it

My msn is being such a bum faced donkey I can't even!!!

Well, it's obviously weekend, seeing as this is the only time I DON'T have time to blog.

Weekdays are my freedom...until I get a job that is...but then I'll get money so meh.

Today was so busy. It was they day of the Christmas concert my mother has been planning for MONTHS.

It went really well, but I'm relieved it's over...lots of arguments and horrible things occurred because of the stress of it all.

I was baking cupcakes all day yesterday for the refreshments after the concert and they came out SO well....they were received well too...I'm so happy, they were making me depressed while I was baking them.

LOL, usually cupcakes are like a cute happy thing - you know, like on tumblr on those cute blogs, they post pics of colourful and pretty cupcakes?

Well yesterday cupcakes were like the very devil for me...

*sigh*

Well I'm glad people enjoyed them anyway...though I wont be making some again for a while yet.

On Monday I have to attend this one day course which helps you find jobs that aren't advertised.

It's kind of like a crash course in ninja job searching.

Because I'm being very slow in getting hired (HIRED LOL) so yeah, my jobfinderhelper guy enlisted me to this class.

I'm annoyed that I have to go, but I am trying to think of it in a positive way...cos I really do need a job!!

I mean how many months have I been blogging about this shiz already???

Far too many!!

Allthough, I have been saving money in a special place. Sarah and I have quite a bit of money piling up now.

It's for travel funds.

And I still remember my promise.

I will travel within. next year...I told myself that when I FINALLY managed to obtain my passport.

I'm so slow about everything though...it's because I am very wary and think too much.

In my heart I am adventurous creature, but my head rules my heart and I always end up scientifically analysing everything.

Well anyway, tonight everyone in my family felt like we deserved much chillage time.

So Sarah and I just watched like ten dvds sat of the sofa....ok we watched two dvd's and then caught up with the Secret Garden drama

WHICH BY THE WAY IS SOOOOOOO GOOOD!!

I know I said this in my last post but it gets SOO MUCH BETTER, I MEAN!! SDFOULDJFNGDSGHALSDJKNGASDGHLJASKD BETTER!! YOU HAVE TO WATCH IT!!!

YOU HAVE TO!!!

I BEG OF YOU!!!!

*cough*

I was just telling my sister the other day about how my blog titles don't make sense and that I just write whatever pops into my head and she was like,

'Doesn't everyone do that?'

and I said,

'I dunno'

The she said,

'because Sam is so worth it'

You know, like in the loreal commercials?

So I decided that would be my blog title.

And you know what? He is worth it....IN FACT he is worth a lot more than IT!!

What is 'IT' anyway?

I don't get it....I've just really confused myself now...my line of thought is just sjhdsjkhdkjas.

So yeah, I really don't know what is happening tomorrow. I'm presuming it will involve some church-type activity. but I have no idea where.

Church likes to change locations nowadays...last week it was at our house...the week before it was in Manchester...in fact, it was in manchester for like a month...and before that is was at this womans house.

Its like we are flipping nomads...but whatev's, I just go with the flowww.

The only thing that bugs me is the getting up early part...I WISH FOR SUNDAY MORNING LIE-INS.

Me and Lily are spazzing about Secret Garden on twitter...she loves it as much as I do...which says something...Lily has never EVER finished watching a drama before.

We are just saying how the two leads have excellent chemistry and that they don't kiss like bricks.

I don't think I've ever had that type of chemistry with anyone...I once thought I did so I tested it by touching his hand as much as I could without it looking like I was doing it on purpose and it did nothing for me, there was no sparkage or whatever...in fact, it totally put me off.

Yeah, I tend to do weird tests like that...but I suppose if it was real chemistry I would be scared to death to even touch him at all...because if I did I would probably faint or pee myself or something awful like that

...or just go bright red and make my thoughts extremely obvious.

I guess, if I can touch a guy it means they are like a piece of wood to me...unless I say otherwise.

And if I cant touch them, it means I'm scared of what I may do..OR...I think they are the most revolting thing to have ever set foot on the earth.

Ohhh there was this man at the concert who kept asking me to take the paper off the cupcakes for him because he had a plate in one hand and a cup in the other...and these were his exact words,

'Can you please strip my cupcake'

I LOLLED inside my head

uuhhhh ok!!!

I think I should just shut up and go to sleep...I'm shhaattteeereeed!!!!

Goodnight

Love From Minnnnnieeeeee

Love Like You've Never Been Hurt

Today was predominantly snowy and I spent a lot of time worrying about my parents as they travelled home.

British people are kind of noob when it comes to freak weather changes, so the roads were not prepared for this scale of icyness.

Apparently my mother lost control of the car about 5 times on her way home from work because the brakes were useless on the icy surface...she had to coast through junctions and down hills....its so dangerous...but then the fact that nothing horrible happens makes it kind of bad ass.

My mum came in with her snowy feet and said,

'Ch'yeah I coasted home on the icy roads like a boss!!'

she didn't really say that...I just lied...its just that scenario played through my head and I just typed it out like I had no control over my fingers.

Usually I filter my thoughts so they will be appropriate to be seen by the public eye....but sometimes the filter breaks or I forget to put it to good use.

I'm one of those people - who look nonchalant but have about 50 million things going on upstairs.

For example -

*heavenly guy walks past*

On the outside - u_u

On the inside - OH FREAKING HELL!!! HAVE MERCY!!!! *gives two minutes and then follows in hot pursuit*

Ohhh that reminds me of one time when the Commonwealth Games were hosted in Manchester, our church hosted an event where the cycling was being held and me and my best friend stalked this one guy for the entire day...we were like NINJA's...but the awkward teenage kind.

Awww those were the good old days. I must have been about 14 or 15 then...I dunno, I can't even remember that far back.

Anyway, you may or may not be able to tell, but I am in a MUCH better mood today. I have no idea why. Nothing really has changed...but maybe I have...like I said earlier, I find it hard to bear a grudge.

If I held all the preliminary anger that bubbles up at first I would definitely be a murderer by now...or a serial killer....or an assassin.

As for my destroyed picture...I think I'm just about over it...maybe this is just a chance for me to start something even better...I should make that possible.

And the person who did it found me at 1am this morning and said sorry and hugged me and said they loved me and I believed them...and that is better than a picture.

The past is the past...

Moving On...

Sarah and I started watching a new Korean Drama...its called Secret Garden.



I have to recommend it right now, because it's so darn funny.

I was laughing my socks off through the entire first two episodes.

The characters are great and original...

Also, Hyun Bin plays the main male role and he was my first Korean guy ever...I see him as a kind of immortal being.

I'd say he was in my top ten, but deep inside I know he is above that...he is in the celestial realm.

Do I need to continue? I should think you understand by now that Hyun Bin simply amazes me.

Did I mention he has the most adorable dimples???? EEEEEK!

And the main girl, well I've seen her in other stuff and REEEAAALLY liked her in it, she's one of my favourite Korean actresses and she has this amazing body that I would kill for....I wouldn't actually kill for it.

but you know she inspires me to work out more.

In the drama she plays a stuntwoman so she's well hot innit.

I feel kind of bad that I've forgot her real name, because I really do admire her - imma google it .....dundundundundunnnn....

HA JI WON!!!!! THATS HER :D She's OSM!

but yes, SECRET GARDEN!!! Watch it!!! Its SO DARN GOOD! I've come to that conclusion and I've not even finished the 2nd epi yet....believe me...its much better than all the other big drama's airing now.

WATCH IT NAAWWWWW PPPAAALLLLLIIII!!!!!!!

*cough*

The other day my sister asked the deepest question ever,

'What is fandom?'

It kind of took me by surprise...I'm still in shock.

I've discovered that I must wear my heart on my sleeve a lot more than I thought I did....or maybe I'm just more comfortable around certain people so I let it slip.

I guess its a sort of form of, let the happiness show and leave the sadness locked away or something...but then, I tend to rant about the sadness too.

Ughhh I should focus less on myself and more on other people....other people are amusing and I'm just annoying.

Self absorbed people bug me...I guess that's why I don't rate myself very highly...I'm the most self absorbed person I know....well, almost.

and its almost 12:30 so I'm going to sleep...otherwise I'm going to end up ranting about how Im alreasy missing some things and it will totally bring down the positive vibe that has been holding me together today...IM SO IRRITATED THAT IM FEELING THIS MISSINGNESS!...its wounding my pride. I used to be stronger than this darnit!

Hurrrmmmmmm *sigh*

Love From Minnie